Am I acceptable Im a neet with no ambitions, i been depressed

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Am I acceptable

Im a neet with no ambitions, i been depressed for as long as I can remember and quite frankly I dont even want to try anymore. I just drink and play games and thats my life.

I used to be more active and have a job, a social life, or well, attempt it, but it never worked out. After many psychological sessions many of my problems cant be changed. Im autistic and not very attractive. My best bet was getting to a social workplace and I tried that, but most of those people were retarded and not fun at all to work with. And theres always the bullying or taken advantage of by the authority figures, which im not ok with, and has caused me many problems at previous workplaces.
Besides I dont care much about money as long as I can feed myself, and I know Im never landing a cute gf either so that isnt very motivational either to me.

My relatives are much more optimistic and i cant really relate to them, so i stopped visiting them much less, id mainly just be a bad influence to them anyway. Im also a bit ashamed of what i am.

I just want to know if this is sort of understandable.

My chances were basically 0 from the start of my life anyway, rather than chasing a magical dragon i give up and take a rest.

Im not looking for motivational advice or the like, or hearing that "ur not ugly, ur smart" nonsense, i just want to know if people could understand a person in my position and my choice to be a neet.