>it was first year of HS
>had a lot of confidence, was an out going person, but wasn't Chad level
>ask out crush
>gets rejected
>guys at school make fun of me for it for the rest of my HS life
>Between years I start to have less confidence
>Start to find closure online
>becomes a house NEET every summer
>Majority of guys at school still bring it up in conversations and laugh at me
I can't think of relationships, or I get sick or feel sad. I've developed a fear of girls now. I can't get close to one or the world around gets all spiny. I don't want the same thing to happen to me again. Can't talk to one, because I don't know what to say. Social life has crumbled. HS sucks.
How do I bounce back so I can have at least decent year?
Have you tried NOT caring about these faggots? These people are literally trash, so why do you still place so much weight on their opinions?
Because of social hierarchy.
They could say that I am gay one day, and the whole school would believe them. And when I would deny it they would say I was lying. The people would believe them