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Depression causes lack of interest in hobbies

I haven't drawn in years

Get medicated while it's still mild

>>18597624
This.

You're not well. You're not sleeping, you're undergoing stress and negativity. It's good that you are seeing someone to help. But you're not well yet. Keep seeing your doctors/therapists. Get the help you need to become functional again. When you're better, you'll find interest in your hobbies again. But for now, your brain is exhausted by the weight of your illness and lack of sleep. Anyone would go crazy under those conditions.

I'm an artist myself, and I hate shitty artists who get into school because they have money.

But lots of people like you end up dropping out when the workload is too much in the later semesters, unless you go to a private institution that pushes for creativity over skills.

Also if you hate art and literature so much, then it wasn't meant for your career path. If you want to make money out of art, get into design or a creative position.