How do you stop being addicted to loneliness. Some backstory,

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How do you stop being addicted to loneliness.

Some backstory, my family is quite well off, and while my sisters and parents have always got along, ever since I was a kid I never really enjoyed the same stuff they did. They still love me but there's an obvious divide, which is fine. We moved every 2-3 years when I was growing up, all around the world, and I got used to leaving behind everything and moving on with life really fast. After 5 or 6 times I stopped bothering to make new friends as much. This doesn't mean I became a friendless shut in, just never really got that close to anyone. Now I'm 20 and still struggle to get close to people, I keep going through this yearly circle of getting a new friend group, basically as a different person, and then isolating myself a short while later and not talking to them again. I don't know how to stop this but it means I spend a good 3-4 months of the depressed and lonely. Last year I started university, I'm doing really well, get along with everyone in my course, get good grades and get along well with my lecturers, but I'm afraid that I'll do something drastic to separate myself, which is worrying cause I have another 2 years, and I'm living with friends this year. Please help if you have any understanding of this situation, sorry if this post is a mess I'm writing this on mobile so expect formatting and proofreading to be garbage.