Hi adv. My biological survival mechanism is telling me to ask

Become a Sith. Survive using anger and hatred.

>>18590428
sound like mood swings. Maybe youre bipolar or something. Depression can cause that feeling too. Sometimes i feel like life is worth living but some other times i want to kill myself bc i cant see any hope in my future.

>>18590428
Get progressional help. Psychological and psychiatrical alike. It may be that your brain is not capable of feeling happiness like it used to. The world might be good, you've just for a really shitty filter permanently on. When it comes to wanting to die I always dismiss the thoughts using the same logic:
1. It permanently removes any chance of things getting better, even if you're religious usually suicide is a serious sin
2. If I got to the point where I cared so little about this world it would also be the point where I'd be truly free. The only thing I couldn't abandon is being fair towards people. So I will not start a killing spree or steal things but I might just as well take my bike and ride as far as I can, and then explore there, and so on and so forth. Being this desperate really opens many possibilities if you apply cold logic here.

I wish you luck anon. Seriously, see someone with a degree, he'll help you far more than us.

Hope you're having a good night OP