>have bipolar 2 starting two years ago >have idiopathic

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>have bipolar 2 starting two years ago
>have idiopathic hypersomnia
>gets worse when im stressed
>nearly drop out of university first year due to a lack of a support network (went to a therapist during all of this)
>emotionally abusive family (sometimes my dad will throw shit at me or grab/choke me if im having an explosive fit of anger)
>in middle of huge city
>only been in working condition (for a job) for around 3 months (bipolar medication helping a little bit with my tiredness)
>doctor won't prescribe me stims even after 2 years of the same issue plaguing my life
>narcissist mom. dad enables her but also helps me and is the only support network i have.
>am disciplined to a degree and draw+exercise consistently a lot
>summer is killing me because i have no friends and interactions with my family are increased because i dont have school to go to

what do i do? my psychologist says i basically have to wait until im more stable and then move out and my dad says it too but im scared im going to kill myself before that point ever occurs. i've been doing everything i can to get better and it feels like the last two years will be on repeat for the rest of my life.