Whenever I try to go somewhere to connect with people, start a class, anything social, the first meeting is always the best and then I keep feeling more and more alienated from everyone.
Will I always feel so lonely?
I've tried everything people say that helps, pretending to like social situations, getting to know the person and be curious about their interests and life, share my life and problems, physical touch.
Everything feels fake and unfulfilling.
Whats wrong with me, is it just an autistic, your brain is fucked thing?
>>18580741
don't fake things up, just be yourself, a bit hypocritical coming from me, I fake a lot of shit, but because I like to do so, even tho I know it's sociopathic.
If you stop adjusting to the global moral standards you're always gonna have a bad time, specially people like us, who don't belong to the sheep herd. I find it fun to act like them or even be charismatic (falsely), because I'm good at it.
Just dedicate yourself to your strengths and you'll be fine anonymous friend :)