Life and death problem

Well, uh, that's a dickens of a problem there Padre. I'm not sure this is the place to sort out such issues. Do you have any grandparents, aunts, uncles, and so forth. You can also go to a crisis center (assuming you have one). Another option is to find some form of employment, nothing complex but hopefully one that can cater to what artistic talents you have. If you get a job then that's one less thing people can use against you.

>>18664172

I'd get a job but mentally I can't handle it. I tried and it's always either getting fired or me quiting. Not much money either. I had wanted to focus on my personal artwork that I could earn money from, it will take time but I can do it if I have a safe home. No one believes though, they all write me off as forever loser because I don't promote how hard I work. You look at me you see someone who plays video games all day but really I work.

But while I look for work I still need to sort this out until then and until I get money and find a place. My dad said I can go back live with him if I follow his rules, when I ask what the rules are he says they are not definite. And he has all my belongings and may never give it to me.

In terms of practical advice, I have none. You weren't wrong, cutting you was extremely wrong, I feel sorry for you.

I hope you get it figured out, stay with your dad if it helps but don't piss that guy off, he is crazy for doing that.

I hope others reply b/c I don't know what to say.

Step 1: go where your dad isn't.

Step 2: live how you feel like.

This gives me feels.

>>18664217
You mentally cant handle a job? Fuck off. Youre 30 years old. Grow up and get a job and move out. No one likes working but you do it to take care of yourself. If i had some pussy 30 year old kid making excuses why he cant do anything id probably cut him too.

>>18665053
Yeah dude seriously. I wanted to stab him too after reading that.

>>18665053

Either way I will get fired because of lack of enthusiasm. I will get depressed really quickly doing boring work (ADHD). The best thing I can do for myself is find way to work for myself. Last time I had a job was 4 months ago, but I left it because it was 18 hour work day with some very competitive people. Before that another job my bosses weren't happy with how I wasn't a cultural fit and was sidelined. And this cycle repeats itself. It just ain't working. But yes when I'm working people like family treat me more equally and have some standing with society. Although me not having friends or social life means nothing will change because if I had a good job people will see I don't deserve it.

>>18665053
To be fair, he did state he lives in a 3rd world shithole. They probably pay him the equivalent of $5 USD a day.

>>18664217
>I'd get a job but mentally I can't handle it.
thread over, op doesn't want advice