I want to go out into the city on my own so fucking badly, but whenever I do go I just end up wandering the streets to anxious to enter any of the establishments. It's literally paralyzing. I feel so isolated and trapped, and I feel like I'm stuck in a hole I'll never get out of.
>>18633070
Take the expectations out of what it means to "go out." You're probably putting a lot of pressure on yourself to do all these things and find the right spot and get all this stuff out of it. Just take a walk, realize you have the right to be out there just like anyone else. Pick a place, any place, and say to yourself "I'm just gonna pop in, see what's up" and if you don't like it, don't feel weird about leaving. You're just popping in.
I recommend going to a bar or something, because you can level up to striking up a conversation with a stranger/the bartender if you're looking to get practice with that kind of thing and it sounds like you might be.
>>18633084
For the most part I'm just trying to live a little and actually go out and meet people. I've been friendless and lonely since I graduated High School, and I really want to fix that.