going to see Ex gf after breakup out of state

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hello adv

recently my ex broke it off with me after coming back from the army (Basic) she didn't tell me why just she lost feelings for me. truth is I know why and it's bec she doesn't see me with a purpose or sense of direction in my life and the fact that im just stuck.

so she goes to the army comes back breaks up with me and we go back to just being friends. I write to her, she writes to me we both say we love each other. She wants me to go visit her (1 weekend) via plane at her army base where she is stationed at for the next 5months.

I'm not sure now that I want to go because I still have feelings for her and we never got to deal with the emotional fallout of the breakup we just kind of never talked about it or brought it up. I feel like if I go see her (out of state) it will bring up those feelings and I know I'm still not over her. I haven't for forgiven her just yet I know I'm still dealing with the breakup but I feel I have to learn to forgive her and forgiven myself as well
in order to see this through.

should i go ahead and visit anyways? how should I approach this? I love her and her daughter and her family, I've never felt so she about this, I wanted her to be my future wife, we used to talk and laugh together so much soso, now I hear her voice I feel an intense emotional pain and it saddens me. should I just leave her be and not visit? or suck it up and go with an open mind?

Any advice helps