Ruined my life

Guy here.
Girl I am not in a relationship with but have cared for deeply for ages and basically love recently confided her recent "sexual adventures" in me.
I sat there nodding like an idiot not knowing what to do or say to make it stop while internally screaming.

I am generally thick skinned, but I open up a dangerous amount and make myself stupidly vulnerable around the people I care. As in, things said by people I care naught for have no impact on me, but things said by people I care deeply for cut to the core of my being.

Knowing this, your girl likely feels a thousand times worse than I did.

I'll tell you what hurt me most (and probably your girl). It was the feeling that she didn't seem to care. No worse still, it wasn't even that she didn't care about the impact her words were having on me, it was that she just assumed her words weren't having an impact to start with. I felt like she was completely and utterly oblivious of how I felt about her. If I thought she was doing it to spite me, I could find solace in the fact that she at the very least was aware of my feelings, but not even that much was true.

Your girl likely feels the same way, that you didn't do it out of spite or to make her feel jealous, but simply because you don't think it is a big deal.

The only way to fix is to take 100% initiative and tell her all of this. That you do care, that you do know how much your acts hurt her, that you were basically self destructing over the idea of losing her etc.

As for your friend, I have no idea what it is you said exactly, but bros will be bros usually (especially over drunk arguments), unless you completely fucked him over with some trust breaking shit.

>What should I do?
Fucking apologize like a man.

Call your bestie, explain that you were an ass and were emotionally fucked up from your relationship ending and took it out on him.

>I want a long distance relationship when my relationship didn't start that way.
But fucking why?

Sounds like you made a big decision to move to another country without making this decision WITH your ex while you were still together. Bad move.

>What do?
Apologize to your ex. Explain why moving overseas was so important and how it never occurred to you that moving would come between you and your hunny because you were more focused on the experience.

If you want both people in your life, you need to be the one to take a hit and make the next move.

>>18672178
>I'll tell you what hurt me most (and probably your girl). It was the feeling that she didn't seem to care.

This guy gets it, unfortunately.
Your actions show that you didn't care about your girl, when you obviously fucking do.

>>18672125
your best friend and ex-girlfriend will now get together and become an item. They will bond about how much of a "bad person" you are.

You did them both a favor, they will have a happy life together thanks to what you've done.

as for you: you seem to not have an issue getting laid so just live your life and meet new people. You'll find a new woman to love, and probably sooner than you realize.

>>18672178
> No worse still, it wasn't even that she didn't care about the impact her words were having on me, it was that she just assumed her words weren't having an impact to start with.
True suffering

>>18672125
what a faggot