I hate being stuck in the house. Before I enjoyed video games and tv but now I only see them as a waste of time. My current go to for days like this is reading and simulated human interaction via 4chan, but I can't keep this up. What else can I do when I'm stuck in the house? I do volunteer work to get myself out as much as possible.
Anime. There is no down time when you're in anime.
>>18595857
Funnily enough anime is what inspired me to start lifting, and still does.
The thing is that you don't like to be with yourself, you'll have to deal with it and find why are you avoiding contacting with yourself
>>18596082
I guess I don't feel I have value unless I'm being productive. No matter what I've achieved in the past, I slip into depression and think of suicide almost immediately. It's like keeping busy is the only thing staving it off.