>be 24 >talentless hack >functioning enough for my commune-job,

Spend less times in video games and more in your job to improve

Give your best

I'll pray for you anon

>>18625452
>bad with economy, i'm still going plus but i buy things all the time on impulse hoping to make my boredom go away; even when i'm at my most excited i lose interest in a few days or shorter
>bad at friendships; reached a point where i refuse to call anyone else a friend, because this has allowed me to keep a few people in my life, rather than deleting them BECAUSE they didn't meet my "friendship standard"
>bad at communicating
>bad at caring; like genuinely caring about someone, being even vaguely interested in things that don't directly benefit me, etc, which makes me seem extremely antisocial
>bad with speed, can't get a drivers' license because the very idea of going too fast terrifies me, i'll just crash into walls, no use in getting a car
>bad at everything i do, brother has started ridiculing about every little thing, the only person in my life i'd still willingly spend time with
>bad at smalltalk, literally never have anything to say, only reply to be humble

>>18625456
>don't even play games anymore, yet as mentioned spent thousands of hours- and bucks on a basically dead hobby, it's collecting a growing pile of dust, it's a gigantic neverending habitual buyer's remorse and even more sunk cost damage
>can't do anything right, sometimes have to ask repeatedly, can't remember something someone told me directly ten seconds ago unless i was already invested in listening to them instead of my mind
>bad at getting fit, give up as soon as it starts hurting a lot, can take weeks before i try again
>apparently shit taste in music, get ridiculed for it, stopped sharing my thoughts on it as a result, sometimes even ignore being questioned entirely now

>>18625471
Put more effort into it, stop being hard on yourself too, set small goals and increase them as you go, do not give up no matter how hard it becomes.

Either try to get fit, or try to get better at work, etc

>>18625471
I just don't... "have a life"?

A typical day for me is
>wake up, feel like shit-tired, snooze until i risk getting late for work EVERY DAY
>procrastinate until i rip myself out of bed
>restock on daily protein shake, it's all i eat until i get home again, helped me lose a little weight i guess, nowhere near satisfying results
>go to work
>work, it's easy, as in surrounded by people with actual handicaps easy, conflicted with feelings of whether i'm one of them or if i'm the only normal person there and i'm just so shitty that i got myself into a big mess again
>go home
>sometimes eat
>do nothing
>browse /v/? browse /adv/? whatever
>rarely find motivation to play a game, almost always leaves me dissatisfied
>recently tried to work out, hurts like hell, still try to do it, but it hurts, it hurts so much, every day it hurts, and there is noone to share the hurting with
>procrastinate until i only have 4-5 hours left until work
>sleep

>>18625478
1000limit nextpost

>>18625478
I'm not being too hard on anyone, I'm just miserably unsuccessful in doing my best. My best is being below average.
I haven't given up. If I had given up, I'd have killed myself some 7-8 years ago like planned. My ex stopped me. Now she's my ex.
Oh, I don't want to ephasize anything over "my ex". We pretty much broke up 3 years ago, at least I mentally did. She only a few weeks ago finally accepted that we have no future, after being persistent with staying as an online couple since I left. I think she finally realized once I started talking about deleting her because of my changed view on friendships.

I can guarantee you that I can spend 10,000 hours on an easy task and still perform worse than someone who just began. And I'll never outperform them in this beginner state.

>>18625500
Some of my main interests have always involved being creative, or rather, creating things. Drawing, music, videos, (online) communities, relationships with meaning, etc.
Since I turn out to be garbage at every single one of them, even after trying at some for two decades, I can only conclude that none of them works for me. I'm not a creator. I shouldn't be anywhere near those things again, because I have zero potential, I'm just wasting my time trying to learn something I can't ever become okay at.

Figure out what you feel like doing and do it. Doing nothing can be a goal too.

Running instead of lifting might be more up your alley.

I can relate to everything you said except I hate work 10000x more than you do and that drives me to try really hard at life. I waste my efforts at things I have no aptitude for, but sometimes just trying is enough.

>>18625642
I'm guessing that I'm depressed as hell right now, but yeah, I gotta find something... somehow. I've been trying to do so for months, nothing seems to stick, it just makes me feel more and more and more and more useless.

How is doing nothing a goal? I genuinely sometimes consider just going home to sit down and "do nothing", but I'd be doing nothing. I fantasize about just putting on some good album and just sitting around, but then I immediately start my PC and do the usual anyway. I have no self-control.

My biggest issue with work is anxiety about how i dress/look and perform in interviews, and how well i perform work and getting along with others
i'm over 30 years odl and have had like 2 jobs ever, one of them is a few seasonal stints
so yeah too embarrasaed to go in
but i'm going into training for structural drafting so maybe that'll get me something
beyond that i'm late and lazy, and neurotic and the former two things combined have been the cause of tons of shit in my life
late because i would often just skip class if i was 5 mins late just so i wouldn't parade mysel fin fron tof the whole class again.

don't be like me, brothers
It's too late for me