I can't just relax and stop caring about everything. I am anxious and insecure about everything. I am on a camp rn and everybody around is really nice and shit but I can't still relax. I brought a friend here and inside I am panicing that he doesn't like it, tho he says everything is fine. My roomates are all chill. I know that I should't care and enjoy myself but I can't ffs. I feel like dying.
>>18575141
sounds like you are still in your teens, OP
I can assure you, I'd take little bit of anxiety over a crushing loneliness and depression any fucking time. You really are fine, just do some deep breathing exercise or meditation.
>>18575163
Obv I am in my teens but even tho I do all this things I am on the edge of crying most of the time. And I blame myself for not having fun. It is as stupid as it sounds.
>>18575251
Sounds like you are holding your emotions back too much. You need a release. Take a pillow and punch it. Go to a forest and scream for 5 seconds. Try to physically exhaust yourself. Even if you need to cry, go ahead and just do that in a safe place.
>>18575141
>I can't just relax and stop caring about everything.
You've made a important discovery.
Trying to "stop caring" is a paradox because when you are trying to escape suffering by giving in you are still trying not to suffer.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XuGW1x3T0Fc&feature=youtu.be&t=2612
>>18575332
I know it's a trap
>>18575451
You know "stop caring" is a trap?
Then why are you stressed that you can't do it?
>>18575141
Learn to meditate
Headspace (app) is great, subscribing is worth it
I'm using it to cope with my post concussion syndrome that might prevent me from continuing uni this autumn