An isolated person

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How do you fix the feeling of being lonely around others? I used to blame others for this feeling, but even when the people around me are cool, I still feel very alone.

Maybe the cause of this is that lately my mom and my (maybe former) best friend sort of betrayed me. My best friend told his father to stop buying me food and gifts because I was "an ingrate" for being hostile towards incel Nazi weebism, and my mom refused to let me hang out with her in order to take a break from the fucking isolation.

I don't think this is fair. I'm paying for school myself, so my mom ought to at least eat dinner with me now and again. And, I was helping his father with some things, so I don't see how my food supply getting cut off would be justice or some shit.

They round-about apologized when I presented it to them this was, so I certainly do not hate them. I just don't know if I should be close to them.

On the non-platonic side of things, every woman I have been with has tried to play a horrible trick, be it cheating on me with the whole town, trying to cuck me with some "sugar daddy," or trying to keep me a secret because my social status was too low for her peers' approval.

Maybe I feel alone because it seems like nobody is trustworthy. The two guys I'm hanging out with lately seem to be very kind and well-intended people, but one of them is seriously womanizing, and the other is constantly being tricked by fake yoga gurus into believing total nonsense.

This sounds like "woe is me," but I don't even think my situation is as bad as those who have been asdaulted or those who grow up in bad areas.

I just don't know if humanity as good as we make it out to be. How do I end this loneliness? I can't get pets at the moment. Am I a good person? Maybe I'm just mediocre.