I'm pretty sure there are plenty of people here with this problem, but it's affecting my everyday life.
To start out, I've always had this fear of death. I mean, debilitating fear. I guess it started around middle school (22 now). Every time I would think about my future, I would think about growing old, and then start to think about death. Usually it just made me uneasy, but often times I would start getting tunnel vision. My heart would start racing, and I would feel like I can't breathe. This would happen out of nowhere if I just started to daydream or imagine anything. I just sort of learned to get over it and ignore it.
Come about two weeks ago, my grandfather passed away, whom I was really close to. Now ever since, I think about death every day, almost every hour. I know death is just part of life, but it's really putting a strain on my everyday life. I can't focus on school work or my job. I can't even focus on my hobbies anymore, as I'll just start hyperventilating and freak out. I feel like I'm on this miniscule time limit that will shut my conscious off. Reality just seems surreal to me now, and fake. I just don't know if I should just continue to ignore it, or should I seek some sort of help.
>>18697858
Ah, thanatophobia. My old friend.
Yes, you should seek some sort of help, as in a therapist. Talk to a therapist before you see a psychiatrist and get any medications. (not that there is anything wrong with medications) Thanatophobia isn't something that should be taken lightly, and certainly isn't something you should take on by yourself.
In my case the condition stemmed from a big change in my life, "coming of age" is the second most common trigger for it, the first being your situation - a close death. Outside of that there a bunch of different causes and more elaborate factors that come into play, which is what a therapist will help you get to the root of and help you solve or confront.
Good luck