Moving back in with my parents gives me anxiety

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So I'm a 22 year old who just graduated university a few months ago. I lived with my parents my whole life up till a year ago; I rented an apartment with 2 roomates' this past year to have the experience of living downtown before I graduate. Overall a great experience. A lot of personal growth and all that.

I had been planning, all along, to just rent for the year since it's expensive and I'm draining savings, and I'd rather live at home to save up and buy a condo in a few years. Still the plan. But the closer I get to really living at home again, the more it gives me anxiety spikes. Not like panic attacks, but feelings of dread moreso. I had depression when I was a teen which turned into generalised anxiety (on and off) for a couple years between 20 to around half a year ago. Lately I've been mostly totally fine, but sometimes thinking about going home or actually sleeping over at my parents gives me dread. Something about having to deal with my parents and all the memories I've had at home... My family life is fine I guess. My parents respect me and aren't huge assholes or anything, but they have short fuses with each other and I hate hearing their petty fights, plus my dad has (clinical) OCD so I need to hear him flick light switches and tap doors 50 times in the dead of night and...etc etc. Generic complaints about parents really I guess.

Plus being there feels lonely. I kind of relate to my mom, but I still feel kind of disconnected from both my parents and not many of my friends live near my parents.

I guess I just don't know how exactly I should deal with moving back home. It is the right move, at least for a while so I can save up, just... I don't know, does this anxiety make sense to anyone else?