poor short term memory

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over the last month or two my short term memory at some point went to shit. I can't remember conversations and have trouble following them, when I reading I don't remember one sentence back. I can't get help because I'm a hypochondriac and bother doctors enough already and I have anxiety issues so I don't want to look like an idiot timewaster when I get in there. The problem is this is not imaginary, I'm having trouble making out the words people are saying, processing information fast enough. I watched a movie yesterday and missed at least half of the information in it, I tested myself by pausing whenever I didn't process something and going back.

I saw my psychiatrist yesterday but he offered to get me to see someone who does an evaluation of how my brain works, basically checking how autistic I am, how much ADHD I have and whatever other bullshit psychiatrists peddle. He knows I'm deathly fearful of getting a diagnosis like that and so as soon as he mentioned it I said "ok I'm happy to drop the memory thing and forget this" because inside my head was going crazy paniccing.