my birthday is killing me

Well, let me ask you a question:
How do you want your life to be and why?

Take some time and actually come up with a reply. Unless you don't wanna, in which case that's cool, but if you do, I'll read it and see what you got going. Also, what degree is it?

>>18700988
What do you write?

You should definitely try speaking your mind out. Find someone in your who you can have a nice conversation with (if you do have someone) and tell them what you are feeling. If you don´t, then (even if they aren´t the most comprehensive of people) try talking to your parents. You are their son and they should love and listen to you no matter what. Speaking may seem terryfing and pointless, but it will definitely be a relief. If non of this works, then you might have to try some more drastical options like getting the fuck outta there nigga. Good luck, if you need any more advise or just someone to speak to just say so, i´d be happy to help

>>18700992

I want my life to be calm and beautiful, and I would like to spend all my time doing what I love to do, because then I would do it better and I would feel better. And also because Im tired of staring at the evil of this world. But the pressure... I thought about going to a monastery, but I do not know ...

It is a degree on Philosophy.

>>18700998

I write stories, ideas and poems, but mostly stories. In Spanish.

>>18701071
Then pursue that. People will say you can't and that it's dumb and that you can't support yourself, but you know what? If you fucking wanted to, you could pack your crap now, get an axe and walk into the woods and build a cabin and all the supplies you need. All you gotta do is break free from what society expects of you.
Everything you know about how people should live their lives has been taught to you. And you don't have to follow that path.
I'm not saying breaking from the mould is easy, but with the right preparation, you could feasibly just say "Fuck 21st century culture" and start something yourself.
You have choices man, it's just up to you to figure which choices get you to where you want. You're your own person, and you get to make your own choices.

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>>18700988
What do you want to do with your life? Do it.

>>18701111
Commenting on that ridiculous picture:
Merely choosing to be happy will make you as happy as choosing to live on Pluto will make you live on Pluto.
Choice is but one step out of many and but far the easiest.

>>18701132
Agreed.
With choices, must also come action or else nothing will happen.

>>18700988

I haven't celebrated a birthday or any holidays in at least 8 years.

But anyways start pursuing things you enjoy