GIOYC

I want to go home.
No one has ever been this ready before.

Though, I am 100% certain that nothing is going to happen. You've fucked with me enough. Just getting me hyped for absolutely no reason.

>>18672259
J
I miss you. I wish i could have gone back and tried again with you. I want us to talk again.

L

How do you think it went down when the messenger of god told Christ that he would be tortured and killed for the sins of man?

Do you think he took it better than I am?

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>Oldest in the family.
>Younger siblings getting married
>Almost 30
>Never been kissed
>mfw

Happy birthday :)

Like, do they care when I take my own name in vain?

>>18672259

I love you as a person you can be caring and very empathetic towards others who need your help, which is why your feminist ideals and convenient political double standards really make me fucking angry and I just do not understand them.

Especially when you say that you hate extremists in one breath, then say that being radical is not a bad thing in another. Dont you see? this bullcrap is whats causing the tensions between people, this is what is currently plaguing our side of the world!

People who you think are nazis do not deserve to be physically assaulted for just existing. for fucks sake.

Fuck. How is it we have managed to reach this point? I am scared to share how I feel with you and I can see you feel the same. Our souls have helped each other in ways I never thought possible! Within this path of self and mutual discovery we managed to heal. ....seperately. It is a magnificent creation this love of ours, maybe it came too quickly. We each have an overwhelming amount of self hatred. This appears to have caused seeds of doubt from previous relationships to uncontrollably sprout.

Maybe in the end it was meant to show us just how love is supposed to feel. I want to reap the rewards and continue to work on our love garden. I'm just not sure we have enough water left to quench the dry desert storm we have become. Who knows though- beautiful things can still grow in harsh environments.

That October night did I die? I remember going to bed with my heart barely able to keep a beat thinking "Holy shit, I did it finally."

I fell asleep with a smile.

Did you bring me back from the dead. Did they watch me die?

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I swung the bat.
Like trying to hit a baseball through a sandstorm, I swung before I even thought of swinging, or even had view of the ball. The heavy thump of the hit didn't register in my mind at the time. I only started running. Where? No idea, I just started running.
It wasn't until later that I felt the sting upon my hands, the dread that came washing over me as I drove to work, having realized what I had done. I'm scared as well, and I have been for sometime, terrifyingly so. I don't want to lose what we have shared so far. I should have been happy that in the vast ocean that is this life, I found a kindred spirit to share this strange sense of comfort with. Why did I have to complicate things? It should have remained quiet, until we could have talked about something like this. In a few minutes, I changed the dynamics of our companionship. That you would call me brave, even that is too kind. God, I hope this doesn't end because of my stupidity.

I'm so sorry I put this on you. I should have kept my mouth shut. It's too soon for people like us to actually feel happy with another's company.

Kill me, but when do you, look me in the eyes as you do it and I will never hate you. I will simply cherish the time we shared.

Lmao. You are so full of shit.

Long distance gf of almost two years left me month ago
Messaged me today to let me know she finally got US citizenship which I helped her with throughout our relationship

and I'm on my last cig

I can't keep getting rejected by you but I also can't get over you.

You are literally boring me to death.

I want to go home.

Still thinking about someone I can't have.
I got used to it like you'd get used to a mild chronic pain

Do you ever get the feeling that your teacher is really fucking stupid?
Like I get you have post-grad level of knowledge on physics, but how can anyone possibly know their schedule for next semester WHEN NO PROFESSOR HAS SUBMITTED THEIR CLASS SCHEDULES YET.

This is what I get for going to a Liberal Arts college where there's no Physics degree and Math is an afterthought after Business.

>>18672454
Just keep at it anon. There's always hope as long as the gardeners want to keep trying. There will always be dry spells and rainy seasons. One helps you get through the other. Or at least I think so.

She moved on, I haven't

Happy 26th anniversary, me....
Let's eat this shit brownie, alone.
Like we deserve.

I've been rejected yet again by a girl in college. My friends are fakers and I bailed on them. Now I'm watching fullhouse alone in my room. Very sad.

>>18672778
yes, this.

When those guys joked that you should marry me, inside I was saying yes, please, while laughing awkwardly on the outside. I've never felt this way about anyone before, and don't imagine that I will again. It's hard to be your friend and to remain emotionally and physically unavailable.

I hate how sexually charged I am most of the time. I hate how I can't not behave like a dog around you so I distance myself from you. I want to be able to be in public with you without being consumed by lust. I hate myself

>>18672259
This boy is literally the best fuck in existence and I am legit worried I'm not going to be a good enough gf and he'll dump me and no one will ever satisfy me again. I don't wanna tell him cuz it's embarrassing and anyway he'd just tell me I'm fine but... Like literally if I made a list of my top ten sexual encounters, like 6 would be with him. We've already been dating for close to a year and I just wanna drive to his work and try to get him to fuck me in my car while he's on break. I love him, but I focus too much on the chemistry because I'm obsessed

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I need to stop getting my own hopes up. This girl is way out of my league. Athletic, very good looking, outgoing with tons of friends, loves the outdoors. Yet I'm just some average looking weeb who's probably a little too smart for his own good.
She probably wants someone who is just as passionate about the outdoors. The only thing that's attractive about me is my burning ambition to be an astrophysicist and work on spaceflight.

Yet here I am, trying to convince myself that she'd never see me as more than a friend, yet still subconsciously believing that I have a chance. Well, I guess trying and failing is better than not trying at all. Vulnerability is strength.

I hope you know I don't howl and produce retarded slang. I miss you clicking the switches off and on. Fate is cruel and punishable, spare a beat, spare a garple of air, I will burn for you till I burn myself out. You are worth a struggle, I will forever be incomplete without you.

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Just eat normally they say, you'll lose weight that way. Hah.
Whenever I eat the recommended 1200 calories a day I balloon up like a fucking whale
Whenever I only eat 300-500 I lose weight. Fuck your shitty weight loss advice, you're just trying to keep me fat.

>>18672779
I dunno, but I had a worthless bulldyke teacher who hated my guts and never helped me when I asked for it.

I hope she's fired, but I know that'll never happen. She's the reason I dropped out.

>>18672686
X2

I love my girlfriend and I'm I'm going to ask her to marry me in a few years but I miss fucking milfs and hooking up on online dating websites. I fantasize about it all the time and porn doesn't help. I sometimes make fake okcupid accounts and gmail accounts to respond to craigslist personals and flirt with people to get off on that.

I never send pictures of myself or my contact info and I never meet up with them but I just feel so gross when I do that, she doesn't know and I'd probably never tell her, she already lets me watch porn and doesn't mind it so I just feel itd be a stretch to explain it to her but fuck man, i need some help

>>18673099

Give it a shot.

Oh, but chill with the "too smart for my own good" stuff. You may be better at astrophysics than the average person (and good for you! work hard, build asteroid-mining robots!) but the average person is a brick with a smiley face roughly chalked on it, and even the cleverest person alive is gonna do something boneheaded several times a week.

Try the outdoors, though. There's fun stuff out there. Frogs and such.

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>>18672259
>girl that I liked ends up finding a new BF within a week after I messaged her

Yea, I fucked up royally here.

I'm addicted to you.

I fucking hate how political people have become. I fucking hate how fake everyone is becoming. It's disgusting. I see friends picking different sides, eating slightly different flavored shit and being brainwashed. I was told World War 3 was going to happen, and yet the warm flames of nuclear war haven't touched me yet. I'm disgusted with how pathetic humanity has gotten. I hate people, and I'm far happier being a hermit. I don't care for love or children, I just want to live happy. Everyone wants to make me unhappy. I'm going to tell my friends to fuck off, going to find some place far away. I'm going to be fucking happy, one way or another.

>>18673138
By "too smart for my own good" I mean that in the sense that because I'm smart, I believe I can achieve some really great things, and I have an obligation to use my head for the benefit of humanity as a whole. I don't think the average person is dumb, and I actually love people. Everyone can be a clumsy bonehead but their emotions are the same as mine.
>Try the outdoors, though. There's fun stuff out there. Frogs and such.
I actually live out in the middle of nowhere. I've thrown out countless wolf spiders. I do enjoy the outdoors, especially camping and kayaking. But I'm also a bit agoraphobic so I'm generally not in a rush to go outside.

I freakin love birds though. Went to New York City once. I fell in love with the pigeons.

I really fucked up bad on this one. I'm sorry I broke your heart. You were the type of love life give you young so that you'll know what you're missing out on for the rest of your life. Goddamn I still talk to you in my head like you're here because you're the only one that gave a damn. You loved me whole heartedly and I'm so ignorant to have not seen that. I would give anything to have you back. I would wait 50 years for you because no one compares to you. Hell, I have a new boyfriend now and he's absolutely shit. Nothing like you at all, he doesn't even tell me he loves me. I remember you couldn't go 10 minutes without telling me you loved me or kissing me. Just let me talk to you one more time please, I'll make it right again

Mom died today. I live with her and she was my best friend. I love you so much.

>>18673209
It's okay, I always knew that women weren't capable of love.

>>18673112
She's someone's cup of tea. Fit girls are more attractive. That balloon feeling you're having is bloat which is completely normal. If you ate a healthy diet regularly you would be able to tell how much you can eat to maintain and lose weight by exercising.

>>18673186

Agreed on the fact that now every action. you make can be construed as political in some way by some whack job. They can fucking obliterate your life in a minute if you dont follow their political leaning or if you just *seemed* to disagree with them, no questions asked.

>be me, 20 years old
>best friends with a 25 year old at university for 2 years
>realised a while ago that I love him
>never talk about it directly
>he knows because I show it through acts
>reciprocates all my investment

>take MDMA (again) at a party
>he asks me to define our relationship
>admits to me he loves me unconditionally and that he knows I feel the same
>get interrupted by other friends on MDMA
>sober down, never talk about this again

>present day
>exhausted from the lack of openness about this
>he lives with girlfriend which is making it difficult to open up this topic again

I know it's very gay, but we highly enjoy spending time together, however I don't want to keep these feelings in me.
The fact that we are not talking about it is making this relationship unhealthy as I feel as if it is not honest and it's not progressing the way it should. It's damaging and it's getting difficult.

If I talk to him about it, it might likely be that we will decide to stop seeing each other altogether as this might be a better solution.

Any comment on this, I will really appreciate it.

I have until next week to think about it because that's when university starts and we will both be back to campus.

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>tfw asked a qt a question in passing on campus
>tfw she initiates conversation
>tfw I probably would've asked for and gotten her number if I wasn't insecure about shit like acne

I feel like she would be happier if i just went away but i know id only make her more dissapointed if i killed my self

I majorly fucked up with finances and overdrafted my bank account by $1,500. Now I had to confess my mistake to my mom, while she's going to cover it until I pay her back, I feel awful cutting her short on her bills. I fucked up and the only thing I can think of is suicide. I owe roughly $20k in student loans (I didn't even graduate yet), have terrible credit and now this. On top of that I'm waiting to hear back from interview and if I don't get the job I'm screwed. I want to kill myself because I know none of my debts are going to be transferred to my family (no cosigner). Killing myself looks like the best option to get out of this situation quick.

>>18672259
Now I'm also gonna be alone at the 1st,just like you. A stranger inside somewhere he knows he shouldn't be here. But you found it. It's out of my reach. And you guys are right,my self-loathing makes me not realize and appreciate people who try to care for me. And I don't know how to fix that. If I want to fix myself. I like myself broken and I hate to see me getting back on my feet again and I can't stop doing that to me.

>>18673433

what if you go for another interview if this one fails? Just one more. And then one more.

everything seemed reasonable until you said those three little words. why did you have to say it? i was ready to leave forever, now i'm alone and choking on your words.

I thought I was going to finally have a life but I'm back to being a NEET loser.

>dad ends up in ICU after graduating highschool
>didn't have a job or plans to go to college so I was the one visiting almost everyday
>spent almost a year at the hospital before he finally passes away
>ended up being really depressed and doing absolutely nothing for years
>wasted my late teens/early 20's just eating, sleeping and masturbating
>became almost 400lbs in the process
>so much of a loser, I had to borrow my mom's phone for the super rare times I did go out
>read texts between my family. Everyone calling me fat and useless. Brother trying to convince everyone to kick me out of the apartment
>suicidal thoughts gets more intense
>some time after that, I eventually join a gym... using mom's credit card
>after a year, dropped 100lbs
>gained a little more confidence
>went to a temp agency and got a minimum wage job
>start kinda feeling normal again
>temp job ends and the place I was assigned to doesn't want to hire me
>"that's fine. I got 7 months warehouse experience. I'll find something"
>months pass and nothing
>money I had left from savings are gone trying to pay my share or rent
>27th Birthday recently passed
>only have $10 is cash and only $20 in my bank
>only 2 people greeted me. My sister who dislikes me and my mom who pity's me
>realize I have have nothing and no one

>someone is threatening to find me because I haven't called them in a while
Fucking hell, it's bad enough I work in this crummy ass job, but to have an old demon of my past try to chase me pisses me off.
The worst part is I know she'll probably head to my workplace first and foremost. I don't want to deal with that humiliation and shame.

However, to stop her, I have to call her. I don't want to do that. She's fucking vile and terrible to talk to, she has nothing to contribute, and quite frankly, I have literally no reason to even deal with her. All she does is bitch and complain about how miserable her life is and how she wants to live with me, still. I have my job, but she doesn't have hers. She has no business picking on me either, I want her to go the fuck away and leave me be. I don't care if she commits suicide or whatnot, I just care that I don't have my past evils crawl back into my life.

Listen, scummy as this is, I don't want to take care of people until I'm certain I have the patience, manpower, resources, and mercy to do so. I have neither of these and my job pays peanuts. I can't support a fucking full grown human on peanuts, and she can't do anything to get herself up from the ground. She broke up with me and I'm just not in the mood to be merciful, but not in enough of a mood to be wrathful. She used to fuck an old man behind my back, and they have this retarded on-again-off-again relationship. I ran the fuck away from her and redeveloped a life of my own just so I can avoid her fate.

I'm beyond upset I'm being blackmailed by a horrid ex. I just want her to go away and stay away forever. I made extremely sure she'd leave me the fuck alone, but it appears I have failed.

I can't even call the cops on her because I don't know where the fuck she's lurking. I know they won't give a shit about my case because since she's everywhere, what's the point of helping me? Ugh.

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You're both toxic and I wish I had the courage to cut you both out of my life. The fact that you both jump to suicide when things get rough I feel to guilty at the idea of not being there to be the ear. Your relationship is a mess, and I hate that I know the intricate details of how you are both hurting each other - and that fact that you're both too cowardly to call it quits drives me crazy. The worst part is that your toxicity bleeds into my life, my relationships, my job. The worst part is despite all the help I give, the shoulder to cry on, that the favor is never returned and you're quick to put me down to make yourselves look better or ignore me outright.

One day I'll grow a spine, I'll stop being a doormat and stop giving a shit if one or both of you off yourselves.

>>18673396
She was probably just being nice, you obvious virgin

I just want a friend, a real friend. I feel so lonely.

>>18673517
Same here, but I live in a world where true friendship and camaraderie is nonexistent. I've made peace with my fate and I'm only speaking in mild formalities to people.

I fucking hate this world and I just want someone to ease my agony by showing me their interests while I can show them mine and we could both power our worlds with joy and entertainment.

girlfriends are useless for this tbqh. I just want some friends to dork out with, or bring me somewhere fun while I plan on another fun place, or we could all just sit at home playing some game while we're just chatting during the play sessions.

Autistic as the last one sounds, at least we're interacting rather than be robots.

>>18673517
>>18673531

why don't we do an agreement in which we say... "we'll be what we want the others to be for us"... and we see what this brings.

It won't be easy, but if you know that your trust is at risk, and you take in account that you'll be betraied, can we really talk about a betraying?

>>18673535
I don't know what that means nor can I really comprehend this post well.
You mean treat others as they would treat you, but for friendships?

I've tried that. I've held many doors for people, I've helped them on some of their tasks, I tried sharing interests and shit etc. Long story short, that never worked for me.

Like I said, I accepted my fate.

>>18673545

precisely.

I understand you well, anyway. I wanted to hope for a second, again.

I want you.

>>18673557
Me too... so much

>>18673557
>>18673559

and I want both of you.

you like a guy, he likes you too and it all fucks up for stupid reasons before he had a chance to make a move. months down the line by some chance you end up hooking up, only for things to become more complicated and you stop talking completely.
fast forward almost half a year later and he messages you out of nowhere and comes back into your life, you talk almost everyday but he's very hot and cold, coming and going as he pleases, having a very "bipolar" personality in general.
he's pretty much ignoring me now.
why did he come back? just to resurface all the feelings i had for him that i had almost completely forgotten about?
what the fuck is the point of this?

>>18673557
Me too.

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You're an asshole, but if you wanted to do terrible things to me, I wouldn't fight back.
There's something alluring about very sick people that makes me want to dissect them and watch them slowly rot, even if that means allowing myself to be hurt. I guess it's a morbid curiosity. If you were a bit nicer to me, you probably would've had a chance. Your voice coupled with the deep, dark things you told me were kind of a turn-on.
I'm dating another now, and he's a lot better than you in so many ways (he's also twisted, but he actually has basic empathy and the capacity to love), but sometimes I wonder how things would've progressed with you and the wonderful trainwreck it all would've ended in. Not enough to make me ever message you again, mind, but enough.

I just want to hug someone. I dont care if youre a fat neckbeard, I just want to feel some human warmth amongst those who are just as miserable as me

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No, how about you listen for once. You want to know my real feelings? How I really feel about you? I think you're pathetic. I think you're the most pathetic person I've ever known. When I first saw you I thought you were only quiet because you were shy and intelligent, I really did. But since then I've come to realize that you're just an angry, bitter, egotistical freak who thinks he is somehow destined for greatness despite having no talent at anything he does. You are worthless. You are so delusional it's actually sad. You think just because you can't interact with people that you're somehow better than them, and that just because you know all these weird references that you're somehow special? I mean are you kidding me? And not only that but you're so clingy. You praise me all the time yet you make little snide remarks about everyone you see. It's like you're trying to trap me in your pathetic little existence and expect me to find your loneliness mysterious or interesting. Well I don't, and I'm leaving, and I'll know better from now on to presume anything about lonely guys like you, because I really don't want to waste my time again

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>say flirty and slightly sexual jokes to men
>men: um...ok.
>join girls in making sexual jokes no homo won't judge you for being bi/lesbian
>women: oh hey girl, you know i can eat pussy good right? winkwinknudgenudgefullhomo

What the fuck am I doing wrong to be so repulsive to men but open season for the bisexual lesbians

>>18673591
Guys want girls to be pure. They can't handle flirty jokes or sexual behavior because it reads as slutty.

>>18673515
Nice bants, found a few errors in it though.
>not a virgin
>she could've very easily turned back around after answering me but instead she kept talking by asking questions

You're seem to be just as bitter as I am so I'll assume you're projecting.

>>18673591
Post pics of yourself :)

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>Last week
Horny as fucking shit, desperately chasing guys to fuck me, all my usual booty calls turn me away
>This week
get my period, dudes coming out of the fucking woodwork wanting to get with me.


I fucking hate being a woman the hormone rush is bullshit.

>>18673557
Do they know? You'd be pretty surprised how words can make the panties drop.

>>18673587
Are you talking about me? And yes, I'm worthless and you'll be fine without me

I'm sorry

>>18673610
I don't think he knows, no.

>>18673599
So what about the ones who do it to women first? Do they just expect women to be embarassed and not come back with bantz of her own?

>>18673517
This. But not just any friend. No. I need one like this. Like me. Someone who knows the crippling loneliness of being friendless. Someone who has had years to contemplate and stress and be crushed by all the thoughts that can't be shared.

>>18673619
>Do they just expect women to be embarassed and not come back with bantz of her own?
Yes.

>>18673609
Isn't it funny how this works? There's always a couple of days before my period where men just seem to can't help but smile and talk to me regardless of how I'm dressed. Then they ignore me for the rest of the month. Heh. Pheromones are scary.

>>18673625
Well that's just boring.

My friend is really fucking hot but she has a bf and she wants me to teach her how to drive so its gonna be just us and I need to be controlling my sexual desires.

Me and her had a thing like two years ago for a short while and it ended badly and she ended up with her bf. We were still friends but lately she's been hitting me up a lot more recently. We hung out with friends the previous week and went bowling and she sat in my lap and I semi-groped her. And when we were joking around and talking about our dick sizes and when I mentioned mine she stared at me and bit her lip. I fucking cant dudes. Shes so hot. But I know its my mind playing tricks on me I dont believe for an instant that she still has a thing for me especially when she has a bf.

I still miss you, granny, I miss you so much, you are the reason why I not only did not kill myself, but I also became good at a lot of things.

I guess I'm just alone. Really lonely.

I have tried to open up to people the same way I opened up to you, granny. I love everyone as much as I loved you, and I try to learn from people with an such an open mind as I learned from you.

I also try and not compare anyone to you... But still there's that fucking big difference that I cannot not notice.

I know I should be just thankful for having known a good, wise person like you in the first place. I'm to greedy. I still need someone to love.

Granny, how do I forgive the rest of the family? I want to forgive... But every time I see them, I remember how they treated you. You were always nice to them, you gave them your all, you raised them, and they used you and made fun of you. It's been years now, still I remember all of it vividly. They are bad people. Since your children died, they forgot everything. How could they...? And how could I let it all go? I know it would be good for my mental health, but it's like cutting part of my brain out...?

You probably were my guide, granny. My inspiration. I kept running on the memories for a while.

Well, still, whenever I do the dishes, I'm like "I cannot leave these in the honour of your memory". Or when I don't feel like going to work, I still always go, and do a proper job, cause I know you worked your ass off your whole life, and did much harder jobs to provide for the whole big family.

I wish I believed in the afterlife.

Then I would know you see how much I'm trying, I'm trying with all of my energy to be as good and hard-working and funny and caring and patient and understanding and forgiving and smart and ... everything as you were. I'm trying really hard.

Why is there no one who would appreciate my efforts nearly as much as you did? Or just a little bit? I mean I know I am doing good, but it's so lonely like this.

>>18673657
I appreciate you, anon

>>18673630
>Pheromones are scary.
I'll second that. My fucking bitch ass sister is such a goddamn alpha female she can override my birth control and give me an instant period if I'm ever around her while she's on hers. It's fucking stupid man, pheromones shouldnt be able to override modern medicine goddammit lmao

>>18673664
Thank you.

I normally just keep going telling myself that if my grandma did what she did, I can do anything, but today... I really needed a pat on the back.

Thank you.

Look me up when you get tired of being emasculated, oh by the way this board is cancer.

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When we meet, you should cut me in the same places you were cut. I want your scars, too.

>>18673531
This is exactly what I want.
Just want someone to chill with, talk to and go on adventures with.
But nah, people only want to fuck, have a relationship or be a backstabbing bitch.
I try to accept that but I really want to hope that there is at least one person out there who actually would give a fuck about me someday.

>>18673679
Stay strong, and keep going. You can make it.

>>18673623
You want to be friends?
We can make a deal, if one of us stabs the other one in the back, the other one actually get to stab them.

>>18673688
Well, that's fucked.

How do you stop thinking about how much fun your ex is having with their new man? I bet 1000 dollars that they went to the zoo and she had a million times more fun then me and her had.

I bet they did all the things me and her did but the difference is that shes actually happy this time.

I fucking hate thinking about these kinds of things. I just want to live my life without thinking of her ever again.

I am fucking tired if caring too much about people's opinions and being reluctant of saying anything

Ash,

We've worked together for two years and I don't know how but you came to be special to me. We seemed to be alike, and you are young and so beautiful. But I'm old, stupid and ugly and a coward and I didn't really know how to talk to you. In email in work group chats, yes, but not directly.

But after a very long time, I think I started to warm up a little and I have desperately wanted to get to know you better. While my brain recognizes the sheer ridiculousness of it the desire in my heart has been persistent. Hey, even if I can't have my heart's deepest desire, we can be friends, can't we?

I finally *finally* got the simple courage to ask you out to a movie. A stupid little movie. You said maybe if you had the time. I wasn't sure if that was an honest answer or a polite rejection. I asked again a week later...same answer but the look on your face said it all. The movie was for tonight. You certainly have the time to dither on Twitter and Tumblr, I notice. So I guess not even friends? Nothing?

You'll be leaving the job in a couple of weeks and after that you'll be out of my life.

I'm so sorry For being so pathetic. I should have worked harder at earning your friendship and love. I'm too much of a chickenshit and before too long I'll be a faded memory.

From the bottom of my heart I wish you only the best in life.

>>18673517

I'm lonely, too.

Somewhere out there in the space time continuum there is a me living a happy life. I'm jealous of him. The one thing pushing me is that I want his life, his timeline. I want him dead and I want his life.

That's why I live. I want to crack time.

>>18673736
We can make the deal, too.

>>18673694

He still wants to talk to me even tho his gf doesn't ever want him to contact me. So now he keeps our communication secret. I hate this. He'll always let her step on him. I don't know if he ever really did love me. Did that kiss mean anything?

>>18673768

Well, it's certainly hardcore.

WHY. WHY CAN'T WE ALL JUST FUCK.

I KEEP MYSELF PHYSICALLY FIT AND HEALTHY FOR *ME*. I TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AND MY BUSINESS FOR ME. BUT THE OPPOSITE SEX ARE SO FUCKING BLIND TO GO FOR THE WEAK, TIRED, BORING BETA PEOPLE. IS THAT BECAUSE IT'S EASY PREY FOR THEM? DO I SCARE THEM? I'M TIRED OF PLAYING NICE LITTLE MIND GAMES WHEN TRYING TO GET LAID. I HATE UNIVERSITY GIRLS THAT WEAR THE BOOTY SHORTS AND THE REVEALING TOPS THAT HAVE THE RIGHT TO GO "OOO, CREEP".

I FEEL LIKE A MONSTER IN A FIELD OF SHEEP AND BETAS THAT NEEDS TO FEED PROPERLY. I HATE WEARING THE NICE GUY MASK TO BLEND IN. I CAN'T EVEN MAKE JOKES ANYMORE, THIS WORLD IS SO SENSITIVE. I DON'T CARE IF YOU'RE LEFTIST OR RIGHTIST OR UPIST OR DOWNIST: FACE IT, ALL YOU CARE ABOUT IS YOURSELF AND WHAT YOU'RE GOING TO EAT AND WHO YOU WANT TO FUCK. WHY DO YOU ALL MAKE IT SO HARD TO LIVE, TO *BREATHE*

>>18673785
I think it's only fair.

>>18673800

you can't save them.

I've got no confidence, no purpose in life, no reason to keep going.

I don't know why I'm alive.

>>18673738

saved this post, thank you

I've been sober for a eight months now.

>>18673807

It's a bit much. We can live without metaphorical or,literal stabbing. But if you insist on wanting to make that deal? Suuuure!

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>be me
>be 22 y/o virgin, not kissless
>severe anxiety, so get very afraid over the stupidest shit like flirting
>just prefer to talk to girls on tinder and ease into shit
>friends try to help me but I'm sure they've given up at this point
>1/5th of any girls I match with either don't respond to me or get bored after 3 days, max.
>doesn't matter if we hit it off, always the 3 day Mark, always.
>felt so lonely since 16
>6 years of agony
>too chickenshit to drown myself
>therapist thinks college will help with anxiety this time next year
>I know that nothing will change, I'm probably gonna die alone

INB4 2/10 smelly neckbeard. I'm skinny and get sun regularly as well as a semi decent diet. I just smoke alot is all. Why do I feel like a 2/10 neckbeard. Any advice?

>>18673782
No, you stupid bitch. Take it from a married guy, you're just back-up pussy

>>18672259
I fucked everything up. I lied and lied and kept lying. I became a horrible person and hurt my best friend in order to fuck somebody who never actually appreciated me.

I loved you so much it hurts like hell.... I am a piece of shit and you're right to have left.

I wish I could make ammends, that we could be together again. We both weren't perfect at all but we loved each other... and I became this monster who I don't even recognize and all I want is to fucking die.

>>18673587
He is shy and intelligent, but the shyness is caused by the inability to adapt to others. You seriously have no understanding how long term loneliness works in people whom can't adapt due to mental illness. Long term isolation fucks people up that way, that bitterness and grandiosity is a shell developed over years and years of trying to fit in. That is an ego defense, inside people like that are too soft and trusting to be able to take it. I guarantee deep down he knows he is shit, but if he dropped the act he would be self destructing and depressed constantly. That clinginess and outright praise for you again is a sign the person has been severely isolated for a long time. People like that only start getting better if they have friends, so they can slowly start lowering their guard. But catch-22, no one wants to be around someone acting like that. Congratulations, you met a mentally ill person on the spectrum.

thank you for making my life a living hell but the most wisest woman ever, akali..

I'm killing myself tonight

>>18674044
Why anon?

>>18674044
ok have fun

>>18673987
Thanks fag.

When did your self-righteous politics get so ingrained into your brain? You're such a damn hypocrite. And I'm tired of how dogmatic your rigid, fake, Tumblr-lite beliefs is your justification for your shitty behavior.

We're supposed to be friends but you just critique me for no fucking reason other than to feel superior in your deluded narcissistic construct.

You emotionally abuse your girlfriend, your hate and judgement make people uncomfortable, and all you know how to do is drive your friends away. I'm too exhausted to even be hateful or angry anymore - you're just exhausting to think of and I'm glad I'm not friends anymore with a toxic, selfish fake like you.

>church campout last weekend
>want to leave the church soon
>get offered a $20.00/hr job
>decline because I don't want to get a job from a friend at a church I'm about to leave
Was this self-sabotage? Should I have taken it? Tomorrow I'm going to bother a temp agency for a $15/hr job, but I think I fucked up.

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>become friends with random person just because
>go on to learn we get along so well
>having a good time as friends
>she starts calling me "her's"
>think it's a bit of joke
>keeps doing it, and things get weird, I get weird
>she notices I'm acting different, and she starts to suspect I'm hiding something bad
>tell her I have feelings for her
>she didn't know how to react and she panics a bit
>I think i fucked it up
>next day tells me things are okay, she's just not use to people being into her like this
Things turned out better than expected.
When i told her to be careful about calling me "her's" because it will want to make me call her "mine" she simply told me "that's the point".

Jesus Crispy Christ, where has she been all my life and what have i done to deserve her?

I miss my boyfriend right now. Spending the night alone sucks. I wish I could hold him right now. He's so sweet and deserves the very best. I wish I was more interesting, had more money, was more patient. I wish I could give him more.

" I'm so happy being single, screw doing stuff for a man"
> sees cute guy again

Oh man. What should I do now? I don't know why I get so flustered over this. I don't think I even like his personality. When he was talking all I could think was "look at those lovely brown eyes...". But he seems to be a bit of a jerk. Well it's not like he's interested. I'm decent looking at best. Those eyes though...

>>18674208
enjoy it anon, you probably """deserve it""" more than you think. Give yourself some credit, you sound like a reasonable dude.

>>18672301
wish it was A not L

>>18674223
I'm sure you're more than good enough

>>18672259
>falls in love for person
>we be cool
>plays her like a damn fiddle
god I deserve every minute of despair and madness. I deserve every teardrop that I lay on the bed right now. I deserve every drop of blood I've slain on my arm at the moment. I'm no man. I'm a faggot, a retarded fucking faggot that doesnt deserve to live on God's Green Earth. Who am I kidding? Me reliable on surviving a relationship? I'm as stupid as before.
I'm readying the noose or sharpening the knife, whatever kills me quicker. Who am I to continue living?

Hey mom, telling your 12 years old son that you'd have rather aborted him than the other ones that followed is not gonna make me love you
Constantly reminding me I'm about 50 pounds overweight and telling me to 'just' lose it like everyone else is not going to help at all
Being told I'm worthless and can't understand jack shit while unlike you I got accepted to one of the country's best universities doesn't prove your point
Complaining that we're not rich and that other than for education/clothes I should not keep even a single euro on me because it would be wasted is not going to help either
Getting mad at me if I need health treatment that may cost is not going to help me feel better
Telling my grandparents ten years ago that if you and dad divorce you're going to keep only my little brother because you love just him, and I can just "rot" together with my dad is not going to make me ever feel any sympathy for you
Telling me I'd never find love because I am disgusting is not going to prevent me find a girl


So mom, why would I have to love you? Why am I the psycho if I don't love you? Why do you keep pretending to love me?

I'm at my limit. I have nightmares almost every night, in which most of the time I die horribly, but now even when I have those, I would rather not wake up anymore.

>>18674418
>Constantly reminding me I'm about 50 pounds overweight and telling me to 'just' lose it like everyone else is not going to help at all
She is right. Stop being a lazy pig anon

I cannot admit my insecurities without feeling like someone will make fun of me for them

>>18674422
Well, I'm getting there. I used to weight another 50 pounds more the last six months. Just that her fucking nagging has gotten even worse.

Is it okay for me to date if I live with my parents and only work part time? (female)

>>18672259

Why the fuck are you such a bi-polar stupid bitch sometimes?

We went to mexico, I gave up so much on work to be in Morocco for 15 days with you, to meet your family and all that.

I even told you work is stacking up, I want to start some new projects and you even want me to go ahead with them.

Then you pull shit like I work too much and that even when I spent an entire week in Mexico (cost 7 grand by the way) and Morocco (cost another 5k + the ammount of money I could have made).

You do stupid shit like ask for a rolex then tell me I work too much, all in the span of 2 hours. What the fuck. Seriously.

I feel like you have no idea what you want in life and that you are too immature. Bills don't fucking pay themselves. I hope you will one day learn this as a fact of life or our relationship will be over because of this madness.

im constantly going to be hating myself for missing you but i can't get over the fact you were my one shot at young love and my anxiety fucked it all up
i'm worried that no girl is ever going to bring the light you brought to my life again
i miss always having some to talk to
worse yet i hate that you're now with someone who suits you better in every single way
i know you're going to start talking to me as soon as you go away so see you in a few weeks again

I'M A VIRGIN AND I WANT TO HAVE SEX

>>18673587
Literally me desu

>>18673582
You're heartless.

Life's a bitch and then ya die!! Fuck it man i not doing too good at all 22 years of my life and im always fucking up i never really cared for anybody cause most people i know are egotisit assfaces who take turns seeing too can take the bigger shit out they mouths execpt for this one person that i truly did care about. I fucked that up last bridge i burn honestly i cant fucking do it any more hurting her, taking her name in vain is really the last fuck up i want too do she rally did care about me and i was too caught up in my own self too believe it. I have a bad problem with trusting people. Shit i cant even trust myself. What the fuck eh! Fuckin lil bitch i am! I wouldint take my own life but shit aint going so good so maybe something will happen. I havent seen or heard from her in months. Last i heard she wasint doing too good. She was taking some crazy shit i cant worry no more i cant go on anymore I've done alot of fucked up shit but taking her for granted and seeing the pain i caused her takes the cake man im a peice of shit someone out there better take me soon cause im about too lose it. Its not the fact that she left thats hurts its the fact that im a dumb blind obnoxious fucking retard that only cares about himself fuck i just realized that after she left i dont blame its good she left she dont need that shit in her life 20 years old had my first serious relationship with a woman instead of huckin chuckin them too the quarter back lol almost a year and a half longest time i ever had with a proper woman like you i just forgot there was two of us i had too orry about. I've been alone all my life i got too caught up in only caring about myself. The people around me growing up taught me that. Its not always a good thing sometimes yeah but looking out for others tis also a good thing i didint see that till it was too late. I didint wanna say sorry whats the point i see any all i gotta say is thanks for the run it was a good time we always had fun in the end

>>18674003
I wish so much this was for me

I really regret not paying attention too the important parts its too late for any of that but thanks for getting me off the street and trying too smartin me up abit lifes a lil rough right now i dont know whats gunna happen i aint going causing trouble looking for death but you never know whats gunna happen and right now i cant see my future i can only see an end it sucks... I aint going out looking for death tho i aint gunna do that ill work hard too get through this. Its gunn be hard anyway tjats all that i wanted too say. Ill always love you forver till the day comes ill alway be there if you need me ill always have something for you i know thing will get better for you you gotta hit the bottem before you rise up too the top

>>18672270
What the fuck do you mean m8?
I must be extremely stupid or something but all this criptic shit confuses the living fuck out of me...

I'm a big, masculine guy. My girlfriend calls me daddy and I like it. An effeminate guy not much taller than my girlfriend has been making me call him daddy and I like it too.

What the fuck is going on

>>18674003
Initials?

I feel so uncomfertable and in pain all the time. I wish I would just go into labor already. Soooooo over being pregnant. Is it totally selfishly to want to try things to bring it on ? It's not like my lo would be really premi or anything, but I still feel kind of guilty about wanting to make it happen sooner. Also kind of scared for delivery but hopefully everything goes smoothly, just trying to not phyc myself out to much about it.

Me and my ex had a rough split which was mostly my fault. She said she wanted nothing to do with me and ended up getting a new boyfriend like a month or 2 later. After months of being a pussy about it I decided that I needed to accept that I was in the wrong and I pushed her away. I promised myself I wouldn't make the same mistakes in the future and that I'd stop thinking about her. We haven't had a friendly conversation in over a year, and we haven't had anything to do with each other since October.

A couple months ago I noticed her best friend started liking all my posts. This could mean nothing but I thought it was a bit odd because she had never done that before, and she's disliked me for as long as we've known each other.

Then a couple weeks ago my ex herself messaged me asking how I was doing. I was really taken about as last time we spoke she said she wanted nothing to do with me. I didn't really know if I wanted to respond/if it was the right idea, so I just left it.

A couple days ago I find out that she around the same time she messaged me, she also split up with her boyfriend who she had been with for around a year at this point.

I don't know what to do. Even before we were dating, this girl was my best friend and we shared a ton of great memories together. I have no idea why she messaged me and I don't know whether to message back even if it just leads to a short exchange in messages. I was in the wrong for us splitting up and I always forced myself to just let her get on with her life because I assumed she would never attempt to speak to me again. She has no real reason to. But now here she is for whatever reason and it's really confused me.

>>18672259
I've spent most of my life so far taking the safe or easy way. I've been dating girls online and long distance because I didn't believe I could ever pull anyone in real life. Anyone I knew. Yet, time and again, I was proven wrong. Time and again, I let some of the most wonderful women I've ever met somehow slip through my fingers. Instead of having my first kiss with my 4th grade crush or at homecoming, I gave it away to the first horny landwhale I met on omegle who happened to be nearby. I've let too many opportunities slip by because I was too much of an autisic fuck to make it happen myself. Yesterday, I saw you again. You saw me too but, instead of saying hi, you averted your gaze and literally ran away without a second glance. Yeah, it made me feel like shit, but I don't blame you. I wouldn't wanna waste anymore time with me either. So here's my promise to you -- the oath I am making to myself. The next time I want something, I'm taking it. The next time I want to say something, I'll think about it first. Life's too short to have as many regrets as I have, and I'm too young to be wishing I could go back in time. I'm turning the tide and I'm gonna make something of myself that I can be proud of. And when you hear my name and another persons lips, you won't remember some beta cringey sperglord who asks for kisses instead of taking them. You'll remember a man who lived and loved every day like it was his last on this earth. And, with god as my witness, I'll be damned to hell if I let any child of mine walk down this same path.

>>18674837

>>18674084
Same.

>>18674780
Gay.

>>18672339
holy fuck. you pathetic piece of shit. do they know? are you socially incapable of talking with people let alone the opposite sex?

Mood Angry and Pissy, extremely irked I have no say where I put kitchen gadgets, SO could care less to take care of items he didn't pay for, I'm sorry my income is not what it was and I have to scrape by while you blow all your excess money on vices. I have to have things last. I am tired of sacrificing myself for you without the same concern. Keep dictating little facets of my existence, you will be met with resistance. I am not your property nor am I your mother. Lately I feel as if I am not your SO, I am a warm body and a household fixture. I've been fooling myself there is a future here, I think I've only wasted more time.

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>gf and I had a bad relationship for years
>no communication, no understanding, no empathy from either side, we were both immature
>all hell broke loose last New Years, and I broke up with her over stress fucking thing up in my head
>5-6 months of trying to get her to talk about about our issues, 6 months of her ignoring the problem and treating me like crap
>gave up over a month ago, met new people, realized I'm worth more than I thought
>tell ex we shouldn't talk anymore
>she starts telling me things weren't so bad, tries to make it seem like she valued us, tell me she still loves me, tells me to remember the good times
>mfw I don't feel anything at her words, no anger, no want, nothing

So this is what it feels like at the end?
Also it didn't help that she let herself go. She was petite, which I was into, now I'm not sure.
I feel like a dodged a bullet. Part of me feels good, but a small part still feels sad. Not out of loss anymore, but I think I pity her. Which isn't a good thing.
I wanted to talk, and work things out. She told me she resented me, and I resented her as well. Why she thinks we could still work now, I have no idea.
All the time I wanted her, she just continued to guilt me over the events that sank our relationship. Her resentment was noticeable. I guess a person can only made to feel guilty for shit they tried to help with for so long before they just stop caring.
Now that I'm free, I feel that I made the right choice. We were bad for each other. Why she can't see that is a mystery to me. That's just something she'll habe to learn, as I did. All those nights of lost sleep, the desire to make things right with a person you love, and the feeling of being pushed away. Nah, I think I'll be okay without all that. The experience taught me a lot. Things I needed to learn.
I'm not happy, nor am I sad about all this. I kinda just feel thankful and pity for her. That's the way I love her now, but never again how I did when we had a chance.

I wish I didn't sleep with that fucking guy. It was the worst sex I've ever had and now he won't leave me alone. I regret it and thinking about him inside me makes me sick. That's what drunkenly needing attention gets you.

>>18675098
Skank

>>18675098
How bad was it and whats so terrible about the guy? Homo?

>>18675105
I'm a woman and it was just so uncomfortable. I wasn't attracted to him at all and I just wanted to feel desirable. I did it because I was lonely.

God, I feel retarded feeling for someone so far away.

The world is too cruel and everybody is in it for themselves.

Just saw a girl who lived next to me last year when leaving the gym. Totally sperged and tried to shake her hand because I didn't think it was appropriate to hug or anything else. I laughed and acknowledged it was strange and she gave me a hug. She's always seemed kind of awkward toward me in he past as well but that could be interpreted in several ways and I've always assumed it was because I'm usually quiet. Ended up inviting her to a party tomorrow and she said she'd like to go.

>TL:DR
Invited girl to party for a fraternity but don't know what to do with her while there?

>>18675112
you're contributing to the reason why guys shit on women

>>18675147
Chat, get to know her. Allow her to make any moves this way you're being respectful. Don't drink too much otherwise you could embarrass yourself. Also, introduce her as a friend of yours, nothing spergy

Any good Cyphers?

>>18675123
Don't. We live a very connected world.
So it's normal to have emotions arise even for those we can't physically see or touch. If the other person feels the same, you never quite know what is possible with a little work.

I am in the same boat as you. I found some one online that I started feeling for and she feels the same about me. I, having little to hold me back where I live, am considering moving to the other side of the country in order to make things work better.

Yes, it's not as easy, and many will say you can find some one near by or whatever. It just depends on how much you want someone, and how much they want you. Like with everything, it requires work and effort. Sometimes that we don't like to give because we are so use to having things just handed over.

Nothing ventured, nothing gained.

I look forward to the future and you're a part of it.

>>18675147

Go home pissed off when she gets black out drunk and gets double teamed by a couple of better looking athletic men?

>>18674330
Those eyes those eyes but you're a piece of shit. Are you fucking kidding me? This time we aren't working for your daddy so I'm complaining with our boss. You're much dumber than you think you are so what makes you think you're more capable than me? I refuse to work like this.

Just lay off me already, maybe I am a slut, I didn't ask for your opinion. Maybe your body is a hands-off art exhibit but I put the effort in to look like this so I can use it. I don't know why you're so jealous that you have to bad mouth me to your idiot friends, you're better looking than me anyway. You must be a really unfulfilled person.

>>18675156
How do I keep a conversation going? A girl started small talk and asking me questions but after a couple minutes I didn't know what else to say at the time so I just ended it with one word answers. I know I'm more charismatic when drinking, I just don't want to spill spaghetti.

>>18675187
Our boss isn't back until next week what am I supposed to do until then Aaaaaahhhhhhhh screw you for screwing me overrrr

>>18674721
Why?

>>18675236
Because you clearly hurt that guy badly.

>>18675236
You really don't get how fucked up you are do you?

>>18675177
I really want this he lives in Canada (I'm in Texas), but I (like you) would be willing to move for him. He and I have this really strong connection. But honestly idk if he just lusts after me.

>>18675243
No. He told me private things of his own volition, but was harsh to me when others were around. He also never explicitly approached me except to occasionally vent or ask questions. I doubt he was hurt in the least by me floating away, or at least I didn't leave anything more broken than it already was.

>>18675258

>he doesn't approach me
>he must be a sick person
>I'm gonna destroy him

wow, seems you are an healthy member of society

>>18675271
You can't destroy something you never even brushed up on.

>>18674362
What happened, anon?

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i'm tired of hearing you talk about a different girl every week. its almost as if you wait for me to say something negative to you about it. i sometimes wonder why you keep me around. i wonder if you realize the way you talk about other women sort of hurts me. i wonder sometimes if you even realize i'm a woman at all.

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I'm a sociopath.

I struggle with compulsive lying to important people in my life (parents, GF, relatives, etc...), I have trouble holding down jobs, I have a disposition for criminal activity, I want control of relationships fully, and eventually people RUN after they get to know me.

I'm so sick of living like this. I just want to be normal like everyone else and cultivate genuine relationships personally & professionally.. I want to be able to trust people and have empathy. I grew up in an abusive household as a child where I was beaten, humiliated, manipulated, torn down mentally if I made ANY mistakes, and always felt like I was walking on eggshells. I never had a strong support system as a child.. I was away from my close family living my mother only.

I just want to be normal.

>>18675278
Dear god man your sense of entitlement is way off. You seem like a user that zoned in on your victim and tried you damn hardest to inflict your miserable self onto them. Is your life really this shit?

>>18675194
Ask her about things she is interested in. Research it so you can have something to talk about in detail. Or just talk about music, females will go on about their favorite composers and bands. Also animals, bitches love cute animals.

>>18675255
Dude, you could always ask him.
It's hard to figure what the mind of another thinks, and we have to risk it in order to make things happen.
I trust this person of mine, but I won't lie and say I am not fearful of some other motive for her to be so kind.
But I'm going to risk everything for a single shot at being happy. Fuck it.

>>18675296
I know a guy just like you who lied just to lie. He convinced me via constant manipulation that I had no German blood and that I was Jewish and when we parted ways he dickroad the "I'm a true pure blooded Aryan bandwagon when he's actually an Anglo pos. He also claimed he fapped with his sister during their years in high school when she died as an infant from heart issues.

People like you are what's wrong with the world.

Btw, fuck you to the person I shit on in this post. You suck more cock than those antifa faggots you suck the ghost dick of.

I want to die

>>18675320
>just ask him
How? "Do you only want me for sex". I figure I could just meet up with him and see how it goes afterward

>>18675299
It's more like the reverse almost happened, but I probably would have been completely okay with it if he hadn't been weirdly two-faced about everything (or maybe he was actually too honest about being hateful, and should've tried to build a connection first, idk). I never initiated anything or "inflicted myself" onto him at any point. He tentatively tried to make things happen by pouring himself out to me, and they just didn't.
I can't really tell whether you're projecting your own experiences with an abusive person, or simply misunderstanding, but I guess it doesn't matter.

>>18675321

Been there and done that anon.

It's really fucking bad that I keep lying even for small things. The smartest thing to do when you run into people like us is to CALL US OUT on our bluff. Be careful of some people because some can get really defensive & god knows what could happen - know who you are dealing with. Ask us to verify dates/facts/what not. We can't always be congruent in our web of lies because we do it CONSTANTLY. My GF has ASPD as well so we both try to keep each other in line with stealing, lying, etc... The only way a sociopath can have a romantic relationship for any extended period of time is unfortunately to date another one.. the best thing you can do together is to address the problem as honest as possible and keep each other on track.

>>18675296
I know how you feel anon. I used lying as a coping mechanism for my depression for many years. It is a hard thing to talk to people about because there is no mental illness more hated and misunderstood. It took forever for me to open up to my shrink about it but once I did she helped me find a creative outlet. I haven't made up a 'story' in years. Just know you can change.

>>18675333
You are not alone

>>18675278

Hate is a good thing, sometimes, but you're destroying only yourself by now.

I can empathyze, anyway

>>18675382
I don't hate anyone, except child molesters and sometimes myself. If I did have it in me to hate, I wouldn't be able to tolerate some people being fucked up.
I feel like my post somehow paints a story that's far from the truth.

Blame it all on my root, I showed up in boots..

To ruin, your black tie affair.

The last one to know, the last one to show.

I was the last one you though you'd see there.

And I saw the surprise, and the fear in his eyes.

As I took his glass of champagne.

Then I toasted you, said that we may be through.

But, you'll never hear me complain..

Because I've got friends in low places, where the whiskey flows, and the beer chases my blues away..

>>18672259
>one shot at life
>misanthrope to the core
>can't live with being a loser
>have to get up every day to face the creatures I despise and have to act nice to

All this hatred isn't like me desu, but no matter what, I will never like humans.

Is this the right place to ask for advice?
Personally I feel pretty good about myself, both physically and mentally. In the past I used to mope around because of my depression and anxiety, and I'd rarely go to social events. Nowadays I have no problem being social, apart from feeling a little shy every now and then.
But there's one thing I don't understand. Relationship dynamics. I'm starting college this fall so naturally I plan on being 200% more social in the following months in the hope of finding a partner.
Maybe it's bad luck, or maybe I'm too picky, but I won't put up with bullshit. If they start playing games I drop them, same goes for indecisive persons and attention whores who need validation.
In my opinion, two adults should be upfront about their intentions. Am I wrong? How would you approach the opposite sex, anons?

>>18675456
>two adults should be upfront about their intentions

Couldn't agree with you more, I'm happy that you feel this way.

Because experience has rendered me a cynical pessimist about human nature where everybody lies to get ahead of one another. People who are honest are so rare I can't remember meeting one, except the psychopaths who revealed to me their true intentions.

Good luck friend

>Get hired to work in one section
>Boss tells me to go cover for somebody in another section
>Never been in that section so I ask for a quick explanation of what I need to do
>"It's all self-explanatory, Anon. You'll get it."
>It's not
>Fuck everything up
>Coworkers mad at me until I explain I was sent over to cover without warning or training
>Wow, Anon, he did not tell us that. Nobody can really work here without some kind of training
>New girl gets hired
>Boss tells her to work in that section to cover for somebody
>He walks over himself and gives her a 10 min lesson on what to do before leaving
>Later he makes an announcement on how she did great in that section for a newbie
>Ask him later if he could make some time for me to be trained in that section in case I have to cover again
>Uuuhhhhhh we'll have to see, Anon.

Fucking nice setting me up to look incompetent, asshole. I'm one of the few people in that place who would go work anywhere without complaint and the least you can do is fucking train me but I guess sidling up to college aged pussy that's going to quit in a few months anyway is more important. I can't wait to get a job where I don't have to deal with people at all.

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>>18672259
I want to quit my job as a cleaner and rest a bit before I have to go to the army. It's just that my father abhors the idea of me sitting at home just training for it, he thinks I need to work 24/7 at a shitty job where I am not able to plan anything since the work assignments pop up only a day early. My father just keeps saying about how he had to work like shit during his youth, so I should too. And I fucking hate it. Yes, I don't want to wake up at 5am to drive half an hour only to hop back into a car, drive another half an hour somewhere, work like a slave there, and then drive back both to the office and home making days last around 9 hours easily. I can't see any friends, I don't have time for vidya and I'm just so tired.

>>18675456
>Maybe it's bad luck, or maybe I'm too picky, but I won't put up with bullshit. If they start playing games I drop them, same goes for indecisive persons and attention whores who need validation.
>In my opinion, two adults should be upfront about their intentions.

I've been dating with this approach for a couple of years and it's difficult because "adults" will outright lie if it means getting them the shallow thing they want, if it's not sex or a free meal. And at my age of 25, anyone who has a no BS policy like yours, is coming with a huge set of baggage that they're ready to dump on the next person that will keep them.

But considering that you're in college, you should probably expect a lot of flippant people who WILL waste your time, if they bother to stick around at all, knowing you're not fucking around. Don't give up though. There are many people like you who want the same as you and college is a prime age to do it because you'll get to them before they go through a ton of bullshit. Just be sure to stick to your guns and know what you want, Anon. Good luck.

>>18675468
>>18675488
Thank you, anons. I really appreciate it.

I genuinely regret the last 8 years of my life, and the only reason I am alive is that I am afraid of dying.

>>18675508
I'm on year 11 of this same kind of regret since chickening out on my suicide.

>>18675508
Why do you regret them?

>>18675335
Sometimes you have ro be direct.
But, maybe spend the time and cash to meet in person, if possible get a feel for them, and if they want you there. Work something out.

>>18675520
Wasted. Screwed up my chance at living a regular life, and trying to catch up now. Dropped out of college, married someone that has nothing in common with me, gained ~150lbs, ruined my teeth. Probably more, but not really supposed to throw down a list.

>>18675529
Dropping out of college doesn't mean the end of the world or a ruined life. Marrying someone that's different from you can be a good thing. You can lose weight and get veneers (or however you spell that word).

What is your idea of a regular life?

What does it mean when a girl name calls you? Like shell just randomly call you a loser or something mid convo.

For example this female im freinds with asked me to go to a concert with her tomorrow. She just texted me saying "whos driving tomorrow hoe." What do?

>>18675540
I can't speak for all ladies, but when I playfully tease people it's because I feel comfortable around them. I would never call someone I didn't know well a bitch in a joking way. I wait until I know they'd be a good sport about it and would likely find it funny. I highly, highly doubt she's saying it seriously.

>>18675535
I don't really have a good answer. It's a tough question.
Not what I'm doing now.
I just don't have any idea what I'm doing with life right now. No self-control, no discipline, no direction...
Heavy questions.

>>18675333
Then kill yourself you worthless skank

>>18675555
Yeah, it can be hard figuring out what a regular life means. From my experience, I find usually people mean regular life as something that just isn't what they have now--something that isn't as stressful or doesn't cause them as much negative feelings. It often seems like people have this idea that there's only one acceptable life path (college, 9 to 5 job, marry, start a family). But the problem with thinking there's only one acceptable way to live is that if circumstances (outside or within your control) cause your life to deviate, that causes a lot of stress right there. When you feel like you "should" be living a certain way, and you're not currently living that way, of course that's going to be a horrible feeling! It's better to focus on how you want to grow and improve instead of focusing on where you should be

>>18675421

Ok, so, work on your boundaries. I hug you

>>18672301
Lauren?

>>18672301
if you want to talk then we can talk, just talk

>>18672259
DMB
I don't regret what I did, just how long I waited to do it. I think we would have been happy together, but I wish we still talked.
JMC

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And like those pups you rescued you are doing the same to this stray, your stray as you put it. If you would have me as you say you would, then I am a stray no longer. I, who have been homesick for place that thought never real, have found a place I can call home. That place will be there with you. I have little to offer in the form of riches, and status, yet you hold me as one would a king. Who am I to receive such kindness? Who are you to deliver it?

You are smart, beautiful, and outspoken with me. Honesty is all I ask of those around me, of those I care for and admire. Simply honesty and you have given me much more.
I can see why people dislike you, why they would feel intimidated. You push the meaning of the word human, just being with you shatters my confidence. What I can give you but my love, and loyalty? I am yours, and you are mine.

I would do anything to make sure this last as long as we have. You may not understand fully, as I am the one risking everything just to be with you. I think you are worth it. Everything I am leaving behind, it will never amount to a day by your side and you by mine.

The unknown is filled with fear, but work with me, and I will work with you.
I will show you the outside world, and make sure no one hurts you again as they did. Place your hands on me as you have on my soul, and will do my best to never let you down.

I love you.

I've found a girl on tinder with some mental issues and I think she's cute and I actually enjoy writing with her but I'm scared to meet up with her because I'm a skinnyfat manlet twink and she's actually a cardio bunny.
I'm also worried because I look older on my pics than I actually do in real life. I'm 25 and could pass for 20, she's 23.
It also doesn't help that I'm still living at home, without a car while she's financially stable.

I really fucked up with you. From the beginning, and I kept fucking up. I fucked up constantly for two years and I'm so so so sorry.
I broke up with you because I didn't see why you were sad all the time and it really annoyed me. Now here I am realising it's all my fault and you were the best thing that happened to me. Three years we spent together. Over a sixth of our lives, we were going out. And I wasted them all.
I'm so sorry, and I miss you so much. I know you've moved on. I checked your Instagram even though you blocked me on it and I saw you went on a date with him today.
I've been close to killing myself for the last month and a half, but now I'm actually going through with it. It's not just because you moved on. Since we broke up I've become very nihilistic and don't see the point in anything. I don't eat much anymore, and I force myself to go out with people because otherwise I'd spend all my time in my room crying over this.
I hope you got my letter today. I love you.

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I have realy bad anxiety right now because of things I done.

>>18675608
You're lucky, we struggle to find a connection like this.

I'm starting to hate her now.
Is this the next step in getting over a heartbreak?

I really wish I could hate you after everything you did, but I don't and I never can. You are incapable of understanding what you did and why your actions need to change, and I realize that is not your fault. I am sorry but we cannot be friends anymore if what is going on advances much further, I am not that masochistic. I enjoyed our time together though, I hope you stop hating yourself so much.

>>18675150
I'm being honest about how I feel. Men have sex with women for selfish reasons too.

>>18675696
For once I feel lucky.
And anon, I did my share of struggling. My share of getting broken and the breaking.
I'm surprised this is even happening.
I am beyond fearful of fucking this up. We have our quiet moments, but even those feel alright. And, I have to love like I'm not afraid of losing them.
But I had to learn how to treat others right, and when to not take people's shit, especially when you love them.

Just when I gave up on looking. I find someone who's jagged edges compliment my own.

>>18675839
Selfish sex is not feigning emotions. Fucking with someone's emotions is far worse then getting in their pants. Same reason why emotional cheating is more disgusting than the act of fucking someone else.

>>18675837
Fuck off.

>>18675851
You aren't them, you fuck off.

it always spooks me how so many of the replies tend to seem to be about your own life. it seems like everybody gets a bit spooked like this in this thread. i think it seriously raises the heart rate so watch out. get it off your chest.

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I'm not going to be doing any of that stuff for a long while. there's too much going on right now with my life and too many things I need to work on right now. it's kind of a weird day, I'm locking up all my tools, all my research files, all my trolling folders, all my reaction images, all the propaganda, all the programs, all the nsa tools, all the memories. it's all going into encrypted backup and getting compressed and password protected.

it's a really weird feeling. we've had a lot of really good times here, this is the last post from the fire marshal, from the ngo ship tracker, from the 400 lb hacker known as 4chan.

see you around space cowboys

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>>18675881
k see you later

I'm so angry I'm still shaking.
>be me, someone with problems with the connective tissue in my legs
>use ramps instead of stairs whenever possible
>walking down ramp at mall today
>fat woman with huge baby stroller starts going up the ramp instead of waiting at the bottom
>decide i'm not going to move for this cunt and jeopardize my physical comfort
>instead of noticing that i wasn't yielding, she kept trying to go, then tipped her stroller to the side angrily
>kek, way to endanger your child to be passive-aggressive, bitch
>she turns around and starts yelling at me, "You could have just taken the stairs!"
>bigmistake.jpg
>ask her if she really thinks she's that smart and if she knows anything about my disability
>she starts yelling "you think you're so smart" back at me, basically parroting me
>call her a stupid cunt, a bitch, an idiot, etc and she keeps repeating the same things at me
>it gets so bad that people are staring
>my anxiety rises and i remember i have a knife in my pocket
>i ask if she's looking for a fight, and she starts retreating even though she's trying to act tough at the same time
>tell her she better get hit by a fucking car as she's crossing the road
>final word: "You could have just taken contraceptives!"
She could've just waited at the fucking bottom.

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>Go to an event about the ups and downs of freelancing, by this creative group
>Big outdoor event, networking n shit
>I'm already freelance in film but whatever I'm bored and one of my crew is in the panel
>Arrive, instantly see "friend" who I went on a date 3 weeks ago and a few days later wanted to revert
>Had deleted her off FB a day or 2 after the fact, she was all friendly, clearly didn't even notice
>Cold shoulder mode activate
>her face visibly drops and gets flustered when taking the hint that I don't want to speak with her
>She fucks off. Fuck yeah
>After the talk, greet crewmember
>She introduces me to this fucking 9/10 qt writer
>Talk about writing, cooking, life, clicking quite well!
>She casually namedrops "my boyfriend yada yada"
>my soul when

IT KEEPS HABBENINGGGGGGGGGGGG

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I am very jealous of naturally attractive/beautiful people. I know it's pointless but I still am (no, it's not a teenager thing, or maybe I just never got over it despite nearing wizard threshold age).

>>18675841
Thanks for giving us hope anon, I'm still in the phase of taking my loved one's shit. I have to admit though each relationship I get into the blow of said shit is getting less extreme. I have to learn to stop being self sacrificial, if people are allowed to walk all over you, you remain a doormat.

>>18675837
Initial?

WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU SWIPE RIGHT ON ME AND NOT RESPOND TO ME?

I CAN UNDERSTAND IF IT'S EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE BUT 60 TIMES IN THE SPAN OF 1 MONTH IS BULL SHIT. FUCK YOU WHORES!

>>18675945
They probably feel the desperation.
You need to chill, dude.

>>18675940
Tell me yours first, and if it matches I will share mine.

>>18675959
K

>>18675955
I literally send them a message introducing myself or depending on their interests I say that I also enjoy "x".

And that's it, I don't do anything else until they respond.

>>18675613
I've scheduled a date für next wednesday.
Im scared as fuck and I Really wish I don't pussy out.

>>18675968
Sorry, I am not them.

>>18672259
where the fuck are you , i miss you so much.
saknar dig

>>18675936
You are on your way. I was like you, still am. Where my happiness came after theirs, and then you get nothing for it. No thanks or appreciation for it. To love is to give of who you are to another, who should return the sentiment. At least that's what this girl has taught me. I give her anything that I can, if I could the world. And what have I gotten in return, what can and I feel she would give me world as well. Although to a wretch like myself, she already has. We haven't had any major fights yet, but from the minor misunderstandings, they may not be an issue when they come. It's an awesome feeling when some is willing to understand you and when you do the same. We don't match up in everything, and when we don't instead of butting heads we talk and converse.

Any shit she has given, I accepted not by getting on my knees, but by telling her to talk to me and explain. She returns the same when I get in a sour mood.

Your happiness comes first anon. It is selfish, but to love another is a selfish act. You love them for how they make you feel about yourself, what they make you feel about the world, then you love them for who they are. You love their strength and weakness. They point them out to you and you to then, put your ego aside and see they mean no harm, only to assist you in becoming s better person. Because they in turn should love you, for their own selfish reasons.

Don't be a doormat. I was one in my previous relationship. I thought that was the way I had to be. It took a major event to shatter that and for me to learn that I have value, that I want to be loved as I want to love someone else.

Loneliness is a mental illiness

>>18676018
Also not you either. Sorry.

>>18675987
Why would you pussy out? Be friendly and open with her. Treat her like a normal person with no issues and she will grow on you. If you are trying to date her -- after getting to know her some more start acting a bit more chivalrous -- she probably wants to be treated like a princess by a guy emotionally rather than damaged goods.

>>18676010
pretend like you're talking to people.

except for in my case, where I am literally talking to everyone, even God.

>>18675969
Not him but lemme tell you, get used to shit not making sense.

I recently quit dating after using tinder for a year and a half non-stop. I've gone on over 100 dates with as many women. For each date I got, a good dozen played around on the app (not talking at all, unmatching for no reason sometimes mid-conversation where it's going well, wanting tourism info instead of using the app to fucking date etc).

One in every 20 women I dated would be willing to date more, but always ends after 2 weeks. They'd tell me reasons such as "there is no spark", "I don't miss you when you're gone", "timing just isn't right" or they just stop talking to you entirely and keep the passive-aggressive approach until you just take the hint and never speak to them again.

I've fucked a few of 'em, one on the first date even. But I have never gotten a worse example of female pettyness than that app. You cease being human to them when you use it (for the most part), they will do disrespectful shit 24/7.

Sucks for me cause I can't into networking and I'm 30. My age everyone's taken. So right now I'm fucked, not dating at all and I got withdrawal symptoms out the ass and lonely as fuck. But the alternative is possibly pulling an Elliot Rodger and I can't be doing that.

Learn, bro. I'm sorry, but you gotta learn. Put up or delete that app with the fury of a thousand angry gods.

>>18675969
Second method is good.
But the first one just makes you seem both like you don't really have anything to offer (cuz the whole conversation is forced from the start) and clingy. From personal experience those messages are always a wall of text. You want to get to know a person slowly, that method is just way to intense from the start. We don't want to sit and both figure out how to answer all the things about you but also how to describe ourself because as I said it feels kinda forced instead of just getting to know someone. Especially if you get the same message from 10 other guys the same day.

>>18675998
Initials?

>>18676052
of her name?

>>18676057
I meant yours but yeah, go for it.

I just wanted to have a friend, a real one, not a kopla' alcoholic retards with no aspiration in life. I wanted to hug , to kiss, to love , to feel what is it to be human, the sweetness of these things are something i may never taste but cant help and yearn after it.
Had once chance, or never had it , i dont know.
I just wanted to get laid, smoke weed, to win. I wanted to be free of worrying about things and calculating every single thing ,how may they happen what are the options etc.

But well I couldn't ,now I'm stuck here. And I did things the wrong way. Only mom holds me to this world, I wouldve ended it all if she wasnt there. Such a burden

Stuck here with all the pain and anger, sometimes i just want to burst and go amok

>>18676064
NK was hers

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What do you train for?

The race war

>>18676084
why be a king when you can be God

>>18676078
I know what you mean, hope it gets better.
Wasn't my initials tho.
Lycka till!

>>18676102
I would've been pretty fucking surprised if she were to browse 4chin lol

I used to get angry at you for being sad and wanting to kill yourself but look at me now, I'm fading away as I type this.
It's a selfish ask, but please don't be angry. This is the only way I can stop talking to you. Maybe I'll wake up in a universe where things went well for us, and I never lost my motivation to be.
I love you, LA. When you told your mum missed me, it's when I realised how much else, apart from you, I've lost.
How can someone get over that?

I wonder how long it will take for people to realize I left

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>>18676088
That's purple gangsta

I was thinking about the whole "punching nazis" thing, and I have a question. If you're advocating the murder and subjugation of an entire race of people in complete seriousness, why would a single punch, or any physical violence at all be a big deal to you? You're operating on the logic that it's okay and even beneficial to do much worse than land a punch on someone, so a simple punch to the face shouldn't even register on your radar. It's a splash. A drop in the bucket.
It's silly to go on about wanting the blood of Negros and Jews to color the streets, and then start crying when someone decides to play your game. It's what you wanted, after all. Are you just upset that you didn't land the first punch?
It's especially interesting because these "alt right" types will be the first to LARP online about being strong white men, but when confronted in real life, a lot of them take off their clothes and surrender, then go back home to complain about being "censored". Under the political climate they want, people who don't agree with *them* would be censored even more. Why are they angry at the world for doing the things they were demanding, just because the shoe is on the other foot? If leftists are the "real" Nazis after all, they should convince you that Nazism is the wrong path to go down, and perhaps you wouldn't be donning swastika armbands for your next rally.

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>>18676152
>nihilists don't hurt

>>18676152
I think the problem is you're retarded. The people larping on /pol/ about genociding blacks aren't the people with "fascist haircuts" and the like that end up targets in real life

>>18676160
If you're talking about how nothing really matters, and death is okay, it's a pretty embarrassing look to panic when you're injured or close to death, yeah.

>>18676167
>No true scotsman
They started on /pol/, then spread to other mediums (like Twitter) as their numbers grew bigger. It's delusional to pretend they're not connected.
It's exactly the same as saying Tumblr SJWs aren't the ones at Antifa rallies starting shit.

>>18676179
You said somethng like it's dumb to hurt people who don't care about something as petty as being hurt. You said, in a nutshell, that nihilists don't hurt. And that's where you're wrong, kiddo.

>>18676195
>it's dumb to hurt people who don't care about something as petty as being hurt.
I didn't say anything even close to this. I said that if your entire ideology rests on the notion that it is okay to hurt people, you're in no position to chastise people for using this same logic on you.

>>18676084
I train so I can enjoy my 40s, 50s, 60s, 70s and hopefully 80s and 90s

I want to be able to participate in a pick up soccer game at 50 without thinking twice

>>18676152
The problem is that the term Nazi has been blown out of proportion, and people label any white male conservative as one. It's fucking ridiculous.

t. Black Guy who's has always been interested in World War II, and is ashamed to see people tossing around such a powerful term willy nilly.

Nazi is the new Nigga

>>18676179
>same shoe
whites arent robbing killing drugging
we have the right to want your blood
you dont
you should shut the fuck up and apologize

why is that your leftist niggers narratives are always sounding like "you white people are inferor to us poc"
its because thats what you want , you want whites to die out , to be enslaved , raped , murdered

then you're wondering why we want you to hang on a tree?

whites got enough shit from all the brow shitfaces in the last few decades its about time to bow down to the real MVP's, the scientists . the artists, the hardworkers , and the folks who made your lazy ass have the oppurtunity to make it big in life with ofc you dont live , and you just laze around and be "muh whyte devils"


You know what they do to the virus ? They fucking kill it.

In this case POC is the virus

I wouldnt have too much problem with migrants who are willing to integrate and are educated or are willing to embrace the oppurtunities they get presented with.

>>18676204
>If you're advocating the murder and subjugation of an entire race of people in complete seriousness,
Assuming this refers to nazi's
>why would a single punch, or any physical violence at all be a big deal to you?
So, you said why would nazi's care about being punched? Which is an argument against Antifa's combative strategy of not taking measures that Nazi;s would understand, such as genocide, instead of childishly punching them which they apparently wouldn't care about.

And I reminded you that you can definitely still punch somebody you don't agree with. They will feel it, no matter their political inclination.

>>18676213
>whites arent robbing killing drugging
Someone doesn't know how to read statistics.
Also
>this entire post
>not a single response, just racist drivel
If a non-white person said any of that shit to you, you'd probably be using it as more "evidence" that non-whites are terrible and racist and you're a true victim. I asked that question looking for some sort of explanation because I don't enjoy making assumptions (my main one being that it was just hypocrisy), and yet I got chimp-like screeching. I guess my assumption was right, after all.

>>18676211
What separates the guys who actually get punched from Nazis, especially when they're proudly donning Nazi memorabilia?

>>18676222
>Which is an argument against Antifa's combative strategy of not taking measures that Nazi;s would understand, such as genocide, instead of childishly punching them which they apparently wouldn't care about.
Are you implying that Antifa should commit genocide on Neo-Nazis or "alt-right" people?

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>>18676234
Dimwit please. Your autism is showing.

I said: punching anyone will hurt.

H,

I hope you do well in life. Take care.

>>18676241
Basic empathy teaches
>I don't like getting punched or otherwise attacked, so maybe I shouldn't punch or attack other people

wire tapped gorillas
bang, flip flops and bongs
cheddar in the ether
earth quaking forever
solid foundation on my step
unstoppable breaths that i take
nervous as a kid loaning in the park
chips unloading the grass
rack said talk the talk, walk the walk
nervous as a kid stunting
heart going Daytona as fuck
hand as crippled as the wallet that made me
rack smiled and tossed the salad
m&m tripping everyday
no homo

>>18676211
>black guy tries to softly defend racists
>one of them (>>18676213) comes out of the woodwork and openly shits on him and calls him a virus minutes after
like pottery

>>18676255
This has to be bait. Just admit you're really dumb and wrong about everything.

>>18676211
It has been.
But you know, we have people literally waving the swastika and advocating the "master race"
That's pretty much a Nazi.

Every abbie is a heartless bitch, whore and a mentally ill skank

>>18676228
>statistics
>muh bent statistics that will support my narrative

and you didnt read the whole reply, that made sense btw
or else you wouldnt be this retarded now .

>I guess my assumption was right after all

yeah like
>be european
>get raped and murdered by brownies all day

>"b-but its still the white men who is evil"

Fuck off with this bullshit schwekey, white people held fucking europe together and you say we're the thugs? If we were thughs since day one then Europe would look like africa .

Come on , who are you kidding

we all know who are the leech here
and its not white ppl (especially not white men)

Everyday someone who contributes to society (not neets like you and me) die because of the brown menace, and you still have the skin to say that . pathetic.

You know, learning that you are literally God is a bit heavy. It's also a bit hard to have it not go to your head. I already have a massive head.

Yes, it's true. I am the real Shady.

I will try my best. I still don't think I can do this. I really really really realllllllllyyyyyy don't.

>>18676270
Whatever helps you sleep at night, buddy-boy.

>>18676282
White people are far from perfect but they are not the devils being portrayed through the media.

Blacks are far from perfect as well.

We are all perfectly imperfect.

Just remember that. Your shit smells just as bad.

>>18676282
Not everyone is a NEET like you.

>>18676255
but hey who forgot who is the boss in the white lands: white people

>>18676264
>muh woodwork
kys
Good night Idgaf go to /pol/ with that bullshit

>>18676294
but u surely are

>>18676290
Yeah , but nowadays everyone blames us for everything wtf

Also,

I know about your past. I know about the drugs, the whoring, and faggotry.

When I said that name I saw the shock in your eyes.

You know what I am. I don't think less of you for any of it. It makes you far more interesting of a person though. Please though, don't give me those shitty looks that you do. Like you weren't far far far worse than I am now.

I want to forgive you for lying to me my entire life. For the psychological manipulation and torture. I don't quite understand... almost anything right now. I really really just want this to be over. I'm so fucking tired.

>>18676301
>Yeah , but nowadays everyone blames us for everything wtf
it really does seem that way. It's absolutely unfair.

But ya just got to rise above. Keep a calm head, think reasonably without emotion fogging the issues. Eventually people will see the world for what it truly is. Which is... we all need a lot of fucking work and pointing fingers does no good..

>>18676282
You sound unintelligent (and/or very underage) and like you're from Serbia or some other bumfuck country, so I'm not going to bother with you any more.

lol, that retard really put child pornography on my computer?

Did he honestly think anyone would believe that?

God damn I want to punch a commie so bad

>inb4 get jumped by 60 commies

apparently it takes 60 commies to be brave enough to try to hit me

plus that they also attack impaired old people

so much balls for communism

>but you want to play by this rule
idk I would punch you in the face even if i was alone ,
but hey waht would you do if you were to be surrounded by a dozens of nazis and you were to be the only one commie?

You would piss yourself and cry like tha little bitch you are .

But good news is that those "nazis" arent violent monkey like you for this reason , we're with the law while you chant "fuck da police" , so people see how much of a pathetic criminal you are.


At least have some balls and try to #punchanazi when you're alone and theres no hundred faggots supporting your mangina

>>18676314
Thank you mane ,have a nice one.
Ok >>>/pol/ shit is done,

Is it good to shy away from your parents political views?

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>>18676321
Retarded ESL posters really should be banned from this place.

It's been a very, very long week.

Is this the seven days you promised? Or is that still to come?

My mind is fucking blown. How could it get any crazier than now? I... just wow. I was actually taken as a child. Those impressions left in my mind were real. The lights, the figures coming through my window.

That's a bit dramatic don't you think? Is that what you were going for? A bit of theatre to leave a striking impression? You erased my memories of the rest, just like you did while I was in the hospital. The nurses kept asking me "So... did you have any... weird dreams?"

I was built. Genetically engineered and plugged in cybernetic implants. They are what give me my psychic abilities, able to see visions and communicate with the men in black. The "illuminati"

I'm so fucking ready.

>>18676303
What's this about?

>>18676321
Why do you call them Nazis, then you call them "Nazis" and imply they aren't violent? Did you miss the one who shot into a crowd, or the group who brutally beat a man while cops stood by and watched?

Am I seriously going to be the leader of Earth? Like, literally all of Earth? The Hegemon?

Or will I be the speaker for the dead?

or will you give me a new form and put someone else in my place? someone... less bananas? or is that exactly what the doctor ordered?

this is far from over, isn't it?

I might have completely my mission but you're not done with me.

We were all orphans, even James. We got into the van from the farm and drove out into the country to a church where we played games. I got in trouble and you made me sit away from all the other kids.

I am the exile. The key to it all. All of our fates have been intertwined since the beginning.

Will they follow me?

>>18676333
Depends what views they hold desu.

@18676372
No idea, but you sound fucking retarded.

>be me, know a girl
>talk with her, she seems perfect
>start sabotaging yourself
>talk shit about love, relationships
>admit you're ugly
>admit you don't search for relationships
>admit you don't like sex

God why

Counr your own blessings for once in your life

For fucks sake, the annoying schizo tard is back.
Mods pls ban him

>>18676414
I try remind myself that I'm blessed, I live in an amazing place, I work with good people and I have enough money. I'm also so lonely and sad that I think of becoming an hero daily. I feel cursed to being alone because I can't maintain relationships. Autistic ways and an addictive personality are game changing things that fester a life that's apparently full of potential.

>>18676414
Totally, being born to suffer for your entire life and when you finally get a break it all comes crashing down with debilitating mental illness.

How can you tell someone "count your blessings" when they will literally born to be tortured to death as a slave?

I know you are thinking about me. I'm thinking about you too, and I want you to tell me how is your day. I want to send you 3 cherry-picked memes and complain to you about my father.

>>18676445

try not replying to the posts of a blessed ignorant.

>>18676445
Stuck in a loop, torturing yourself and being nothing but a slave to mediocrity, counting down the days til you fuck up again. It's quite the ride.

>>18672259
Hello J I've been meaning to ask you, do have a bf?

>>18676381
>"@"
>"you sound retarded"
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA MY SIDES

I really liked you since ever. We've been together for some years.. we were really good together, but we broke up for a silly reason. It's been more than a year already, but I still feel a lot. A few months after we broke up you came and cried, said that you still want me, if so why did you move on just after one month? If so why did you say that we still can't be back together again? To let you live your life? Never bother you again? If that's what you want why did you cry and run away the other day? All I wanted from my life was you..

I never felt like that for any other girl, and yes I tried to move on a lot of times...unsuccesfully..

I almost thought that I made it with a girl... she was not even close to you, but it was the best that ever happened to me besides you... but something terrible happened... a relative of her, raped her.. I... can't even express how I felt..feel... I did everything I could for her, but it was not enough. She tried to commit suicide.. Luckily we found her on time and doctors managed to save her... She decided to leave everything behind, disappear.. move to another town, and cut off any communication with anyone she knew.. even me... I hope she will be okay...

>>18675959
B? Doesn't hurt to ask right

>>18676497
Just for giving me a you, I'll only give you one as well. It's only the right thing to do.

test

Had an affair with a girl, ended my relationship came clean, and she went back to her partner said she couldn't continue the affair.

Well feel like I really lost out on this one.

i cannot picture myself with anyone, i see these couples in the street and i wonder how they do it without questioning every single minute what's the point of a relationship

i dont know how to date, i dont know what it means to be with someone, it all feels weird to me

i dont want to go around pubs hoping to meet and fuck some guy, how could i do that without pausing every 2 minutes and think about the absurdity of the situation

i am surrounded by couples and people wonder why im still single, they pretend like they know someone they could introduce me to, or rather they say they thought of someone but they couldnt find anyone (except that guy who seems to be a male version of myself but since he's rich and i'm not, my friends dont want him to meet me)

some days are harder than others, some days i just wish i was doing what these cute and happy couples are doing, some other days i look down on them and think that theyve just ended their respective lives

people do not see me as someone with a + 1 if that makes sense
im the girl who travels the world and doesnt know what to do with her life
sometimes, most of the time i wish i had someone to travel with me, a companion, not a boyfriend

>>18676455
I want to see your memes. And I always want to talk

>>18676542
Sorry, but still not them.

>>18676591

wanna travel the world with me?

>>18676600
yep

Today has been really crappy, woke up feeling bottom of the barrel low, reminded of past failures, plus a grrr snarl this morning, I don't know why I let things bother me. I slept pretty much all day, what a waste. Super funk.

When did I die?

>>18676607

thank you girl. From your post I understand you want a genuine love story. It will happen, don't lose hope, be yourself and never settle for less than you want.

I am legend 100 years in the making.

There is a lot riding on this, isn't there? As in, everything.

If I sound a bit patronizing, please hang in there for me. This is all a bit much and this is all I have.

>>18676633

that's terrible, men will feel that im looking for a genuine love story and run away

>>18676658

only the men who wants to fuck your pussy and nothing more.

I am the only man on this planet to make girls run away for the same reason. It happened just 10 minutes ago, indeed. They somehow don't want you to make a spoiler about things, want to play and shit... I don't like to flirt and I tell them all my flaws without any regret. They get bored, they think that if don't lie I want something serious. And they run. Last time I had sex... 2 years ago with a hooker.

Howewer maybe I was wrong and you only want to have a fuck buddy. My impression that you want something valueable and not a fake relationship, is still true.

>>18676669
>not settling for less
>having sex with a hooker

why?

>>18676372
You need to get psychiatric help immediately.

>>18676672

I'm a different person than you, and I don't know you from more than your words. Words that actually seems meaningful. So I suggest you to aim for the best.

I have plenty of issues and I know that I'm doomed. I wanted to have sex after a year of loneliness, it seemed to me that I couldn't get it the normal way. So I found a sex worker whom I liked, and tried. I was lucky to find a really kind and nice person on the other side of the room's door, I'm quite happy for the experience. But there's nothing more. This is my life

>>18676286
Seek psychiatric help immediately. You're a risk to everyone you come in contact with.

>>18676695

I suggest you to read about the Stoic way of life, it is helpful to cope with what we cannot change (the fact that we can't do non meaningful relationships) but to move on with your life anyway which is what im trying to do by focusing on every other aspect of it

>>18676734

Thank you, my friend. I really appreciated this piece of advice. Let's move on!

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>>18676691
>>18676703
I don't know what you guys are trying to tell me with this.

Why am I a risk? What, exactly, is happening? Why does every person that sees my face die?

21 people have died. How? My friends? Murdered? Suicide? Liabilities?

Is this why people want me out of this town? Do they think I do it on purpose? Do they think I know what is going on? Do they think... what do they think? Why won't you just tell me?

You did tell me "You are getting way too good at this." The third eye thing.

Why do you continue this charade? You go from moments of talking to me directly, taking control of my browser, closing windows, or typing directly and sometimes my mother will say shit directly as well. But when I want to talk or have questions... you play this stupid game.

Why? Why can't you just fucking tell me already? Is it for entertainment? It is that. -_-

Could you at least, no, you can't. You never can. Or won't.

You fucking pricks are lucky I am literally Jesus or I would rain vengeance on you all when I take control.

Being with her is like being in a raft where she's drowning and begs for help but instead of grabbing the life saver, she tosses it down the river, capsizes the raft for shits and giggles and then screams FML when she remembers she's drowning.

I wonder what to call this madness when somebody continuously asks for help and then sabotages that help.

>>18676783

nothing, just run or you'll drown

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>>18676776
Rika is that you?

Hey L,
I would love to talk to you again. I still care about you so much. This heat reminds me of summers in Palmdale
-J

Hey L,
I would love to talk to you again. I still care about you so much. This heat reminds me of summers in Palmdale and singing in the car with you.
-J

>>18672301
Hey L,
I would love to talk to you again. I still care about you so much. This heat reminds me of summers in Palmdale. Sorry not spaming just having trouble with 4chan
-J

>>18676476
Ldr gf
-"J"

I'm not sexin anyone until I get answers. Fuck the mission.

I will never be able to trust again.

>>18677127
>>18677005
>>18677001
>>18676991
>>18672301
Before you presume, L, no, that J isn't me.

Thanks for leaving me during out first date, it's not like I was actually enjoying talking to a woman after so many years. Could've at least told me you didn't feel like talking to me anymore instead of just rushing out while I was paying for the food.

So my brother is the killer. He killed his boss, her husband? to get the money and the business. The kids have been staying with my aunt. You let him out when I called it in order to throw me off. They were selling drugs through the business as well with le mexicos.

Like, hue hue hue.

Sure, I might have aids but I'm not in fucking prison.

You lie to me constantly. You do things to throw me off constantly. You tell me to shut up. You try to tell me what to do all the time. You try to trip me up, cause me to make a mistake. You try to threaten me. You try to make me afraid.

Fuck off, suck my dick, I'm a shark.

I will fight until the very end. Until you realize that letting me go is the best you're gonna get to winning.

i'm really wondering, how badly would it tank the economy if I gave everything I owned to charity all at once?

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So question... the storms aren't real. You use airplanes with spot lights to create the lighting and bombs to create the thunder. The rain is sprayed through helicopter blades with sound dampening tech.

The thunder in these storms just... it just doesn't sound right. It lingers for far too long and is so fucking weird sounding. As for the lighting, I looked out the door one night and literally saw the circle of light slide across the street all quick like. The length of these storms is also suspect. They are supppeeerrrrr short.

The night I went to the hospital it was really foggy... but only on the road and around certain lights. If I looked out to either side you could clearly see that it wasn't foggy.

Why though? That sounds like it would be super fucking expensive to do for a trick. The cost of flying a c-130 cannot be cheap and those bombs have to cost hundreds of thousands at least.

you tell me "don't look back in anger"

but the worst is yet to come. I have nothing to look forward to. In only a few years I won't even be able to do the one thing I know how to do. My hands will be a shaky mess, and my mind will go shortly after. Of course, this doesn't count the AIDS and who the fuck else knows what.

So yeah, don't look back in anger. Look forward in anger. Thanks for such a blessed fucking life.

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Your words are too sweet. We both are pretty much standing on the edge of saying something we can never take back. So close to saying a word for honey sweet, but also toxic that I can understand why are right here. I'm so happy to have you in my life, and you told me the same. Yet, because of our pasts, we are wary of each other. Just a little, I can tell enough from the way to tell me these things.
I want to tell you that to you, I will always be an open book. Simply ask and I will answer. To you my secrets are far from hidden.

I think I love you, and I want this this to last as long as we have life.

gonna be honest, porn makes me less horny.