Is it bad if I just choose to disregard women for the rest of my life. Focus on making money, fuck escorts, and when the tech is ready, recreate that one girl I still can't get over after all these years as an Android, and live a life of bliss?
Call me pathetic if you like, but it's a bit of an odd situation.
It's a girl I met online, and got real close with. We cammed a lot and etc... and had an "online relationship" for a couple years. Absolute waste of time, I won't deny it.
But this girl was gorgeous, and this is the closest I ever bonded with another human being, and combined will all the stuff I would project onto her because of the online barrier, it totally fucked me. Especially since I never got with her nor met her irl.
Now, 7 years later, and several relationships behind me, and I still can't get over this chick.
And no, trying to rekindle shit is dumb, she has her own life, and had a lot of issues, what I imaged through our faux relationship would never compare to her real self. Not only that, but she's obviously gotten older, and wouldn't be as attractive as her 21 yo self.
It's weird, I know.
But over the years, I became more and more disillusioned with women, and even more so with the rise of feminism, and reading red pill literature like Rational Male blog and such.
I just don't know another way out of this, but I have needs, not just sexual needs, but emotional needs as well. Emotional needs that I genuinely don't feel any woman would ever be able to fulfill.
Sometimes I do just wish for that tech to exist, so I could have someone who fulfills that role in my life, in the way I want it to be fulfilled
Does that make sense to you?
I very much relate to you.
Escorts can be good.
They have cuddling services too now.
Go for that money and make it happen fuck what others think do what makes you happy.
Thats what im doing. If something doesnt improve my life, its not a part of my life. Dealing with women is not worth it.
I fucked up in my quest for money though. Chose a fairly valuable stem major but got 100k in the red doing it. 2 years after graduation my networth is still -50k and I find myself supporting a few relatives on 65k/yr.
Dont make my mistakes.