I'm beginning to question my sexuality. I've been a very awkward and anxious person for the majority of my life. I'm twenty years old, nearly twenty one and I have never had a girlfriend. Have I wanted one in the past? Hell yeah but that was back in middle school and early high school. A decent amount of girls have quite obviously thrown passes at me before but I was always afraid (unsure of what, really) and never took them up on the advances, nor did I really know how. Due to my low self esteem I never really commented on which girls I thought were hot with friends or family very often, even if I really wanted to. I don't know if I actually have any anxiety disorder but I know I'm very afraid of many social situations, I don't even like swearing in front of people. My brain is fucked up, I know.
Anyway, towards the end of my time in high school up until now my sex drive has fallen into the gutter despite the fact that I'm a kissless virgin. I still masturbate on a regular basis watching the same boring porn (trying to quit now) but I never get any real feeling out of it anymore. I don't find myself attracted to men either but I guess some traps are kind of cute. Not sure exactly where I'm going with this but I read something to the effect of "If everyone around you thinks you're gay, you probably are." I'm sure all of my friends and family think I am. Is this how I get back in touch with my sexuality? By exploring men? I just want to feel true lust for anything again because right now I just don't care.
>>18601789
Have you ever had sex with a girl?
Don't give a damn about your sexuality.
It didn't matter whether or not you are single or not single or how people think about you. The only one that shall judge you or known best about you is yourself. Fuck other people, you are a man if you have enough self confidence to stop giving shit about stupid meaningless crap like sexuality.
>>18601795
no I am a kissless virgin
>>18601801
I guess but I figured maybe that's why I was always so afraid to engage with girls because I'm gay or something
>>18601789
Listen, other people should never be the judge of who you are. That said, as someone who was in a similar position to you, just experiment. There arent consequences if you play safe and the worst case is a boring experience
>>18601815
>I guess but I figured maybe that's why I was always so afraid to engage with girls because I'm gay or something
You don't engage with girls because you have no confidence and low self-esteem.
Do you engage (romantically) with guys? Probably not. Get more confident and more self-esteem and approach women more often. Consider it practice for when you meet a woman you'd really like to know.
>>18601789
Some men have low sex drives (I do too). That's not really indicative of whether you're attracted to men or women, it's just one factor in your sexuality.
>>18601789
Either your libido has been killed as a response to the realization that you'll never have sex, or porn saturation has made you bored of the same mainstream stuff. If you really were gay then you'd start fancying men as soon as you started having a sex drive. Changing later on means you've been brainwashed.
Stop fapping more than one day out of ten and you'll be lusting after everyday chicks. Worked for me and I was into some weird stuff.