Hey adv, I wanted you guys to weigh in on something ive been struggling with almost my whole life.
Im pretty paranoid. I often grt scared that someone is going to beat me up at a party when im drinking.
Just a few weeks ago a girl added me on whatsapp and started asking me questions, she was drunk and thought I was handsome so she added me, yet, I still got the feeling that she was going to get someone to beat me up.
What the fuck is wrong with me? For what its worth I did kickboxing for a year and im confident on the outside but paranoid on the inside.
Im also extremely competitive in areas I consider "mine" such as weightlifting or martial arts. Should a friend start doing anything I consider mine I always have to be better than them and im constantly comparing myself.
A few months ago a bird flew in my house and I whacked it with a broomstick, and I didnt feel bad about it, i actually kind of enjoyed it. I find myself also being narssistic.
What the fuck is wrong with me? Am I mentally ill?
>>18624542
Well, you are clearly nervous and agitated. I don't know if you are "ill", but you should get some help. At least get a psychiatrist to talk to man. Get these fears in the open and let someone help you deal with them.