Hey /adv
I have an interesting conundrum: My personality sucks BUT my life has been so interesting.
I've lived in many different countries
Slept with beautiful women
Done many drugs
Love all kinds of strange things (German music, horse ridding, role-playing, Magick, Computer science, investing and more)
Lived a life of doing what I want - sometimes to my downfall
Now I have a great interesting manly job where Im surrounded by beautiful women.
But now when I speak to people, they are bored with me - I just cant express my uniqueness or life experiences well
I am really baffled, I think it might be PTSD - I was in a relationship with a socio-path for 12 years and I think it fucked up my emotional state.
do you really need other peoples approval that bad? you know about the experience you had and they are valueable to you, isnt that enough? why do you need to beg for a pat on the back for it? honestly more than anything it makes you sound like a prick especially the muh uniqueness part.
if you want to hear my 2ct drop the ptsd shit, drop the bragging about your past shit and start being an intersting person in the present: ask about your coworkers, offer witty comeback and *subtly* share your supposed wisdom in conversations.
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OK noted, but my problem is that I have lots of trouble conversing. Mostly I keep to myself and avoid people.
The PTSD is private, I dont share it except here as anon.
My rich past is unshared also.
Mostly when people talk to me I dont say much and leave the convo. This is strange to me because I didnt used to be like this.
>>18621235
Also, Its not about getting a pat on the back, its about finding joy in the company of others. I want to just be human and have friends but insted I act like Im autistic. Im baffled