>be me 20 years old
>never had a gf
>armyfag
>give zero fucks about a girlfriend while in the army
>come back home every 3 weeks suddenly i feel lonely as fuck
>every hangout with the lads i just look for women
>sometimes they bring girls
>EVERY girl i look at makes me want to strike up with a relationship with her
How do i stop caring? I feel like this kind of thinking destroys my self esteem and character. Sometimes i get completely dissatisfied when coming home from a hangout because it feels like i didn't make proper moves or gotten a number of some random hot chick.
Usually i don't show signs of being annoyed or thinking like that, but i really need tips to drop this way of thinking and start giving zero fucks about finding a relationship.
Any help would be appreciated.
every person has a need for companionship.
In the army you brethren are always there with you and you have a common goal. You are companions of each other, no desire to get a new gf if you dont already have a wife.
However now you are not in the army anymore, you say :
>every hangout with the lads i just look for women
Meaning the lads are not your companions, and they show you they have succesfully found their companions. ">sometimes they bring girls"
So either go find brethren again who have a common goal, who are there with you always, emotional support, spending time, etc (companionship). Whether it be in the army, a secret society or whatever.
Or find a wife to be your companion.
You cannot stop caring. What is there to live living as a robot if not for procreation and starting a family, or achieving a great goal with brethren?