I don't know what to do

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I'm 20 and just went into my 2nd year of college. I lost one of my scholarships and now I'm just not comfortable taking 8k in debt a year for a degree I'm not a %100 I will enjoy. My parents got rid of my room and moved to a smaller place right when I left so I can't go back to figure things out. I have 4 days to figure shit out before I can no longer leave without paying %20 of my costs to attend. Everytime I want to tell them I can't do this they seem to say how amazing I'm doing and how proud they are of me that I'm making something of myself. My options I'm thinking of are
1. Join military and choose what interests me after I serve 4 years
2. Leave, stay 3 months with a friend in his spare room while I save up and get a apartment near my family for 300-500 a month. Also take this time to establish income stream while I find work. I can make 400 a month currently without a job.
3. Stay and tough college out. Already am depressed because I feel forced into everything. Received teacher that hardly speaks English for my programming 2 class which has a %35 failure rate with this teacher so I expect to fail here. The financial stress is killing me mentally, I'm constantly thinking of how I can make it and I can't even afford supplies.

I really don't know what to do anymore, I don't want everyone to be mad and upset at me but I just can't be what they want me to be. I think of suicide daily and to make it worse I was a victim of a black on white hate crime here, but since they didn't leave marks after choking and shoving me around the police didn't have anything to go on.