Need to cut person out of my life but i can't.

>>18631993
>After all this happened i accidentaly bump her door the first day i return from leave and she had a guy inside
>At the same day meet her while biking and ask her if she wants to ride with me, we go around sightseeing and then tell her i need to go
The worst happened just now though. She works at the communications department of my job and i'm an officer(coast guard), so basically she answers phones all day.I had to brief some guys on some shit some days ago and i had the meeting at the call center because everyone was there. Basically everyone gets in that call center to fuck around and desu it's annoying because the operator has to answer phones and file reports at the same time, and having 100 people over your head isn't helping. Today before we went out we had the same fucking around and she said if you don't have work to do then please leave. She got into a fight with another woman over this which i didn't witness because i was waiting in the car, plus i didn't want to take part because i'm still ignoring her. Later i heard she was crying over this.

I beta'd up. I wanted to console her so badly even though i shouldn't. I bumped into her before entering my house and she told me that she feels really bad about the fight and she said my briefing a few days ago pissed her off. I immediately agreed like a good cuck that it was unthoughtful of me and apologised, and told her i learned what happened and she was right.I tried to calm her down but she didn't want to talk anymore. Just before i entered the house she asked me if i deleted or blocked her from facebook, which i said i blocked her. She said fine, then let's keep it typical between us.

It was then where i fucked up. I told her i blocked her for my reasons, that i don't have any negative feelings against her, that it's my fault that it came to this, that it really hurts me that we don't talk anymore and i really miss her company. She said to give it more time and that it wasn't time to talk about .

>>18632032
How can i stop fucking up like this? I can't stop fucking thinking about her. I hit on other girls and some even like me but all i think about is her. I try to some new activity every week to keep my mind of her but i can't truly enjoy it. I know i should tell her to fuck off because it will never work between us but i can't. I feel alone even though i go out more than i ever did in all my time in this place. And the worst part is that she knows she has the upper hand in this, she can find someone in an instant. I arranged to visit a friend this saturday that is kind of a slut but she invited me to sleep in her house and she is very touchy feely whenever i see her so i know she is DTF but i know i'll fuck it up because i'm hung up on that girl.

And i know one day soon she'll find someone that she calls baby and goes to dinner with him and all the things i wanted to do with her but she didn't because 'she didn't want me getting too attached'

She is fucking playing me like a fiddle and i can't control myself. How can i cut her from life?

yep

you fell for a girl who repeatedly said DO NOT FALL FOR ME

maybe in the future youll learn that love is optional and you, and only you, can control your emotions

>>18632065
How can i not fall for her when she did things for me that my ex of 3 years never even considered? Or even my best friends for that matter. Not to mention the best sex i ever had.I thought i was on a good path. Like my ex, she broke up with someone and ended up with me. I thought if i kept pressing on she would give in.

I think i can control my emotions but every time i look at her i turn into butter. If she talks to me i sperg out. I have tried everything to avoid this. I ignore her when we are around other people,i leave the house when she is next door, i was even grabbing a girl's ass (that probably likes me but i don't like her at all) with her next to me and i still think of her. Everyone tells me i'm a fucking idiot but i can't stop fucking up.

Should i change houses?