Whats got you down /adv/?

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I found out today there is a chance I might be taking care of my mother for the rest of her life. Meanwhile, I've got my own health issues which aren't debilitating considering what I can still do, but it affects my mental/physical/emotional state enough where I wonder why I'm still here. Plus, while I have one degree under my belt, it's in a field I should have had sense enough when I started to realize that it wouldn't have the sort of monetary safety that I know I need right now. So considering neither of us are employed, and I'm only a diaper away from being employed, and that money is pretty tight/nonexistent between the two of us, I'm lost. I want to go back to school, I want to move out of the house and leave this place, even more so considering I had to come home because of money and this current health thing I've got going on, so now that I'm back, I feel like I'm her lifeline.

She's more mentally resilient than I am, but I can see some cracks in the armor, and I'm scared to see what the future holds, even though I have to charge full force at it to make any hope for myself. I see myself as being really behind in life and I perceive myself to be at the bottom of an insurmountable mountain, and I'm scared.