Completely lacking personality

>>18585385
how old are you, OP?

>>18585385
I can relate, I think
what about hobbies? what do you like to do?

>>18585426
23

>>18585687
I frequently go to the gym and often cycle. I used to enjoy PC gaming a lot, but I've lost interest in most games and only really ever play games like Dwarf Fortress or Aurora 4x.

I watch fantasy/sci-fi stuff a lot with my dad and brother.

Also I like painting and playing Warhammer 40k with my "friends", but I rarely do this and struggle speaking with them too.

>>18585787
>People tell me often I have social anxiety but I'm not convinced by it.
assume that you do and try to find more interesting friends with similar interests. You're either afraid or bored to speak with people. If you're 100% not afraid to express yourself you might be surrounded by idiots then

This is the same problem i face also. Really, I think it comes down to mood. You can say things and talk but if theres no emotion there, its like you're reading from a script and people will pick up on that. You wont just have good social skills from beating your meat and playing vidya - granted some gifted individuals do but thats by and by
So how do you improve your mood? improve your life, and this takes time. Personally, I'm addressing this by 1. quitting porn. 2. read more books. I spend a lot of time worrying and thinking negative shit, books have really helped with that and am already seeing many improvements

You may have other ways to improve you life, set goals, create meaning, get what you want out of life.. This will improve your social skills, hope this helps and good luck

>>18585952
I have absolutely nothing to express, I don't mean nothing "worth expressing", I literally mean I'm not thinking about anything I can put into a verbal context.

I've assumed I have social anxiety for most of my life and have seen many different therapists to combat it but the exact same issue has still remained.

>>18586143
you can't just have nothing on your mind
maybe you're thinking about something off-topic
maybe you're so afraid to express yourself that if feels like nothing
if you think this it's impossible I can tell you this

I'm so shy and afraid to express myself that this happens:

Me: *start talking about smth but stop because I think it's not worth it or I'm afraid of the consequence*
Friend: *if you started talking about smth - finish*
Me: *actually forget what I was saying as a defense mechanism* which is fucking hilarious and almost scary how shitty the situation is

So everything is possible mate

>>18586180
I'm not usually thinking of stuff in a verbal manner, speaking your mind will just be gibberish in such instances.