>always think I dress like shit
>take 2 hours just to keep trying clothes to feel okay
>always feel lonely
>feel like I won't find someone
>keep pondering it
>try downloading apps
>get some messages
>get excited
>hours pass
>start obsessing what they are doing
>keep checking the profile
>keep messaging in fear of them not noticing the message
>constantly opening and closing the apps
>meanwhile at work trying to fill out sheets
>can't think of any of the info cause of the apps
>fear of fucking up my job
>start thinking i'll get fired
>Intrusive thoughts of failing at life start happening and conjoins with being a lone
>anxiety kicks into high gear
>start poking myself with sharp objects to settle nerves
>get worked up I pass out at home from exhaustion
I want out already
Try meditation it releaves stress and helps you find the root of your anxiety and if that doesn't work try weed it has been proven that it helps against stress and anxiety.
P.S.
Lonelines is very normal if you want more friends you have to practice getting out of your comfort zone and find some people you can connect with.
P.P.S.
if all of this doesn't help go get profesional help man it is expensive but worth it