I want to disappear

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So I have a pretty bleak future and it will not look any better anytime soon. I wish to disappear before college so I have a chance to actually get a job with my dim ass future. So I have pretty bad family issues with bad relationships for the past 5 years and I just want to get the fuck away from them. My dad is an oversensitive, uptight, ass that has no sense of my privacy that left my mother over a fucking football a guy gave to my brother while he was deployed to Afghanistan. The guy ended up being a dick anyway. He finds a Native American bimbo who he is 20 fucking years older than and she had two annoying little shits. She's a fucking gold digger that my dad takes on some expensive trips and only works 15 fucking hours a week. She left the previous husband who I know as one of nicest men I have ever met because his money began to run dry. My mother is an annoying, fatmouthed Italian who does not listen to me and gets ridiculously overprotective if she sees one fucking edgey comment or username on fucking discord or whatever out of the thousands of fucking people. my brother is a bit of a mixture of my parents. he is a snotty, spoiled, lazy little shit that I want to beat up on a daily basis who constantly antagonizes me and my parents don't do shit about it. Coupled with my Mental issues such as Insomnia, Aspergers, SMD,anxiety, bipolar, social issues, depression, and who lot of other shit makes things even better. My father recently found a channel that I used to make fun of degenerates and went fucking apeshit over it and now thinks I might have schizophrenia or some shit because of it. Have I considered suicide? Yes, many times over years I could have done it as my father took me to the range a few times and some mountain tops I could have done it and got very close most of times, Why did I not? Well that is for many reason but the number 1 reason is because it makes me look like a pussy who can't handle what life throws at him.