What drug can make me a better person? Im so fucking passive

Adderall.

>>18678766
>cocaine
fucking retarded idea

>>18678766
>adderal
pretty terrible idea

>>18678695
>testosterone
if you use the right amount and don't become some kind of roid freak, this has a good chance of helping

MDMA in limited quantities and specific circumstamces.

Acid.

>>18678770
Adderall is not cocaine moron,
it's meth.

>>18678770
>Testosterone
What if you're a woman. Does that still work? Or am I just gonna become a trans faggot.

>>18678801
>adderal is meth, moron
uh, sure.

I meant to quote op on the cocaine part. he somehow thinks that becoming a coked up car salesman is going to help.

>>18678808
>what if you're a woman?
find somewhere you belong, instead of trying to impress randos.

if you're getting bullied, just try sticking up for yourself. most women don't do that, so it's probably the equivalent of throwing a punch as a male.

>>18678816
oh and if you're female then cocaine is probably going to lead to prostitution rather than car sales, although women are welcome on the floor too.

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>>18678816
Ah shit the retarded one is me.
Didn't read OP correctly. I apologize anon I'm gonna go commit seppuku to regain my honor now

>>18678816
oh and sticking up for yourself is not getting passive aggressive or catty back. it's just saying "Can you refrain from saying mean things like that?" or, "I couldn't care less what people say behind my back. I live my own life."

>>18678822
I was being confrontational don't worry about it. You're not retarded.

>>18678695
There are so many unique physiological factors including your biochemistry and Neurology that its impossible to tell what will work for you

Dont care about side effects

Cocaine overdrives the reward system. It will make you feel amazing snd confident beyond anything you ever could have imagined.

The come down is terrible and it begins work right away on building dopamine tolerance until it takes more cocaine than you can get your hands on to feel just normal, and feeling normal without it becomes impossible. Youll be worse off then than you are now. You do care about the side effects. You just dont know it because youre delusioned and desperate.

Do your goddamned homework and think with your brain, not your feels.

>homework

While were there, there is a wealth of literature and peer review medical journals on nih . gov that supports psychadelics will help you.

They have not been shown to cause any meaningful link to long term mental damage, (regular users are less likely to be mentally ill in fact), and one good trip can cure your woes for up to a year if your brain receives it properly (again. Unique factors. Might not work at all for you.)

My most recommended path for you as a well educated and well read person on this sort of thing, would be cognitive behavioural therapy. If you choose this path talk to a doctor first (a general practitioner) and get a referral to ensure you get a PhD science based therapist and not a fraudulent therapist. Theyre very common unfortunately because calling yourself a therapist does not require a PhD like some professional medical trades. You could get an idiot with a 2 month college course on "asking about dads."

doing drugs to combat weakness is just going to create more underlying weakness. you need to get strong. fight for your right, etc.

>>18678816
I've uh, tried all the self help bullshit really. Did the therapy, did the mental mind tricks, none of it did anything for me and I feel like it's just a placebo type thing.
Only one who bullies me is myself, I just hate myself from the core and everything I do. The social anxiety is at it's most extreme, like for example I went to campus the other day with the goal of attending some club meeting so I could get myself out there and make some friends, as soon as I saw the group of students all congregating and talking I ended up walking straight past them. I willed my legs to stop, telling myself "I'm here, I'm here, stop walking you're supposed to be over there, go over there and talk to someone" but my legs would not stop. I just kept moving bc the group intimidated me so much and the fear of standing out as being the only person who came there by herself overrode my conscious.

When you're in anxiety that deep, I feel like some sort of medical/physical thing is needed to correct it. My conscious wants to make friends, but my body/brain refuses to let me. I go into fight or flight mode or something, and it's always flight.

>>18678816
>>18678821
Also sorry should specify I'm not OP.
I just commonly see the testosterone thing being suggested for men with anxiety problems and I wondered if there was any equivalent for women. Because I think injecting more estrogen into me is just gonna make me even more emotional and scared.

Idk how much testosterone a woman can take before she starts to grow a beard or something. I assume we can take a little without it fucking up our body noticeably

>>18678833
>Anons being this nice on /adv/
Where am I, bless you kind sir.

>>18678695

Talk to your doctor about ketamine infusion for depression.

>>18678870
does this run $400, $800, or $1600? I can't remember how often follow up treatments are needed.

>>18678881

I'm not sure. I believe it varies. Initially you are given doses daily for 1-2 weeks then monthly I think.

Have you considered using cannabis? Marijuana is a great alternative to pharmaceuticals.

Also doing a good dose of LSD or mushrooms in a comfortable setting and with people you trust can also be very helpful.

>>18678916
I'm the femanon ITT
How far out do you think we(the US) are from legalizing weed completely?
I've considered doing the 3 day drive to colorado just to try some brownies or something and see if that chilled me out, but I don't want to risk getting thrown in jail over it and it's illegal in my state.

Also in your opinion do you think the effect on social anxiety is any different from alcohol? bc I have gotten the advice of "just get drunk and you won't care anymore" and tried that but even completely plastered drunk I'm a ball of nerves in social settings.

>>18678916
i already tried some psychedelics and the expierences were very good. I felt more in touch with nature and myself but it didnt help me with my social problems.

>>18678857
DONT DO TESTOSTERONE IF YOU ARE A WOMEN. You wont get your period anymore, your jaws will become more masculine (not reversible), your voice will get deeper, your clit will grow and your nose will get larger. Its a really, really bad idea. Men are also likely to have side effects but nothing this terrible.

>>18678964
nobody I know who is stoned all the time is actually stronger. they just use it for the boost and to dissociate from their own flaws and the flaws with their life.

I don't see why becoming stronger is such a terrible idea that people knowingly turn to drug dependence

>>18678974
Damn. Even if its just a little?
I wish women could have a pure confidence injection like this.

>>18678976
Well I'm also just looking for a boost so that normal methods of getting around social anxiety even become possible.
I'm looking for something that will at least give me control over my own body again, calm me down enough so that I actually can will myself to make the changes needed to get stronger.

Bc right now I'm in a hole so deep I can no longer see light, I need someone to toss me a ladder just so I can get high enough out of the hole TO see that light so I can climb the rest of the way out with my own two hands.

>this pity-party
Get your shit together out of your own incentive, a bunch of strangers on Taiwanese crocheting forum with their sweet (You)s won't make your life better. Neither will drugs. Stop being a pansy if you don't like being one, it's simple and straightforward like that. Stop whining and pitying yourself because this for sure won't help.

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>>18679023
>Have you tried just not having anxiety/depression?

Gee, got a real wonderchild here.

>>18678916
Where do you even find LSD, everyone I've met only knows where to get shrooms, weed and H

>>18679029
If it's the issue of either, OP should go to a mental health specialist. If one therapist doesn't help, try another. Same regarding meds. Crying about this here won't help the OP. What she does now is seeking attention and indulging in her wretched state, and pleasant as it might be, it will not help her to improve her situation.

>>18679054
this is actually true. "wretched" seems extreme, though.

>>18678964
Well with nevada, Maine, Massachusetts and California legalizing this year, plus the ridiculus revenue generated by recreational cannabis sales in states like Colorado, there is a lot of support for legalization in a lot of states that are still illegal. I'd hazard a guess and say like 10 years for most states to become legal. I think that some of the less educated places will probably fight legalizing for ever. Its hard to call that.

As far as worrying about getting arrested for weed, I'm a nomad traveler and have been to most of the states and I feel like as long as you aren't wreckless and doing stupid shit like say blazing while driving then the cops really don't care about a little bit of pot. I find they care more about Meth or Heroin these days. I smoke in every state cause I don't give a fuck aboot some damn pigs.

As far as the social axiety goes, I feel like weed helps me melt that away. Plus with bud compared to alcohol I feel like its better because I don't become an emotional ball of nerves, run my mouth, or become incoherant. It helps me slow down, chill oot, and keep a calm happy head when shit is chaotic.

I personally think drinking till you don't care is idiotic at best and isn't going to make any situation better. Alcohol makes people fuck things up and make mistakes. IMO.

Feel free to ask any other questions. Hope you find the feedback some what useful. Cheers

>>18679054
I'm not op, but popped in because similar issues and questions. My only distinction is I'd rather keep it legal.

See>>18678849
I've tried therapy, I went to 5 or 6 of them over the course of 10 years. I'm not here just to whine I really do want some actual advice on what to do next, maybe from someone who's gone through it, because I just do not see therapy helping me. The core function of it all doesn't work with me.
If talking/complaining about my problems worked, I wouldn't even be in this thread doing just that like you think I am. I've talked about my problems until I'm hoarse with many different people, paid them thousands of dollars to listen to me, and never went home feeling any better. Because every time I get finished bitching, all the therapists ever say is "and how does that make you feel?" I just fucking told you bitch, like shit now tell me how to fix it. Pro tip, they never tell you how to fix anything. They're not even supposed to give advice or tell you anything, just be a $5000 per session ear to listen to you.

Believe me, I'd be way less broke if all I needed to cure my anxiety was to bitch about it, because I can do that easily on 4chan, but I already know bitching about it doesn't work. I want actual advice. Someone give me actual advice, whether you have a meme degree or not.

>>18679035
West coast all day bby

>>18679082
Well yeah, I know the likelyhood of getting the max sentence on weed is low, but it just takes one stick in the mud cop needing a win to slam ya, you know?
Like I've been pulled over for speeding many times in my life, I'd say at least 50% of the time I just get a warning. and 49% of the time I get a low level ticket and told to slow down. But the 1 time I got pulled over for 20 over they were gonna give me JAIL TIME for reckless driving (despite me not going any faster than anyone else on the interstate or changing lanes or anything remotely reckless, just driving fast with the flow of traffic). I got a lawyer and got it downgraded, but shit if I hadn't done that I was gonna be going to jail for driving the same speed as everyone else, just being unfortunate enough to be the one the cop put his radar on. So I'd be spooked to get jail time over a small amount of pot regardless just by being unfortunate enough to get the one dick cop in the county to slam me for it.

But thanks for your input on the effects of weed vs alcohol. I've never tried weed before in my life, but if/when it becomes legal I think I'll give it a try.
Guess what I might ask is as someone who's never touched the devil's lettuce in my life, how do I know how much to do? Especially if it's in edible form, I've got smoke induced asthma so smoking it would be out of the question for me. Might kill me lol. I do have a friend in colorado I've been wanting to visit, but just don't ever have time or money at the same time lol.

>>18679133
Word if the pigs know who you are then its not worth the risk.lol.

As far as edible consumption, if you are in a legal state when you try them you can go to a dispensary and the edibles will tell you how much THC/CBD is in it and I would just eat em 1 mg at a time. Giving yourself at least an hour between each dose so you can see if you like the effects. Definitely make sure you know how strong brownie is before you consume it because they can be overbearingly strong/psychedelic if you just eat the whole thing.

Be safe haha

>>18678786
Fucking this. My first MDMA roll literally turned my life around. That shit is a sacred medicine and it makes me sad to see how casually it's used and abused.

OP, I personally use Modafinil. Adderall works but you need to be careful about your usage because it can and will change your personality.

Try Red Bull.

I dealed with incredible social anxiety about 5 years ago. Therapy didn't help, in the end I was the one who solved this.

I found out that the thought of "people don't care about you, they all are judging you" was somehow buried deep within me since I was bullied as a child. I tore that muthafucka off like a bandaid.

Do you ever notice how even strangers are concerned about you when you have an anxiety attack?

Or how about the fact that I'm here right now? Means something right?

Anyone who judges people were are just distracting themselves from their own insecurities in life. They are unable to see how you don't need to be liked by other people to know you are doing the right thing. Broken people attract broken people. Then they bring forth more broken people into this world.

>>18678822
you mean sudoku?