So here's a little background about me
>I'm 19, 6'1", good shape (was captain of the football team my senior year)
>went to a small private school my whole life
>don't smoke, drink, or do drugs
>not antisocial, just very quiet and like to keep to myself
>currently have an apprenticeship working full time, 6 days a week, 50+ hrs. I don't want to do this my whole life but the pay is nice
>before I started working I would spend my free time at the gym, reading history (mostly German from mid 19th century-WWI)
>never dated in high school, but did ask a girl out senior year, mostly to prove to myself that I could, she said no but no hard feelings, kinda glad she did
that sums up my recent life, if you need any more info just ask.
I just feel stuck in my routine, I'm not eating as much as I should be, stopped going to the gym, haven't picked up a book in months. should I keep working at this apprenticeship for a career I don't want or try to go to college to study history that I love? should I try to find a relationship or focus on myself? should I quit and backpack across Europe for awhile? should I waste my life away shitposting on 4chan?
If any of you have been in a similar situation I'd love any advice you can give.
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A routine is not a bad thing. A routine is actually very good for your mental health.
That said, don't stop going to the gym or reading, especially if reading history is what you love doing.
I understand that it may be hard to do that with 9+hr workdays, but you must try.
You don't HAVE to go to college to study history. There are loads of online resources to guide you in your reading. The only thing you won't get is a degree (and unless you plan to go into academia, I'm not sure how useful a history degree would even be).
As for travelling, go for it, if you want.
Relationships: don't worry too much about it, you're really young. If the oppurtunity arises, consider it.
If you don't dislike your job at all, even if you don't want to do it for the rest of your life, stick with it for the time being. You're very young: if you find something else you want to do, you can go ahead and do that.