I just remembered when I was taking my mom to start her chemo treatment. She was having such a hard time even moving, but I saw her looking at the mirror trying to comb her hair which was almost all gone from the chemo before going out.
That was her final treatment before she had passed.
My heart sank and I haven't recovered. And I don't think I ever will.
She passed away March 12th of this year and I've been severely depressed since then.
>>18672492
I'm so very sorry, anon. I know how painful and difficult it is to deal with losing someone close to an illness. I wish I could give you good, valuable advice - but unfortunately, I can't. I think only time can help us to heal. My grandma passed give years ago and most of the time I'm doing okay, but sometimes I remember a little thing about her and all the pain comes back.
Do your best to come back to your daily routine, school, work, meeting with friends. Allow yourself to feel the pain, to cry, to express your emotions. It will get easier with time, hang in there anon.
>>18672492
Wow OP that's rough. I'm not sure if I have any advice for you, but at least know that there's an anon out there that feels for you.
>>18672492
Family and loved ones are your best support, you're all gong thru the same things.
>>18672492
There's no reason not to be sad. That was your momma. Once the most important person in your life, and now in a place you can't ever go until your time comes. There's no way to just "get over it".
I find that music helps me when I'm down, and I'm not sure if you're into rap, but I have a suggestion if you're willing; Tech N9ne had a lot of problems dealib g with his own mother's varied illnessss. If you want I'd encourage you to watch these videoa. It tells the story of him dealing with his mother's illness and eventual death.
https://youtu.be/N1FWNX1_l78
https://youtu.be/900ScDcIHvE
https://youtu.be/OlzzYDcYcP8
https://youtu.be/Sxks3Z6QByc
https://youtu.be/f1BxbMngy20
https://youtu.be/Rc7ouiG5zjM
Then these alterbridge songs have helped me work through a lot of grief:
https://youtu.be/WEmqMD-DBk0
https://youtu.be/BgGCvPOwmbc
https://youtu.be/RkrQ6tpXvdM
Hopefully at the very least these offer a distraction. Sorry about your mother friend. I hope you feel better. There's very little else anyone can offer. Don't give up on yourself though.
>>18672492
Less than 6 months isn't very far into the grieving process. You are normal.
If you like, you can join a grief support group. It might help to talk about it.