How do I handle life?

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Hi /adv/

Lately I've felt like I'm incapable of handling life and the struggles that come with it. I get anxiety or depressed about things easily and my life objectively isn't very hard. I also worry about the future a lot. I'm an only child and my parents are getting old, I worry about them dying and what life will be like after they're gone and I have no one left... I mean I have some friends but I rarely see them or do anything with them, a lot of them are busy with their girlfriends, or they have other friend groups that I'm not apart of. There's no one I talk to on a daily basis. I had a girlfriend but she dumped me about a year ago which doesn't really bother me or contribute to these feelings so much, but in general I feel like I'm incapable of being loved. There's nothing special about me and I'm not interesting in anyway, in addition to the fact that I feel like I can't even handle life, I feel like I would just be a burden in any girls life.

What should I do? I know this isn't normal, most people go about life just fine. Even people in the poorest parts of the world are happy and not worried or bothered by the stupid things I am. I feel weird and different. I would honestly consider suicide because I feel purposeless but the thought of the pain it would cause my mom stops me. But then I think about what will happen when she dies, will I just end it then?