>Have a job that I don't like >Everyday feels like

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>Have a job that I don't like
>Everyday feels like a waste
>Burning through years of reality
>Only 20 years old, but it feels like I was 18 2 weeks ago
>Have no control over my existence, and time is burned through rapidly
>Don't feel alive, but don't feel dead either
>Just breathing and working and sleeping and waking up and eating and working and going back to sleep and waking up and working and eating and sleeping and waking up once more

A part of me is glad life is this way. I don't have to think, and I just do. I wonder if I'll regret living this way, but I doubt it. There's no way I can live any other way, so it'll be the same.

I don't think I'll ever really have anything else aside from my job, but I think that's ok.

I've come to accept reality, and I know I'm probably never going to get a girlfriend because of this. I'm going to be someone's Uncle as my sister is married, and if that's all I ever become, I think it'd be alright. At least I'm something to somebody in this world.