After avoiding drugs and alcohol all my life I feel physically healthy but having to come face to face with this loneliness is crippling to the point where I project onto my car. When people ask what I do I say that I do car work a lot and that scares them off more for some reason.
I feel like I will never meet a girl who will even pretend to care about me. Everyone just acts extremely cold towards me like I killed their friends or something when i literally did nothing to them.
I just want basic affection like all the other happy people.
Music doesn't make me happy anymore, driving doesn't make me happy anymore, and I spend most of my days off asleep now because I feel 100x worse during the day.
>>18602738
Kinda hard to fall in love with someone who seems to be completely devoid of emotion, and their every thought seems to be perpetual sadness and loneliness.
"I feel like I will never" is a great way to paint yourself into a corner you'll never leave.
You're probably still young. There are lots of people out there. Maybe learn about things other than cars, and that will be a small ice breaker? Or perhaps find other people who are really into vehicles?
>>18602738
You're just depressed mate. You have to get yourself out of this rut before you can find someone to share feelings with.
Relationships aren't get out of jail free cards.
>>18602747
I wasn't always like this
>>18602798
What changed?
>>18602738
I'm sorry about what you're feeling right now OP. I've also gone down hill into crippling depression and just want to be in my car smoking. Somone close to me hurt me so bad and he knew I was in love with him. Blaming me for the mistakes he's made. He was the only friend I had so I'm a loner now. What made you feel like this if I may ask
>>18602813
a lot of things
>>18602828
I've felt like this for a while. Was kind of hoping talking about it would help and it did a little i guess