Am I the only one with this problem?

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I'm legitimately autistic and as long as I can remember, I've had crippling anxiety when dealing with strangers. When talking to someone I don't know, I can barely think, my mind freezes up and I can't even function. I know that's standard with autistic people and I've learned to accept it, but I'm conflicted with something else,

When I'm speaking to an entire crowd of strangers, it's the exact opposite. I feel emboldened, the words come to me, and I can speak as clearly as I think. I've never had any more than the slightest bit of unease before giving a speech, just a vague sort of intensity deep in my gut. My kind of anxiety is the exact opposite of everything I've ever heard on the subject, and that frightens me.

Is this normal? Is it an actual condition or am I just a paranoid schizo? I'd like to thank everyone who replies in advance.

> tl;dr: anon with assburgers can't handle talking to strangers 1-1, but can talk to crowds without issue, comes to /adv/ to ask if that's an actual thing that happens