CPTSD

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Does anyone on /adv/ have experience with Complex PTSD? Whether it's family, friends, or you yourself. It isn't in the DSM, but it's basically emotional PTSD from prolonged exposure to abuse, emphasis on prolonged.

I'm not diagnosed (I'm not in the position to receive a psychological evaluation), but I've been exhibiting symptoms of CPTSD for a year after being in an emotionally abusive relationship. tl;dr I dated someone with borderline personality disorder for four years. Only discovered what it was during the final six months.
>Very avoidant of people and places related to my relationship
>Occasional panic attacks, dissociation, nightmares
>Very low self-worth
>Extremely self-critical
>Chronic feelings of emptiness and hopelessness
>Feel completely alien from or distrustful of people

According to friends and family I've done everything "right". Therapy, group therapy, reading about it, improving myself, but it feels like I'm making no progress. Or that the progress I make doesn't matter. I think I've internalized the things she said and did, and I'm basically beating myself up in her place.

I just don't know what to do. I make it day by day, but the loneliness and hopelessness is crushing me and making it harder and harder.