No matter what, I never seem to be satisfied with my life. Are my expectations too high? I've had objectives, but when I achieve them, I don't feel as happy and fulfilled as I thought I would've. I get interested in someone, but when I get to know them better they're not as amazing as they appeared initially. I have an amazing group of supporting friends, but I'm still never satisfied somehow.
This might be the result of me being into fantasy books/anime/games etc when I was younger. Reading about the character's adventures and exciting life made me feel hopeful for the future as a kid. Now it just makes me depressed when I compare it with my boring, average life. People using social media to reveal their lifestyle to the whole world, even though it's obvious they're filtering so only the good and enviable parts are visible, may also be another cause. I think the root of my problems is my inability to stop comparing myself to others.
What's annoying is that I have no reason to feel this sad. I have a nice loving family, good friends, no financial problems, in a very stable situation in general. But I can't help but feel depressed, not for the shit I've been through, but out of an abstract frustration. The carrot's been dangling right in front of my nose for years now, but I can never grab it. How do I stop desiring the impossible? How do I stop comparing myself to others?
You will always desire the impossible. Man is an animal equipped with desires that the world cannot fulfill. The only way to be kind of happy is to accept that. No one can tell you how to do that.
So just keep chasing the carrot, even though by the time you reach it it will be rotten...That's hard to accept, but you're probably right. And I suppose the most important thing is the chase. I'm usually more content when I have an objective to achieve, one that's interesting and engrossing enough for me to forget that the "carrot will be rotten".