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>>18565156
My friend tried to talk to my ex, I told him to stop but he did it anyways.
My ex just sent me this. I'm happy for her. I still love her. I still care about her. I should feel something, but that's what worries me. I feel like I should hurt. But I feel empty. I don't know what this feeling is.

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Had 3 dates scheduled this week, every single one of them flaked.

Women are a meme. Dating is a meme. The biggest goddamn fucking meme on the fucking planet.

>>18565158
Moving on maybe? That's a pretty sad and relatable screen cap to look at. But I think not feeling anything is probably a step in the right direction.

>>18565180
I hope it's moving on. But if it was would I still love her this much? Would I still want to be with her this much?

Like I'm still hoping that someday we can work through this. That's why I don't think I'm moving on. Idk.

My vibrator broke and I can't afford a new one. Bfs life is too stressful for him to be interested in sex right now, his dad is dying from cancer and he's understandably upset, but he's still watching porn. I dont really like porn and I've never been able to organ with just my hand. It has to either be my bf or a vibrator so I'm absolutely losing my fucking mind. My head feels like it's going to implode.

>>18565243
>Bfs life is too stressful for him to be interested in sex right now
weird. any time I'm stressed all I can think about is how much better I'd feel with some physical contact but I don't have a gf. maybe try turning him on? if he's still looking at porn he's still horny, idk what either of you gain by you both being horny and drifting apart while his dad dies. like that just sounds all bad and like a run up to some really bad depression that rips the relationship apart tbqhfam.

>>18565270
That's pretty much exactly what I said to him. When I'm stressed I just want more sex but he said he's always been the opposite. He also said he hasn't been able to finish when he watches porn lately but I feel like that's a lie just to make me feel better.

>>18565293
ah well I can tell you he's probably not lying about the finishing thing. half the time I just get to a point where it's like, this is fucking stupid, and fake, and not worth it, and gross. and then there's other times when I just really need to cum and it takes like 2 hours cause I'm really not into it and have to find the one fucking thing that actually gets me going enough and half the time I'm going back and forth between watching shit and trying to imagine someone but I can't hold the mental space cause I'm thinking about all the shit stressing me out and just... fuck it's a mess. idk, your guy is weird. idk why he's willingly doing that when there's a girl that obviously wants him.

I can't wait for you to get back from holiday. Hopefully you and I will arrange something to do together after that. I really want to become better friends with you.

I am alone and happy.

>>18565310
That's what he described so he's probably not making it up lol. Ty for your post. Makes me sad I can't help him. He's not the type to talk about feelings so idk guess I'll just leave him alone and let him know I'm here if he needs me.

I had a dream about you recently, and it made me realise how much I miss you. I hope you're well.

>health insurance was supposed to renew mid-July
>still hasn't arrived in the mail
>on top of the months already waited because they were switching systems

Is healthcare in the US always such a pain in the ass? I live in Georgia by the way, and this was for Medicaid.

>>18565156
/Pol/ has turned me into a bitter person. A ton of the stuff on there is factual but as a result I feel like I'm beginning to hate everything which I don't want.

Love doesn't exist I can't wait to be away from everyone. Everyone fucking lies. It doesn't even matter if it's in fucking writing. No one is honest. I'll steal frrom others if they're trying to rob me. I hate that I still can't be happy because of the shit you did to me. You'll die a whore and that's all you'll ever be

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I've never spoken to a girl in any attempts to build a relationship with them before nor have I ever actually been in a relationship. This girl at the store job I just started working is so cute but fuck man, I don't know how to talk to her. It has been years since I've even really felt interested in any women, I usually just ignore them when I'm out and seclude myself during free time. My esteem is too low and I'm anxious. I wanna slam my head through a wall.

I genuinely hate myself, and i don't think i can ever love it anymore, i have been self sabotaging for years now and i can't stop anymore, its like any other addiction, i wish i had the courage to just kill myself

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Am I just jealous that you're around others or are those others really after you?

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I'm going to college, but I don't want to leave my friends, my gf, my easy life. I can try to keep it, but i think i'll just end up losing all of them. Especially her. I want to keep her, but I don't think I can.

I wish I could meet my random teammates in ranked mode. I love you all my muchachis.

I think my boyfriend is cheating

I just love you so much

I guess now I can move on in the way everyone else can
I still want to be friends with you though, but given the circumstances I don't know how to go about that

>>18565848
It's Okay bro. I feel the same way you're not alone. Not everyone's like us. Some people just don't wanna try to be friends.

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I only have only a few more days at this job and I have to work with my creepy manager. He's a super "intellectual" who is constantly analyzing every single slight movement anyone makes, and then telling you his results on you. At first I could tolerate it, yeah he's super autistic but whatever. I made the mistake of agreeing to hang out outside work, thinking there were gonna be other people from work and hey, I'm short for friends so I figured why not?
Then he started trying to get really personal with me on my personal life, trying to be my friend and I didn't wanna be a cunt or anything so I brushed it off as much as I could. God I just don't wanna deal with him today.
Just a few more shifts then I never have to deal with him again. Just a few more.

>>18565868
>>18565848

Most people who say "let's remain friends" stop acting like friends if they have ever dated. One person still wants the other one as something more, while the person who ended the relationship becomes so distant that they become a shitty friend.

>>18565868
I don't think they wouldn't want to try and be friends, I just don't think it would work out with the way our lives are.

>>18565896
It was a mutual break-up, and both of us still have some feelings for each other, we just both knew our relationship wasn't working.

i wanna talk to you again but idk if youre still flaky. ive been feeling better as of late. you texted me last night and youre still left on sent idk what to do with you.

I think I'm likeable enough that people talk to me, genuinely laugh at my jokes etc. But I never really get invited out or get asked to hang out with people, which really hurts when they're discussing what a great time they had on their weekend. Ya boy seem happy as fuck... but truthfully your boy lonely

>>18565156
Dear me, i dont know where my life is going. Im confused, stuck in this loop of consistency never doing anything new. Its kinda funny, i know what to do to get out of it but .... I hope you, my future self, will look back in ease, able to laugh.

Been thinking about my ex a bit recently, after months of her not even crossing my mind.
She quickly became one of my closest friends from the moment we met. After a while it became romantic but we split because I moved halfway across the world. We stayed in touch as friends and quickly realised we still had strong feelings for each other so we decided to try a long distance thing. Not a full relationship but we loved each other and were planning on becoming official this summer when she would've come to visit.
But I wasn't ready for a long distance relationship, I made some mistakes (didn't cheat, but I was a dick) and we split last year. And I made it worse after that because I begged and pleaded like a bitch. So she quickly began to resent me and ended up blocking me, as expected.
I was really down for a while but I realised I had to pick myself up and move on, which I did.
Recently discovered she unblocked me, and since then her best friend, who openly disliked me from the moment we met, has started liking every post I put up on social media.
I'm considering messaging my ex and apologising for being such a cunt and wishing her the best, but I don't know if that's a stupid idea.
I really did care about her, I just didn't show it like I should've, and I kinda wish she knew that. She was my best friend at one point.

>>18566005
I don't plan on sending long messages and begging for her back and I don't know if she'll even read it or reply. I just wanted to acknowledge that I was an asshole.

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i just had some custard and drank coca cola afterwards. This feels as such a strange combination inside of me o-o.


Does anyone ever had the experience where they ate something and noticed some weird or obvious physical feels/effects?

Pls share

>>18565237
You will likely love her forever. Even when we hate someone that we shared so much with, we love. A part of you will also always hope. It's that part you will eventually learn to ignore. It's not easy to move on, to let go. I have been there, I still am.
If a person truly meant something to you, you will be scarred. Learn how to move forward in spite of those feelings is the challenge.
You will never truly remove those feelings for her, that yearning, that desire. You can only learn to understand them, and accept them.

If I may ask, why did it not work out in the first place?

i wish i could find my calling

>>18565293
>>18565448

Stress is not a single type of thing.
People deal with it in different ways, express it in others.
The possible loss of a parent is a high level of it. Even when one accepts it, it's fucking stressful. Sex may not be what he wants at all. Do not take it as an insult to yourself. He's likely not himself right now.

The best you can do, it seems you already know. Give him space, let him breathe this out, and be there for him when we comes around for you.

Be patient, remove your own feelings from this situation and try to see things from the outside. As if you were one of us, a 3rd person. Slow down, see both sides, and it's likely you will see it differently. Stress is harder to deal with for some, as said there is different kinds of it too.

Just tell him you're there for him, and you worry about him. Simply that.

>>18565731
Focus on yourself and your goals. Work on it, and give then time as you can. Friends that don't understand this, that don't smile at you despite the time between visits are not friends. Not worth it. I haven't seen mine in a few years, but whenever we do get together, it's like nothing has changed.

As for your gf. It's a similar deal. A person of value will encourage you. Will wait. Of course there are limits, and it's important for you to nurture your relationship, but a good one should not cost you your ambition. It should bring out the best.

>>18566089
Well it didnt work out for a number of reasons but in the end I'm not entirely sure.

She wasn't entirely serious about our relationship. We're both college age, 19, so she wanted to experience more of life. Sleep with more than one guy, after her prereqs at her cc go to college in Portland. She said she was gonna break up with any guy she was with when she left because she didn't want to be tied down. I of course was very serious about her. I said I wanted to marry her and all this shit. I was very supportive of her depression and anxiety and whenever she needed me I was always there for me. I don't know why but she wasnt supportive of me. When I was having an anxiety attack I called her and she hung up on me saying she didn't have time for me. And when I was depressed because I didn't know what to major in she held it against me and said she wanted to be with someone who had their life together

The final nail in the coffin was when she hung up on me I was upset with her so I called her out on it. That's when she broke up with me. Because she said I needed to learn to leave people alone. Whenever she wanted alone time she would get mad when I texted her or called her.

I guess we just didn't get along overall. I felt that we got along well when we were just hanging out. But our ideals and goals were just too different.

She said she didn't think I was a nice person and that she wanted to fill her life with nice people. That in the end she just wasn't happy with me and could never be. I still don't understand fully and I don't think I ever will.

i literally haven't eaten solid food in days.


It feels so good to eat rn

Someone at work is being a stupid bitch in a bid to be a stupid bitch and fuck things up for me. Idfc I got options in the works. Fuck this place. It's a falling knife and I stepped up to catch it, but the payoff isn't there so I'm gonna watch it fall.

S
Damn! Why do you never listen to anything anyone says? I get going your own way and not giving a fuck. You keep doing things with out thinking. Now you've rushed to be to engaged to someone who is known to be a cheater and abusive. You don't know if you are pregnant yet. You're to immature to understand safe sex and he is the type that wouldn't use condoms. He is not going to take care of a child. He will pay child support and never be involved in the kids life. What happened to you?

My ex is so fucking deluded.

>>18566331
Same

>>18566132
Perhaps you weren't in love with her. Doesn't seem like you did. More like you are bound to the idea she represented, the good times that you focus on, and the person she presented at first. It seems her true colors were a shit brown with speckled of yellow corn.

You like still love the things you guys shared, but it seems her, you were done with her.

I don't even have enough money for a sandwich for lunch today and I'm 80 bucks shy on rent

I fucking hate being my retarded self

I have to ask my dad for permission to use his shitty credit to apply for a plus loan (and fail) so I can borrow more loans to pay for school.
But I fucking hate asking for sensitive things like that. The deadline is in three days and I just keep putting it off.

R
I wish you would find a way to contact me. I miss you.

>>18566384
You probably aren't who I'm thinking of, but I'm going to contact you soon
There's so much I have to say to you

>>18566452
Please do. Facebook would be best.

>>18566384
>>18566452
Initials?

You're such a lying sack of shit. Fucking worthless whore I didn't deserve that shit. Thank you for showing me what people actually are

Fuck social anxiety, I keep getting invited to fucking house parties and shit by the same couple of folks and I always bail out because I start shitting myself and having panic attacks over the prospect of being around people.

And soon they'll stop inviting me because I never show up, and I'll feel like shit because nobody asks me to go anywhere. Fuck my shitty brain, I hate myself so damn much, why can't I have just grown into a normalfag.

>>18566455
>Facebook
Sorry, anon, I'm not your R

>>18566483
Not Ryan?

>>18566476
I understand you. I just want to be normal but this anxiety fucks everything up.

>>18566347
I guess in a way. But I felt bad for her I guess. She was homeschooled had no friends and the friends that she did have left her (I guess when they saw what kind of person she was)

But I wanted to be there for her. I wanted to show her I was willing to put up with all the bullshit and not leave her no matter what. Idk maybe I didn't love her. I'm not sure anymore I thought I did. And I still think I do. But I'm doubting now. Maybe you're right.

>>18566493
What is your initial? I might be your R, but if I am you have my number. You might not be who I am looking for, since you mentioned book face.

>>18566584
LR or ER

>>18566591
Sorry, I was looking for an HB.

>>18566600
Oh Not a RS?

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>>18566035
One time I ate blue cheese. The feeling of acid burning holes through my stomach was accompanied by intense nausea. I've experienced a sugar rush before -- other than this nothing like you have said

>>18566610

Holy snap anon! that's pretty intense!

This girl i knew wanted to eat blue cheese with pasta....

Ah the good old sugar rushes. Thanks for the share anon!

>>18566578

I don't wish to make your pain worse anon. I been there. It sucks. It's just that sometimes we don't realize that we loved an illusion. We loved the mask they gave us, and the real person they hid wasn't compatible with us. So we blame ourselves and we run ourselves ragged thinking what we could have changed, what we could have improved on.

You got a gift, it was nicely wrapped, and the bow was pretty. Happily you opened it, and found a lump of coal. It's something that we have to learn in life. Things like this happen.

Right now you are still hurting, but it seems like you are a man left out in the cold, trying to stay warm on the embers of a dead blaze.

You will forever remember the warmth it brought you. We all do when this happens to us. It's a marker of being human, of having feelings. We gave them importance. Now you have accept that she may not be the one you fell for.
Moving on is hard and it's hope that can keep you trapped here, but it can also be your escape.

You have scars now. Do not let them overshadow what makes you happy, like a person with a scarred face, keep smiling. What you have now is proof that you do have something to offer others. Smile at that. Pick yourself up and see what you can learn to improve yourself. See what you really want out of partner.

There's a fellow student who keeps asking me questions. I explain things to him because I don't know, why not, I like teaching. But now he's asking something that I've already answered. What's the point if he's going to forget everything I told him aahh! And he tells me "I think it's A". "Why?" "My intuition tells me so." THIS IS A LOGIC CLASS, INTUITION DOESN'T MEAN SHIT AAAAAAAAH

I'm so fucking bored. SO FUCKING BORED.

I just think about stupid shit. Like, if you're in a firefight at night what if there were devices that mimicked muzzleflash and even sound in order to confuse the enemy into thinking you had more guns and draw fire from the group.

Someone make that and then give me all the royalties please.

>>18566637
Intuition is a legit way to solve problems.

>>18566605
Sorry my last initial is not S.

>>18566131
Thank you anon. This really helped

>>18566678
It's not a justification for why things are correct. It's a logic class, you have to demonstrate why things are correct. Whatever looks right doesn't mean anything. Tends to be wrong anyway.

>>18566700
it's a class specifically about non-empirical data?

That just seems odd to me.

>>18566700
My wording is super awkward, sorry, I'm not a native speaker. Anyway, intuition works awesomely for some stuff, like art for example, but it doesn't belong in logic classes.

>>18566703
It's a computational theory class, so turing machines and stuff. Didn't want to be so specific but I didn't expect to be asked about it lol

>that moment when you just read a story about a woman being raped multiple times by the filth being forced into Europe to replace white people and then watch a blonde white woman flirting with a north African
YOU ARE THE PROBLEM YOU DAFT CUNT. Have fun being a single mother.

Christ, will you two finally admit that you are dating? You're not being clever, you're not being cute. You two disappear, multiple times a day, for hours at a time. Everyone notices you putting on lipstick or adjusting your belt. There's tactful ways to go about this, but you two seem to get off on how loud your actions are, or how much you put other people off. Yes, we can hear you whispering to each other. Yes, we know you have a dick - you don't have to shove your crotch in everyone's face.

The only respite is the knowledge that your actual relationship is built off of insults and pity parties, and that it'll be over in a year.

My ex played Skyrim, solved it 6 times through or something like that. Also solved all the Bioshoks and countless others.

I've never played vidya in my life. I read books, play piano, sing, and talk to people.

Okay, anons -- who is "crazier?"

I like how you people think I act this way because of drugs. Like, I wasn't suicidal, extremely tired, and completely uncaring before.

Seriously. I'm getting real sick of that shit. You people don't know me at fucking all.

>>18566841
I think both are pretty normal to me. Honestly in my opinion there is no such thing as crazy. It's what you're used to.

What's familiar for you doesn't mean that is for another person. In China they eat sneak. In Europe they don't. Perfect example of what is normal for who. c:

I've been depressed for the past *I don't know how many* years of my life but you decide to ask me that question when I look angry because I lost in a video game? Fuck off man, you don't have a clue.

was kitty bunny teasing me?
"Fuck me in the ass." "want some fuck." ect

YES I WANT THOSE THINGS YOU BEAUTIFUL LITTLE BABY

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I finally talked to her. I introduced myself. It was awkward as fuck but I did it. I hope I didn't creep her out. I guess I'll just need to chat with her more next time I see her.

PLEASE MY GIRL

CARRY ME HOME

WELL BE BACK IN BUSINESS

>>18566591
How odd...

I could possibly be your R, as an ex was an ER. That said, they did not use FB.

I've completed recently 24 and I've come to realize how much I hate myself. Every time I wake up in the morning I ask myself: "why I'm still here? why I'm still alive?". I just want to disappear as if I've never existed.

>>18566634
Thank you anon. I really appreciate it. It's been hard, but I'll try to move on.

So you've been a closet fuckboi for the longest time, everyone knows you. It's funny that you thought I bought your lies, that was the ultimate disrespect.

>>18565158
"Don't worry about me anymore"

It always confuses me when people say this. What did she mean by this?

You're the reason my mental health went to shit. You're the reason my hard work completely sunk. You're the reason I'm depressed. All you ever did was take and take. You never loved me everything you said was a lie. Fucking lazy hypocritical whore. Thank you so so much for showing me that love doesn't exist

>>18566975
Initial?

>>18566964
It means she met a Chad

>>18566976
Just let me bitch

>>18566961
You're welcome. Doesn't mean much coming from the community bicycle though.

>>18566998
You know I am far from the community bicycle. Enjoy the diseased cock you seek

>>18566977
But I know the guy she's dating he's fat as heck and he's almost the opposite of Chad. I mean he's still charismatic and a pretty funny guy tho but he's definitely not chad

>>18566958
Good luck anon. Focus on the one person that will always be there for you, you. Time and self-improvement. Find what makes you happy, never have your happiness depend on another.

You should want a person, never need them. The only person you'll ever need is you.

Stay strong out there.

So im sitting in my room with £100 worth of cocaine that is meant to be for a rave tomorrow and i have insomnia.

Give me strength.

>>18567099
You're fiending, if you start burning through the yay tonight you're gonna have to buy more stuff at the rave.

Quit prozac cold turkey four weeks ago, gave up last night and taking it again. Have to wing it off. Panic attacks and tremors over powered my will. Feel absolute shit all the time. Lost multiple friends this year that i loved. My dad went to jail for being abusive to me and my mom. He got out the next day. Have court a few days before my birthday. I got genital herpies from somone that said nothing about it. My best friend is on meth. My sister is being abused my her bf. My gf left me bc i didnt want to go to church. I never finished high school. My parents are alcoholics. I am always jerking off. I cant sleep more than five hours a night. People took pics of me getting molested and raped when i was 14. I keep going back to cigs and porn. I dont ever wanna die, but i like to imagine what itd be like to turn off. My closest friend is dying of cancer. In his lymphnodes.

>>18567112
Im having a few drinks to knock myself out, thanks anon.

>>18567135
Got any antihistamine? They help knock you out too. Who's spinning at the rave?

I was confident in myself and offered to email some people renting their properties to see if I could set up some viewings, but now that I'm actually sitting down and doing it I have no idea what to type up. I'm not even sure if what I've written in the subject is too formal/awkward or not. Do you guys have any advice? Should I use "fell in love with (the property)" or is that too strong? I don't know what I'm doing.

Fuck niggers. Been an eye opener, this last year.

>>18566931
Was it 5-7 years ago?

They weren't just drawings, she was trying to curse you. Same with the coins all over. Wish it worked.at least then I'd get in trouble for something worth getting in trouble for.

Snitches get stiches bitches.

>>18567242
Yes, it was.

J
I just messaged a girl I haven't seen in 6 years (and secretly had a huge crush on back in the day) to tell her I like some music she made recently.
I absolutely am not expecting a response but I can't tell you how it good it feels to just for one moment be able to entertain fantasies about a girl who isn't my fucking ex.

>>18567283
Ryan Stamper?

>>18567291
This wasn't meant to be addressed to anyone.

>>18567295
No, I am sorry.

This was a very eerie coincidence, though.

Good luck.

>>18567301
Crazy shit. Lol they probably still hate me.

>>18567303
They probably still hate me, too, lol.

>>18567306
Ohio sucks.

>>18565542
I didn't do shit to you. You're just a dramatic little cunt who wants to victimize himself. You'll die a fucking low life dick head that does nothing but talk shit. Fuck you.

Really sorry abouto how this turned out. It's just odd when I think about it. How no one really noticed all those times. It seemed like two of you would've been cool as fuck to actually chill with. If anyone could understand it would've been you two. I know you could see through what happened. 2poccalypse and loyal to the game ring a bell? How about `all eyez on me`
Dude what happened to me is not who I am. They tried fucking me over and did it right. I know it's not what I said- more of like the context. You just need to know I truly didn't remember who the fuck any of you were.
Hope you all could learn to read between the lines.

And yea- to the ass hole who is responsible for that first attack you made against my apple juice- I hope you rot in hell. I undoubtedly know exactly what type of dude you are, I tried hinting it at your but you are too goddamn hard-headed. I see what you're trying to do here. But eventually that luck of yours will run out. I'm sure it's obvious even to people who don't have proof- you just look like a boy in a grown man's body.
Dickface. I wish I could give you an ass whooping or expose you to everyone else. But I won't, I'm too nice to do something like that. And the fact that you chose to attack me like the pussy you are is enough for me.
Dickface.

>>18567315
As does Pennsylvania.

>>18565542
You're nothing but a dramatic little cunt that tries to victimize himself. You are a miserable piece of shit and that's how you'll die MISERABLE. All you do is talk shit, try contacting me now because you know exactly who this is. I'll be waiting, fuck you.

>>18565542
Fuck you idiot. Attention seeking self victimizing piece of shit

>Got any feels to get off your chest?
Yea, this is an odd situation that happens sometimes. I don't want to claim ignorance but I have someone in my life lying to me and at this point I know this bitch is fucking with me. She doesn't actually know me at all and thinks she can get away with this? I'm trying to be calm since she doesn't know the real me but this is normal with most people. When they don't know you they will fuck with you and waste your fucking time, in this situation you have I have to listen to her and if I say anything to this bitch she will think of me as an asshole and probably tell all her friends. I don't know what to do but with women who think they can keep fucking with a man because you wont say shit or smack a bitch. I'm seriously starting to get tired of hoes like this, do they think I won't smack a bitch? I guess I have more to lose than her if I do anything but she is fucking with me and is very disrespectful. She does not know who I really am....

Fuck you cunt
You knew I had feelings for her, you knew we were together, and not one month after we split you make a move knowing full well I'd be pissed. Guess friends don't matter when you put second hand pussy on a pedestal. Fuck you and I hope the sight of you doesn't make me snap

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i just wish my friends would message me more. i really want to talk to them, but i'm too nervous to start a conversation.

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I'm trapped in an unhappy relationship. I can't leave because the man I'm with needs me. I'm letting him suck the life out of me and I feel like I have no choice, like I'm martyr. I tried many times to leave him and at this point I've given up. I feel genuinely trapped. I'm just hoping Stockholm's syndrome kicks in.

When I watch things with romantic subplots, I get sad because the man I'm with never does anything fun with me. I'd have more fun taking a dog on a date than him. He'll never take me to an art museum and make fun of things, we'll never kiss in the rain, we'll never work on a project together, we'll never fuck on an isolated beach in Bangkok. This boy, he's made of wood. I want laughter, passion, hope and vivacity. I want to smile when I think about our future, but I feel like I'll have to build it alone if I want the family to be better than average. Average makes me feel sick.

My family suggests I befriend other people and let him provide for me financially and have sex with me. It feels dirty, like I'd be emotionally cucking him. Is it a real relationship if we never talk? I feel like I'll be raising our future kids alone.

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I think I just need to try harder and stop resenting him. It's my fault I'm unhappy. He loves me a ton and will do whatever I ask, I just need to figure out what to ask for. Maybe if I crack enough autistic jokes he'll reciprocate one day.

>>18567673
>>18567700
Cheesy language inbound. It sounds like the two of you speak different love languages. When someone speaks in our love language, it fills up our love tank. When our love tank is decently full, we're on cloud nine. When we've been running on an empty love tank, we're unhappy and feel unloved. We can get angry and resentful and lash out.

The good news is that anyone can learn to speak a different love language. It might not come as naturally to them, and it may never override their native tongue, but they can do it. And sometimes, just knowing that it's not their native tongue but they're putting in effort specifically because they're trying to make you feel loved in your love language can be more meaningful than someone who naturally speaks your love language.

If your issue is that he never does anything fun with you, it might be that your love language is quality time. Do you know what his is? Have you done things to try and fill up his love tank? Have you noticed him trying to do things to make you feel loved, but they just haven't quite done the job because it's like he's speaking Greek to you?

a friend of mine was drunk as fuck in a party and she was touchy feely and im attracted to her and i couldve kissed her but instead i took care of her until i got bored and i told some of my friends to care for her
i hate being nice, i hate not being the guy that has stories to tell about his conquests, i hate to be the guy that goes out and no one feels attracted to, im alone on a friday night and all i want to do is go out and smoke a shitload of weed and just walk while i listen to music and smoke cigarrettes until i stop feeling like this

>>18567718
I feel very loved. He loves me very, very much. I just don't feel the same because his general demeanor bores me. He hasn't said anything about feeling unloved but does get grumpy when I don't want to have sex for too long.

>>18567759
>>18567718
His only complaint is literally "I'm horny". He's just fine and dandy ignoring me all day.

People can't fucking live off of junk food. I wish my mother would understand this.

>>18566035
milk and alcohol... It curdles in your stomach. Feels weird and upsets your stomach. You get some gross burps as well.

>>18565156
Problems are lame. This place is a cesspool of negativity. I hope you all feel well enough to leave this shithole.

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>>18565156
>be me semi edgy girl starts talking 7.5/10
>we start hitting it off
>decide to start dating
>we kiss and stuff for about 2 months or so
>realize most conversation center around her complaining and trying to fuck me
>break up
>she asks why
>i explain that she is an attention whore and is using me for my fire cock
>don't talk again
>next year i get called to to the principals
>this bitch called me to the principals office for telling her why i broke up with her
>next day she tries to make fun of me for freaking out

i was friends with a school shooter before he shot the school up 5 years ago and i'm still not over it in the slightest

>>18566667
>>18566885
>>18566923
there. now go.

>>18565604
have you initiated a conversation yet

>>18565156
This girl I was in love with left me because she claimed to think I was using her for sex
She destroyed a 7 month relationship with a fucking text message
Told me I put her in therapy and that she couldn't have a boyfriend then completely ghosted
She didn't accept any of my apologies
She claimed they were insincere when they were from the bottom of my heart
She then proceeded to get a new boyfriend and rub it in my face to make me hurt for god knows what fucked up reason

I understand she has depression and anxiety but why did she have to do this

Now here I am 3 months later to the fucking day
I'm alone and my trust for everyone has been shattered

I feel empty inside and alone
I'm no ones first choice

I'm back to where I was a year ago

I don't understand why you'd do this to me
Why you'd cut all contact
Why I just can't make close friends
Why the only thing in my life I have is my guitar

>>18567834
How many kills did he get? Were you proud?

>>18567325
>>18567339
>>18567346
I have evidence that proves otherwise you rapist fuck

>>18567861
i think like 3 and no i'm not proud i should've intervened because i knew he was having thoughts of shooting the school up

>>18567908
Can't you get in legal trouble for that or something

>>18567846
No. The only thing I've said to her is "Good Morning" and asked her where a product was once. Besides that, I really don't know what to say.

>>18567913
i don't think so because at the time i thought he was joking

>>18567916
next time you meet her try telling her a story or just asking her how her day is, continue this until you feel that she is into you then ask her if she wants to date.

>>18567865
dude what the fuck is going on

>>18567944
but I'm a big nerd. she doesn't appear to be the kind of person that's into nerds.

Suicidal girlfriend just broke up with me because she made it clear she doesn't like porn, I agreed and said I wouldn't watch it. She found I watched it, I came clean and admited, she then stated she found my history which included a couple searches for "my little pony rape hentai," which I know for certain I have not searched nor took any interest in. She's now threatening to post pictures of this online saying I do it all the time. I lied to her, I fucked up, I want her back. I'm actually going crazy and posting pics of us on FB and etc, I don't mean to do it to hurt her, but I can't stop myself. I hope she's alright and doesn't kill herself. love u b xx

>>18568027
People you immensely love will drift apart from you in your life. It happens and you fill it with something else you enjoy and make the most of what you have left and gain a new.

>>18568025
>but I'm a big nerd. she doesn't appear to be the kind of person that's into nerds.

If you haven't even had a full conversation with with her, how you really know she won't be into "nerds?". You're trying to come up with bullshit to "reason" yourself out of talking to her. Your mind is giving you doubt and BS so just tell it "hey, shut the fuck up." and get yourself to just talk to her.

Fuck you and your weird manipulative bullshit, you met me when I was vulnerable but I see through your shit and I want nothing to do with you, fuck off.

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It's awkward talking to you. I was at your wedding as a witness so I was there for you, but our relationship is toxic to me. We are both fucked up, but I'm the only one getting help or trying to change myself. You are pregnant and now legally married. I don't know what to say to you anymore. 10 years of being friends. Now what?

>>18568025
just give it a try and if it doesn't work out then you can just be friends or stop talking

I hate Chads

All the girls love those Chads that just have sex with them, boast about during fucking class and dump them the next month. Why can't a girl like a non-Chad, honestly. I've been so nice to people, and I don't get anything back. Not one compliment, no hug from a girl, or a fucking text message or anything. I'm sick of having this nice guy act.

I had a crush, I was so nice to her. I had jokes and made her laugh a lot. Ask her out she declines. She goes out with some Chad fag, who boasts about how big her tits are and how I got rejected.

Chads fucked up my chance with have some type of girlfriend. Saying that she slept with so many guys before I knew her. In reality she was just not that social. I can't believe I fell for it. I cut connections with her, and she's going out with a Chad.

Fucking Chads should be eradicated from the Earth.

Sorry, I've had a lot of aggression built up, but like why can't girls not like a Chad that'll dump them with in a year.

I had to get this off my chest.

I've been trying to hide it from you, even from myself, but in reality our situation is getting more hurtful every date we have. I know the problem isn't me, but this is what hurts me the most; not knowing if and when things will get right again. It's been three months since we last had sex, and from then on rarely have we had intimate moments. I love you so much, and I'll hate myself if I can't take it. I want to be by your side when you get better. You are worth all the waiting. But it hurts so much and I don't know if I'm strong enough.

I love hanging out with you. I love your friends. I love that you surround yourself with positive people. I love meaningful late-night conversations with you.
We hadn't spoken for so long but it's like none of that ever happened. That's how I know we connect so well.
I hope one day to be as close as we were. I hope you like me too; the way you did before.
I'd really like that

i'm in a one month committed happy relationship but i just told this douche i'd fuck him for 5g i hate myself

>>18568079
you'll find someone. i hate chads. make fun of them too. only date the underdogs they're the sweetest and have most potential for marriage material

I just wish I could connect with her like I could with my past girl/boyfriends. She just seems so detached all the time and it's frustrating because. And it doesn't help that my ex is trying to wedge herself back into my life, but I know she'll just end up hurting me again. I just wish I knew what to do...

Wow, I'd never thought I'd see the day someone would get sexually tense and jealous of ME. That's just unusual and kinda sad tbqh. With your features, I kinda thought you scored much more than what I assumed.

That being said, you had your chance. I let you flirt with me, I let you glance my way (Yeah, don't act like you're not, I see you staring at my ass while I glanced at yours), etc. You'll never touch this man until you're truly ready to prove yourself as gf material.

Until then, I'm just gonna go out with my lady and see if that goes somewhere.

I'm so god damn into you and for the first time in my life, I'm too gutless to tell you straight out. I value our friendship too much to potentially ruin it. I should've left him back when I first realised I'd fallen for you, it would've saved me almost 3 years of being in an abusive relationship. Even if you need to tell me through hints, just tell me if this is reciprocated or not so I know what to do.

>>18568200
But then those underdogs will eventually get defiled by Chads. There's no escape from the Chad.It can happen at any time. Whether you're dating or married, you're always at risk of being cucked by a Chad. Death to all Chads....

>>18568240
What happened in your old relationship? Also you should suck it up and tell him if you ever want him.

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>>18565156
>replied to ad on craigslist
>threesome mfm
>dude wanted me to get blown first and then have the threesome
>I believe I have been rused

I'm fucking retarded

I hate my mom.

She is a toxic, entitled, spoiled brat who ruined me.

>>18568257
Too much, was caught up with a total narcissist (who didn't show it before we got together) who would beat me if I ever tried to stand up to him/leave. Finally ended up making a run for it when he attempted suicide and that was """reason enough""" for me to cut off complete contact.

i hate women. i fucking hate them.

I broke down and smoked a cigarette on my fourth day clean. God FUCKING damn it.

Im sad
>work for bf
>he pays me low and belittles how i dont work hard enough
>i have 2 other jobs that pay more for doing a lot less work
>hes been putting me down about those jobs... how im not staying up all night working for him like before
>he pays me $200 a month on average
>he takes me on vacations, tells me how no other man will treat me as good as him
>i want out. It feels abusive. I feel dead inside.

>>18568326
Honestly, you sound familiar.
Anyway, I feel sorrow for your problem, but 200 bucks feels like piss in a bucket.

>>18568326
Leave. You're dealing with a Manipulator Lite but its manipulation all the same and it will never change.

I have dealt with similarly manipulative people my entire life and I will tell you, they often dont even know what they're doing. One thing that they will never, ever do is hear their mark out, they will never discuss things with you on equal footing and they will certainly never change for you.

>>18568325
Must be tough. Hang in there

>>18565156
Want a guy I've been into ever since I met him, but he's moving across the pond and I'm taken. Wish I'd said something to him while I was single, but I don't want to be a sack of shit and cheat on my SO, who is everything I should want in a partner.

My stupid ex. There's too much to write. I've wasted a lot of energy on this. But still. My stupid fucking ex.
I remember when we were kids and best friends and all those memories are tainted now. So many parts of my life are. Fuck I'm full of hate.
It's been two years. Still single. Still bitter.

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I don't care about sex or women. I masturbate to clear the random urge and I get back to whatever in doing. It takes about 42 seconds to get it over with and my head stops feeling clouded and hot.

I don't want a relationship, and I don't like being teased or insulted for rejecting a woman due to my own personal issues. I just want to be alone and do stuff at night until I fall into another lucid lie and further fall to psychosis

I don't care about virgin shenanigans but I do feel really hurt when people treat me certain ways.

I feel like I eventually justify a suicide based on my lack of interest in children.

>>18565775
ask him and confront him, then break up

>>18568407
I'm just gonna say that if you actually didn't care about having a gf then you probably wouldnt give two shits about what other people thought about it, but you do, and I imagine you're kidding yourself you're a little lonely. So just hang in there, work on yourself and grapple witb your feelings a little.

Does he really see me as a weak person that would have never gotten a chance to date anyone else if he didnt in his mind pick someone else for me?

You don't believe a girlfriend should be your friend, and your friend shouldn't be your girlfriend. You didn't want to ruin our friendship so you won't date me despite calling me a 9/10. You told me you wanted to spend your life with me. Now that you got your Aryan ex back, I'm nothing to you. You didn't want to ruin the friendship? Too late for that. And you're acting all daddy like to her, a fetish of mine that you rarely indulged in. Oh that's right, it's okay because shes Aryan master race. You really don't know what you lost. I cared so much about you and did nothing but help you and build your self esteem up. Now you're done with me. I can't believe you felt okay doing this. I'm laying in bed with tears down my face, shaking like a leaf. I hate you, yet I still love you.

>>18568460
Sounds like you were strung along as a play thing. How do you plan on exacting your revenge?

>>18568482
I don't believe in revenge; trust me when I say life won't give him the perfect Aryan waifu. At least not for long. She's just using him.

Turns out my biggest crush is exactly the kind of woman that I hate the most. Gotta have to say goodbye, heartbreaking but this is for the best.

>>18568418
I actually don't care. I only get an erection when I'm repairing tech or when I'm eating candy. I've also been taking adderall for some 6 months ago and I've been a lot more interested in 3D printing wearable technology

What I do care about are the CONSTANT FUCKING complaints and insults, being called gay and shamed by family. Being purposely spoken over and ignored.

My friends have threatened to and have actually hit me for ghosting people and jokingly self shaming. The first time I ever met my father ended with his insults and rage because everyone in the room were dating someone and I were not. I had to put him out of my apt because it went on for 30 minutes. I had a lot to show and tell him.

No one ever believes that I don't care until they get to know me and I somehow fuck up lying about it every time and that makes things worse later.

T.K.

I have seen so many people dieing of cancer close to me that i couldnt feel anything anymore when my grandpa died of cancer. My heart turned to stone over the years.

Lost a shit tonne of money on the stock market due to plain neglect. I just didn't even try.

>>18568053
No buddy, fuck you and your shade. You couldn't look me in the eyes for months and now I know why.

I'm only "getting by" anymore. The majority of my life has been absolute chaos.
I'm just waiting and working towards making everything okay so I can kill myself.
There is nothing I enjoy at all anymore. I used to think the whole "I'm dead inside" was an emo joke. But yeah, guess the joke's on me.

>part time employee
>working full time hours
why is this allowed

>waste time trying to find girls on the internet again

>>18568669
Hilariously, I got the reverse.
>fulltimer
>working part time hours for really undisclosed reasons
So, what the fuck? I did nothing wrong, and I actually did everything in my power to impress everyone here.

Fuck this. I'm considering an out strategy soon.

This might sound weird, but I was a girlfriend, I want a wife that is like my sister.

She didn't get up to no shit, she met her husband back when she was 19 and they stayed together even since, they have 2 children, a lovely house and a nice BMW.

They are always laughing and telling me about movies they watched.

I just want that....I just want someone that I can enjoy life with.

I thought I had that person twice, that person I loved and wanted to marry and then it ended, I don't think I can go through that pain again. I dont want to feel how I felt when it all breaks up.

Why can't I just find that one girl that I can settle with, that's all I want!

Almost 21, terrible anxiety/bipolar depression(it gets fucking intense) and I've convinced myself that I'm a lazy fucking pussy essentially(not elaborating too much into what I mean about that), I know there are 40+ hour work weeks in my future and I already want to kill myself. My mom and I struggle with similar mood disorders and she's a few years from 50, has been unemployed since ~34 and had never had a stable job. I feel like I'm gonna end up following that to a certain extent. My family's trying their best but the cycle won't break. I could be forced off technology and just end up offing myself before I'm forced through months of shitty work which I have to get through. Fuck me, right? Fuck us all, right? I'm not strong. I'm expecting to kill myself. I'm not even ugly, or unlikeable. People love me(some hate me). So it's weird. This mood disorder shit isn't romantic in any possible way and the people pretending are fucking assholes, because I just want to die.

>>18568761

I want a girlfriend*

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I need someone to keep me in check.

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>>18567803
I did tho. c: It went away after eating some chinese food.

Yeah just keep fucking lying and absolving yourself of any responsibility whore

Yall are some crybabies, fucking first world problems. Grow a fucking spine, Jesus.

>>18568983
Pretty first world of you to bitch about that on the internet, at your leisure fucking dumbass

>>18568989
You realize I'm referring to the people in this thread, correct?

Also, fuck off.

>>18568993
Which you're in as well fucking idiot swallow a shotgun

>>18568759
Are you a unionized worker? They can't do that to you if you are.

>>18568759

I know these feels.

Worked hard. Real hard.
Performance regularly hits 150% of the targets, one of the most overperfoming people in my workplace.

Was I one of the few who was told about management positions opening up?
No, that went to the people on rehabilitation for made-up injuries to avoid work, people who play the system, and people who have more social skills than work ethic.

Instead, what I got, when they were worried they had employed too many people, was harassment.
They deny it, but they clearly thought I was someone who wouldn't put up a fight, and would eventually quit.

I did put up a fight though, I wasn't the easy target they thought I was and the moment I snapped, was months after researching workplace law and it was all in a scathing letter to HQ during my investigation.

I'm part time now, in order to keep my job - without taking them to tribunal, I needed to show that I was taking action to manage my stress, reducing my hours did that.

Seriously, I was being calling into the offices every single day, over minute shit like spending 30 seconds too long doing other work-related duties (that actually fall under health and safety too), because those duties could not be tracked electronically like the majority of the job - funnily enough, they were doing this to a few others too, so eventually those duties became neglected, and managers were forced to look out on the work-floor to ensure people were doing them.

I've since learned to ALWAY ask for a copy of every piece of paper they ask you to sign.
They tend to back off, if they think you're investigating them, building a folder against them, or plan to use their own words against them.


For example, had a knew to ask for copies before, I could not be disciplined for neglecting or improperly doing the other duties in the event that it lead to damaged or missing stock, because I would have evidence that proves the company punishes people for doing it properly.

>>18568993
kek, you sound like someone who has some "first world problems" bothering them, so you come here to take it out by shitting on people who are venting.

>>18567339
I'm not the one who sleeps around behind their lover's back despite how much they pamper you. Who are you trying to fool here? You're the one to blame for all the crap that happens all around you. You're the parasite, not me. You have nothing that you deserve.

>>18569005
I'm doing great. The people in this thread need to grow up though.

>>18568998
Calm down, lunatic. Mom might deny you tendies if you keep up that attitude.

>>18569011
Well I can't complain too much about your posts, you're getting something off your chest, after all. Really though, it's not always that serious. I post about things that are on my mind here from time to time, only to forget about them later. It's kind of like a journal.

>>18569011
Are you actually this braindead of a person
>>18569008
Not even remotely close

>>18569017
Are you actually that vocal in person? Telling someone to kill themselves with a shot gun to their face requires testicles, which you undoubtedly lack.

>>18569024
Why are you thinking about my cock and balls? Also how new

>>18569025
It's a metaphor for masculinity, fool. Go jerk off to anime some more, don't breed.

>>18569030
Dont jerk off to animu
>4th grade tier ad hom
>masculinity
Bing bing bing do you know what that means?

>>18569033
Bing Bing Bing

>>18569035
No sweetie it means you gave yourself away

>>18569036
Swallow a shotgun, preferably using bird shot.

>>18569048
Meandering someone is SAD go to your time out square and reflect

>rejected girl
>but I told her that I still want to be friends and gave her the possibility it might work out if she moves closer to me (and I genuinely mean it)
>said she would be fine tomorrow (today) , but drank a lot last night and compared me to her first boyfriend that pretty much she gave everything to and he just used her for sex
>she's just upset but I try to explain to her I'm not that, especially since I'm being honest with her, that I haven't abandoned her, among other things

What should I do? I haven't spoken to her today, she's still asleep. She was really into me but I wasn't for her because she lived too far away and a couple of other things that would make it difficult. I still want to be friends with her and talk to her, but is that out of the question now?

>>18569069
Google the definition of meandering DUMMY

>>18569074
Lack of coffee mimick* but the point still stands so go sit there

>>18569081
Only If you sit on me ;) no homo bro

>>18569073
What would those other things be that would make it difficult to hold a relationship?

>>18569095
She's older than I am by 6 years, she lives across the ocean in YUROP, and she's trans. I know that sounds stupid, but she isn't the kind that kills themself after a year. She's been that way for 10 years (she's 26), has her own place, and going to university, so she is pretty stable. I'm more concerned about the fact that she'll get sick as it goes on and I want a lot of children which will be difficult even with surrogates , let alone her (small) dick.

But I like her, a lot. At least her personality. So I told her if I was where she lived or she was where I lived I would give her a chance, one date, because she deserves it for us talking every other day. But with all these problems, I didn't feel like committing to an e-relationship without even a high reward, just a potential for a high reward

And I've only been with two cis women before in terms of sex and love life

FUCK IT, okay. I'm gonna go do stuff and be happy and develop myself as a person. I'm so fucking impatient though I need to learn to chill.

>>18569107
Is this real life

>>18569146
Yeah yeah, whatever. Call me a fucking retard, or gay, or whatever you want. The point is I like this person enough as a friend that I don't feel comfortable saying fuck you and never speaking to them again.

>>18569147
gay retard

>>18569154
That I am, my friend

Thought about making a thread to ask about this but it may be better to post here. 4chan may not be a good place at all for this for reasons which will quickly become clear. This is NOT me trying to RP some wincest fantasy, I'm not into it.

>live alone
>brother is going through some shit
>oldest niece (just turned 18) wanted to say at my place for a few weeks
>brother was cool with it
>I reluctantly said yes due to guilt for not being in any of my siblings' kids lives very often
So she comes over to stay...
>not too bad having her around
>she cleans up after herself, doesn't bring over a ton of people without asking, nice
>but
>my one fucking problem
>she lounges around the house in a tshirt and panties
Okay, lettuce be reality here. I have no intention of trying to hook up or any messed up shit like that, but I am a male, and she is a physically developed female, so there is underlying attraction. It seems like every time she sits next to me on the couch, she does to the side, where her hoo-ha is staring right at me. And I'm losing my shit trying to be casual and not stare back at it. So how do I talk to her about putting on some shorts without being weird? Do I get my brother or her mom to tell her? Wat do?

I hate how my life turned out. Ever since I moved out of my parents house I've had people try to tell me what to do. I'm tired of my family trying to control me and I'm tired of people never leaving me the fuck alone. I moved out because I wanted my own space and it feels like everyone is trying to tell me that I'm not deserving of that. I just wanted the ability to live my life my own way and everyone keeps judging every little fucking thing that I do.

>>18569177
how old ?

>>18568513
What kind of woman?

>>18569181
Was 22 when I moved out, 23 now

>>18569168

You could tell her that even though you want her to be as comfortable as possible but that there are still some boundaries that need to be respected.


As long as you don't parade in your underwear and -tshirt I think this is a simple matter of explaining how you feel. Not in such a way that you tell her that you don't want to feel awkward anymore because of the no pants part, but more because you're family and it's fancy to keep it that way.


Btw; my family would throw slippers to me if I did that. Good thing that I moved out and live on my own. Again she lives with you guys. If she would live alone or be in her room all the time I understand why she would rock the panties/tshirt thing.


But, if we call the facts to check, she lives in a house which is shared with male family members. And if she doesn't like the boundaries or set rules, she has to move out and find her own place.

Good luck!

>>18568407
Why suicide over lack of interest in children?

>>18569185
Thankyou for your reply, I suppose I will just try to talk to her directly and honestly. One thing though, to be clear, it's just she and I at my house. I live alone, and she wanted to stay with me while my brother and sister in law sort out their problems. And nah, I don't lounge outside of my room in boxers while she's there. If she just did that in the guest room she is sleeping in, I'd have no issue. Aside from the awkwardness when we're there alone, I just keep picturing, with increasing horror, someone I know stopping by and she's chilling on the couch without pants. It will not look very good...

>>18569184
I'm having the realization you had right now. I'm 20 and I'm trying to move out soon to get away from it. Your post is confirming my belief that it really won't be as easy to separate myself as I once thought it would be.

My opinion might not mean much to you because of that, but all I can say is that we only have one life to live. Do you really want to look back at all of the decisions you have ever made and felt like they were just because someone else wanted you to? That shit is annoying as fuck but you'll just have to ignore it and/or take the things they say into consideration but ultimately make your own choice.

>>18569202
Hmm... That's still quite difficult. But, as you said it's the two of you. In my mind I would be extra conscious about my clothing if I would be living with a guy. Even if it's family.


I think that if you'd explain the part of the fact that it could happen that someone could come to yours. It could give off some odd vibes to acquaintances. If she's a reasonable being (which I think she is) it will be fine and all worked out!


Being honest will never hurt!

>>18569203
>it really won't be as easy to separate myself as I once thought it would be
I love my family but it feels like they're too concerned. Too stubborn. If any of my decisions feels wrong to them they will try to steer me another way and I'd really just like to do shit on my own. I understood all this when I was younger but at 23 I like to think I'm somewhat grown enough to make my decisions and learn from anything that doesn't turn out how I'd expect. It just pisses me off that they try to make me feel guilty about shit.

>Do you really want to look back at all of the decisions you have ever made and felt like they were just because someone else wanted you to?
This has been my dilemma ever since high school ended. I appreciate advice and people sharing their wisdom, I just don't appreciate the criticism over what I ultimately decide.
It's not just family doing this but friends too. A lot of people in my life. It's as if they're trying to get me to be a certain way. It's almost every day that people try to convince me that I'm wrong, and all I'm doing is trying to make a life for myself now that I'm finally out there.
Wish I had been out at your age. All we can really do is stick to our guns.

>>18569213
Thankya. Hope this works without making her self-conscious or something.

>>18569155
>>18569107

How did you even find this person and become friends with them?

I don't understand how people get in long distance relationships, since you both know you won't get to see eachother often or if at all?

I'm tired of being lonely. I have some plans to meet people. But in the meantime. I'm sad.

Keep marinating yourselves you're goldmines

Kind of ex gf and I are on the phone rn discussing whether we'll get back together or not, looks like a no. God I fucked up so bad. She says she doesn't know if she wants to be friends, friends with benefits, or not at all. Yay.

I just want to be happy again.

I'm most hurt by the fact you entered another relationship right after ours ended.
It was a mutual breakup... but that doesn't mean I stopped loving you. You mentioned once you still do love me, so why are you with someone else?

>>18569268
>She says she doesn't know
It's over. Move on. If she comes back later don't take her back. She just gave up that chance.

>>18569308
this.

>>18569286
Because women lie and have no shame.

I used to be Chad.
And I should've been one like my brother, but I ruined it.

I love the smell of rain. I love the sight of rain intensly. I have known alot of humans who desired the rain as much as I do. Everytime we turned out to be from diffrent planets.

Am I the one descending from the waters?

Why does my heart ache when I hear someone sigh?
Why does my skin crawl when it is indeed too de-hydrated to be there?

Why do I keep longing back to the times where the tides would clean up every mistake we made?

Like whales, I expected us to stay together. To raise our own whales together as one big ocean filled with beautiful creatures.

Why does the rain comfort me when I see heartbreaks in diffrent forms and how long do I have to endure them?

Is this a daydream chaotic ocean or is this just a simple calm creek nightmare?
I really do miss how it used to be.

"why are you so nice to me"?

Well us dating for the past 4 months may have something to do with that. Did you want me to fuck you and never call you back?

I may stick my neck out there for others or try to help in any way far too much but I give a shit about you and want to see good things happen to the people who are good in my life. Maybe it's overbearing or something but why ask someone something like that?

Its almost like you girls want to be used and abused.

>>18569499
>It's almost like you girls want to be used and abused.

I think you're reading too far into what she said, anon.

>>18569499
>Its almost like you girls want to be used and abused.
Everyone wants to be used and abused. They also want to use and abuse others.

THESE ARE THE FACTS OF LIFE

>>18569499
And a side note but if you girls are sexually attracted to these scumbags, why the fuck do you want people like me around? Can't have your cake and eat it too, ladies

>>18569349
Oh it's a women only thing? Why didn't anyone tell my ex? It's people who suck, don't be dumb.

>>18569470
Initials?

>>18569504
Am I though? Just so strange and out of the blue. We have shared our feelings deeply on numerous occasions and she always mentions how shitty she is as a person and asks why I'm so nice to her all the time. She knows I care about her. She's gotten burned by guys before so I get being overly insecure about things. Just seemee strange. Haven't seen her in like a week or so either

>>18569523
I can relate to your girlfriend. After being treated like shit for so long in the past, when you find someone who actually treats you well it's a new feeling and she might even be shocked. Her saying "Why are you so nice to me?" Isn't a blow to you. It's just her being insecure and not being used to being treated with respect. Just give her time.

>>18569523
Well you said it. She's been used by guys. She's scared that your niceness is fake and you're going to do the same. She's being insecure.

>>18569522
S.A.B,

Yours?

>>18569286

You know what your part was in the breakup. You know why I couldn't date you. If it was up to me you would have actually changed your behaviour and we would have stayed together. That's all I wanted back then.

But you said the breakup was mutual. If the breakup was mutual - if you were done with this relationship - then why does it matter that I found someone new? Why do you think it's okay for us to separate if you want me to remain stuck on you? Is it because you're still stuck on me?

The truth is this could have never worked out. Even if you would have treated me well.

Because I dumped my new boyfriend already. Because while I was dating you I came to realize something that I always sort of knew deep down, but was very afraid to acknowledge.

I am a lesbian.

I did love you, and I still care about you. But I can't ever love you in that way. I know you couldn't love me in that way either, whether you'll admit it to yourself or not.

It's okay that you're gay too. It's really okay. I think that's one of the biggest things that drew us to one another. And in letting each other go we can move forward being so much more genuine in our next relationships. Mine with a woman, yours with a man.

>>18569538
>>18569543
These anons are right, when you're treated like shit by people it will seem suspicious when someone treats you well. Makes you paranoid, you feel like they're either using you or don't actually know the "real" and unlikeable you.

is it not good enough?
am I not good enough?
have I not gave enough?

I've given you everything.

>>18569544
>sad ass bitch
kek

I want to go see the ocean.
I don't know why, but it always feels like it could solve my problems, somehow.
As if it could give me absolution for my life.
But it's kinda too far and I don't have the money right now.
I just want to hear the waves crashing against the coast and feel the salt on my face again.

Yesterday, my mother brought home at least two dozen things of junk food, and over the past ~20 minutes, I've strongly considered getting some cookies to eat. Now, I realize that this is not only a bad idea because it's excess sugar that I don't need, but I'm also fueling the idea that I need junk food to make me happy. If I never go up and get cookies when I feel this urge, eventually I'll no longer feel it, and my health will be much better at no cost to me. Even better, I will no longer count on a fleeting burst of pleasure to satisfy me.

This is a simple idea, but when placed in the context of my unique situation, it becomes a very helpful solution. My current issue is that I have clinical Depression, and can't enjoy many things, so I frequently push my body to its limits in order to gain as much pleasure as possible, and subsequently feel terrible because I've both harmed my health and weakened my willpower in the process. If I can cull the root of desire for simple pleasures, I won't have to live in an unstable equilibrium of desiring things while not obtaining them. I'll be okay with what I have, and won't have those terrible stomach problems which burden me daily. It'll take me a few weeks to adjust, but if I can do this, I'll be one step closer to contentment.

It's funny how it can take months of trial and error before you figure these things out. All I've got to do now is pay attention: The next time I feel like eating some cookies, I will not take any.

I want to watch your stream, but really... I super don't want to watch your stream.

It's just going to make me incredibly sad and lonely. They made it seem as if they are trying to set us up, but my gut is telling me it's just to fuck with me.

They have admitted to me that this is one of the ways they control me. Is to build me up and then knock me down. Again and again and again.

I might check in but don't be hurt if I leave quickly. I've been avoid anything related to optimism.

I know it has to be you. You react specifically to things I say in my day on your twitter. When I talked about bears to the psychiatrist, when I got home there was a picture of you dressed as a bear. The night before your birthday, I heard my mother telling someone happy birthday. Saying "Oh, you aren'ttt olllddddd." I asked my mom "Who's birthday is it?" and she said she didn't know anyone that was having a birthday. The next day, you post about how old you are now. I talk about being born upside down, you post an upside down smiley face.

The night I stayed up and talked about going to a special kind of hell for thinking about that threesome with you and M. You post later about "I can't wait to go to hell."

I'm a mess of a person. I'm broken beyond repair. The odds that it's you even controlling your twitter are next to zero.

The "FIGHT!" posts confuse me. Is this some kind of game? Are you in the running to be my GF or something? Are they running a contest to see who will be with me? Then there was that "Earn it or Buy it." thing. I will never, ever pay for love. I will never pay for sex. If someone is going to have sexy times with me it's because they want to of their own free will.

The other concerning thing were all the KEK posts. I really really really hate that fucking word. It's incredibly stupid. It's damaging to the minds of boys and men. That it's ok for a girl to sleep around if the guy isn't "manly" or "alpha" enough. That entire fucking concept needs to fuck off.

Just give me my fucking money.
I don't wanna have to go through this shit.

I can't come to terms with the fact that I don't have feelings for my boyfriend, and possibly never have, and I hate it so much.

I love him, but I'm not in love with him. I think I've just been in denial for months, just because I so badly want to be IN LOVE with him, but I'm not.

I can't let go. We've been through so much together and have so many great memories. Every time I try to break up with him, I bawl my eyes out and think about how empty and miserable my life would be without him.

I obviously feel something more than just friendship with him, but my heart keeps telling me to leave, and I just want to be with him. I don't want anyone else.

This fucking sucks.

I wish I could go back to the night I met her. Knowing what I know now I would not have approached her. It would have saved me so much heartache.

G,
thanks for sending my fiance your 'professional photo shoot' selfies and you're at home ones of you and your cat. I needed a good laugh haha can you be any more desperate?? I bet you can!

I'm sorry, I can't watch your stream.

You're too fucking adorable.

I feel so weird whenever I think about you. I still feel those bits of attraction towards you but now there's mostly anger at your lack of awareness to what you've done.

>>18570052

Fucking tell her foo

>>18570052
what did they do?

>>18569935

How does this even happen? Can you explain in detail?

How do you love someone but are not in love with them?

You are attracted to them? They make you laugh? You like spending time with eachother?

I'm not judging just want to try understand the difference between the two

>>18565775
Confirm that, then tell him to fuck off

My ex might have stomach cancer. I'm in love with one of my best friends, but she's away right now and sucks at texting. I want her to be back so we can connect and I can tell her how I feel. Fuck my life right now.

>>18569896
You sound insane

>>18570131
I'm a sane person in an insane world.

>>18570131
seriously? All those things I said were true.

You faggots really think that many coincidences happen all the time?

The t hing that get's you this time is I didn't even mention who I was talking about.

Literally kill yourself.

>>18570052
I know I fucked up everything, you were partly responsible too. I'm sorry

>>18570138
>>18570165
How many people live in your head?

In February I faced my fears and got steamrolled. It actually turned out worse than I could have imagined and now I'm traumatized and afraid to try again. I don't know where to go from here.

>>18570198
1
Everyone else is very real.

>>18570215
Alright, thank you for sharing that with me. Do you have a voice in your head that you speak to?

>>18570223
I bet you're one of the faggots that would deny up and down that my computer was ever hacked despite the countless IP logs, programs, and security audits I have as proof.

It doesn't matter to you tards. No amount of proof is enough.

I love you. I know deep inside you love me too.

You told me that you loved me, kissed me on my lips and gave me a hug when you went out from my car today after we met.

You and me already knew that those were probably our last kisses in this life.

We had already broken up and you told me that you wanted to live your life by yourself for a long time.

You told me that we love each other but we cannot be in a relationship because it's destructive for us.

I know that it's true but I also know that there is no greater pain than knowing that we both love each other but cannot be with each other.

I know that you'll find someone else in time. I know that I should too.
But I feel that I'd rather stay alone than happy with someone else.

I know that you will forget me more and more each day passing by.
But you'll still always remember me.

In my heart, next to the memories of you, there will always be hope that somehow we will end up finding each other again.

I cannot bear to see you with someone else and know that he has a chance to make you happy but I don't.

I don't want to see you have sex with someone else because in my heart the girl I love still lives on but she'll get destroyed then.

Before we broke up, I thought it would be so easy to stop caring about you. Every night makes me reminded that it's the opposite.

But you made me realize that I am truly a lonely person. I have no friends. I have no-one that cares about me. All I had was you. It was all or nothing. But now you're gone and all I have left is my loneliness.

Thank you for teaching me this lesson. I realize that I must first love myself before I can love someone else. I must first make real friends before I look for a girlfriend.

I must learn how to walk before I can run. I choose to run but ran too far away. I'm sorry.

Loneliness is all I have left.

>>18570226
Calm down, I'm just trying to understand you better. Do you know who hacked your computer and why they would hack it? What did the people say when you showed them the logs?

>>18570223
or the other pieces of shit that said something along the lines of "It's disgusting how much of a victim complex he has." while LYING TO ME ABOUT SHIT AND SPREADING MISINFORMATION TO PEOPLE.

I'm pretty sure it was Milena that said that victim shit. At the same time, she was telling my EX that I was talking dirty to her while we were together. That's a flat out fucking lie and she knew it. During that time I was being hacked and constantly berated on social media.

Either you people are incredibly retarded or you're doing it on purpose. I don't want shit to do with any of you.

>>18570232
They tried to make it sound as if it were just random "pings." that were totally normally. They were deliberate DDos attacks that would bring down my internet. As well, they got into the vulnerable systems of my network and got to my computer through that. The security audits showed remote connections in various modes, include remote management and crypto key changes.. There were several server related programs installed as well as a keylogger and mouse tracer.

My facebook was hacked and so was my email. They logged into my facebook and started changing my posts. I saw it happen in real time once.

My ex was involved with it in some way. She complained about shit that there was no way for her to know (baited her with posts/files on my computer).

when one of my friends was helping me, she out of nowhere blocked me (the friend). She was telling me how to remove the hacked bullshit, knew for sure my computer was fucked up, and mid way through helping me out without a word blocked me.

Either she was threatened or I don't know what.

I'm not going to invite any of my family to my wedding

I continuously fail to live up to society's ideal of grown-up and it makes me fucking depressed that such norms exist and I don't have the strenght to say fuck 'em!

This next week is going to be horrible, I really hope I can make it. Maybe I should leave town, nothing good is going to come about being here while you are off doing that.I hope this nightmare ends soon.

>>18569935

Please see my post >>18570231

I can understand everything you wrote.

I am that guy. Me and her broke up but we still love each other. She even told me today that she loved me, kissed me on my lips and gave me a hug. However, she still stands by her decision not to be with me. She's not "in love" with me anymore. Our relationship was totally destructive for us. We broke up but decided to try again some weeks ago, but now we both realized it had to end.

Due to life circumstances around us, we wish that we had met one year after... Now was too early to change.

But my biggest fear is that she will find someone else. It hurts me the most because I still love her a lot. If I see her happy with someone else, the part of my heart where she is stored inside of me will be destroyed and knowing that makes me scared. I want her to always live there as good as she was.

>>18570266
In the end, nothing we do really matters. Even if we leave a legacy that lives on after we die, the sun will supernova and swallow the earth. So if nothing we do matters, and life has no obvious meaning on its own, we get to choose to assign meaning to our own life--and no option is right or wrong. I've determined that my purpose in life is to meet animals, experience the world, and pursue happiness. That's it. Sure, I will never make six figures, and I am already failing society's expectations for adults, and I will never meet all of society's expectations for adults. But that's okay, because the purpose of my life isn't to make society happy--certainly not if everything is going to end and none of it will matter.

How do I deal with all of the lonely nights I know lies ahead of me?

I am a lonely person. No friends. No girlfriend anymore. Nothing and no-one.

I don't want to be lonely anymore. I found my girlfriend which I thought would take away my loneliness but now when she's gone, I realize how lonely I still am.

Why is it so much harder to make REAL best friends than to get a girlfriend?

Anyone help me understand what to do.

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How did I manage this?

I inspired an entire generation of artists and yet... I have less than 700 followers on twitter. I make $140 a month.

But there is countless art out there that integrates my design principles, aesthetic, and subjects. I don't think they are copies at all. I think it's the awesomist fucking thing. I never thought in a million years that... just, the coolest shit.

But I'm fucking miserable.

Please end this. Please.

I want to go home.

I want to know the truth.

I want to be free.

I'm quitting my job tomorrow and I'm nervous as fuck. What do?

>>18570381
Because you have your head so far up your ass, you don't realize your just copying something that has been done multiple times already.
Come back from Jupiter and smell the shit you "created and inspired".

You asked me what's on my to-do list. I didn't tell you. Could you guess why?

>>18570258
Have you phoned authorities?

My ex-girlfriend was insecure but forced me to tell her my phone PIN, she didn't believe my words and thought that I hid stuff from her because I didn't want her to look in my phone.

Was she right? She literally told me her PIN even though I did not want to have it. Then, she said that she demanded to know mine too because she had told me hers.

Also, she told me that all of her female friends has their partners phone PIN and access to the guys' phones.

Or was I right to tell her it's private and none of her business to have my phone PIN and not give it out?

I just wonder if I was right or wrong...

>>18570421
Ignore this post. Continue making money off your art. People who aren't artists can't comprehend the drive to create. So basically keep it up and fuck this guy

>>18569286
initials?

>>18565541
Same here man. It's fucking true, though. The world is depressing, and western society is going to utter shit.

I always tell this to those that hate /pol/ for changing them: Don't hate the messenger. Hate those who wrote the message.

>>18570444
My boyfriend shared his with me even though I didn't ask for it. My phone doesn't have a PIN in case he needs it for anything. To an insecure partner, when you don't share your PIN with them they believe you are hiding things from them. She can become paranoid, passive-aggressive, condescending, and more because of this. I think after she regularly checks your phone her fears will calm down and she will be able to trust you more. Has she been hurt in the past? Used? Sounds like she has and you're not taking her feelings into consideration on this matter. At the same time though, I can fully understand you need your privacy (consider not watching and looking at porn on your phone or clear just the link after you watch it so she doesn't feel even more insecure). Give this process a month or so. If she is is a good girl and you love her consider her feelings a bit more and open up to her -- it will help out a lot. If not, come back here and let us know the damage.

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Does anyone know, after I get denied the PLUS loan, if I can apply for the additional unsub loans online, or do I really have to go to the financial aid office every year and ask for it?

Does anyone need any relationship advice? Anything dealing with a friend, or family matters? Maybe an eating disorder poster? I'd like to listen and offer some advice if anyone wants to utilize this opportunity

>>18570421
you might be literally retarded.

>>18570117
reeee

>>18569499
>treating other men's slut like your princess

LMAO
You fucking cuck.

>>18569499
Initials?

>>18570421
you're so incredibly jealous it's sad.

>>18568774
shit are u me? I mean the only difference is that I work 40 hours.

>>18570131
You sound new here. Don't engage with him.

>>18570558
Ignore this guy. He gets off on harassing people.

Remember when you told me that you were going to tell me everything I wanted to know "soon." and then said "patience." So I said "ok."

And then you said "are you patient enough?"
That was about 9 months ago.

Remember when I told you about the dream I had and you told me "Dream is Destiny."

I've been pretty patient, all things considered. You've been a massive prick.

It's time to end things.

I will never forgive. Every time I think of you it will only be full of hate. I hope your heart gets torn out and dragged out from your fucking throat . I can't have a happy life because of your cowardice. You deserve to suffer

My gf keeps wiping her hands off on my dog. Like she'll be eating and she uses him like a fucking napkin. I told her to cut it out and that it's disrespectful and gross. She said she'd stop but she did it again today when we were eating lunch. I'm sick of giving my dog baths after she leaves and I'm sure he's sick of her bullshit too. Fucking women.

>>18570176
Sorry doesn't fix anything fuck you you're horrible person goddamn leech. Just take and take who cares how anyone else feels, it's at their expense

Fuck your radical left views , fuck your drugs, fuck your constant selfdoubting, fuck your self pitty circle jerks, fuck your excessive partying and narcissistic behaviour, im better than this. I regret calling scum like you my friends, im done with you.All you left leaning parasites FUCK YOU. Go throw your life away without me.

>>18570819
I'm not your anon. However I know that feel, I'll never expose myself to a bloodsucker ever again. Good luck

>>18569308
>>18569319

Yeah, it's my fault we broke up. I lied about things I probably shouldn't have, that to her meant alot. She sees that as me wasting the past 2 years. I've cried myself to sleep with a photo album of us by my side. Feelsgoodman. She just randomly messaged me this morning with a sweet "I hate you." Life's good, totally don't want to just drive on the wrong side of the road.

>>18570834
And yesa BIG FUCK YOU to Islam , call me NAZI or whatever, but i wont deny reality just because u dumbfucks want to live in your bubble

I wonder if these girls would even find me attractive or if they just like the idea of teasing me.

I'm not normally someone t hat's obsessed with sex but when the girls I consider to be more beautiful than all others start to dress up in exactly my aesthetic... hnnnnnnn

Now, if they were wearing chokers, thigh highs and nothing else... I would probably die.

>>18570846

Oh fuck me this has progressed for the worst.
"I can't believe we had sex. You used me."

I hate myself.

It's so hard to be social. I have good prospects as far as my career, grades, and graduation. I'm a young pseudo/intellectual who has had his fair share of travails and tragedy. I've surmounted it all. That being said, I still get really, really depressed for no reason. I also can't connect with most people, and even loathe spending too much time with my best friends and family. Nothing really interests me, and I spend a lot of time alone. Self improvement gets old, and so does saturating myself with media. I look half decent and am healthy. I should be grateful. I'm not, and probably never will be. I feel like I'm proud to have not killed myself at this point, although I know I will never really do it. Once I have a career and make money for myself that will help a little bit, but that emptiness will always be there. I've quit abusing drugs for many months now and I live a "clean" lifestyle. I wont stop, but it feels all for naught.

I used to think that a best friend, a significant other, a passion, or something similar would scoop me up and give my life meaning. At this point though I know that isn't really true.

>>18571014
Contactfagging...Kik anon?

Robby
I need to know where I stand with you. Do you see me as a friend or something more? You can't leave me in the dark like this.

I'm bipolar.
Am I unlovable?

I'm 22, still suck my thumb to fall asleep. Kissless virgin and extremely lonely because I don't even have any friends, but i guess not upset enough to change my ways. I feel like crap every single day and genuinely don't believe i could ever be happy and fulfilled but don't have the courage to finally kill myself either. Have strong feelings for a man who's clearly not interested but can't help it. Miss my grandma.

>>18569168
>What should I do?
Post pics for us. So we can more accurately assess the situation.

>>18569545
I'm sorry anon, I think you have mistaken me for someone else. I'm female myself.

>>18571098
You're fine

The existance and popularity of porn depresses me. Such a destructive industry. But it's not going away soon.

I wish you would message me back. I wish you would tell me how you feel.

>>18571098
Only if you don't manage it.

Of fucking course i meet the girl of my dreams when i'm completely shitfaced and leave the absolute worst first impression... I feel like shit for it even though i apologized profusely for my behavior i am 200% sure she wants nothing to do with me. How do i get over her asap?

>>18565961
I see what you did there

>>18567851
Initials of girl?

>>18566473
You did deserve it you fucking asshole, you deserved everything I did to you. Which was nothing. You just act like a victim

>>18567851
Initials please ?