Moving in with the ex that I love. What do?

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I need help, to figure out what she's doing, what her motives are, and if everything goes ape shit, how to make loving with her bareable.

Met a beautiful girl at uni. Everything was perfect. She lived a few minutes down the down and ended up basically living with me for the last 9 months.

Things started to get rocky; University exams, deadlines and we had no "space" as we shared the same room.

We both signed a tenancy to move in together and a good friend of ours.

2 weeks later, we break up. I can't get out of the tenancy. 12 month locked contract and no one to replace me.

I told her that I cannot move in with her and will delete her with from my life, as it'll be too hard for me, but she was convinced we could make loving together work.

For the whole of June, she tried to convince me to move in with her. I eventually agreed, under specific rules.

Up to my Birthday in June, she was talking and messaging me every few days. Then after my birthday passed, she stopped talking to me. I then started seeing her hanging out with another dude on Snapchat. I was furious at her and lost my shit. Deleted her off all my social media.

A few days later, I apologised. I spilled my entire heart out to her and asked if we could speak properly in person or on the phone. Just my luck, she was going holiday the following day.

We've now gone NC for nearly a month...

A couple of days ago, I decided to "check" her Facebook and noticed she's purged nearly all her friends on Fb, including that dude on her Snapchat, yet... of all people, she kept my mother. I've also found out that my mum and her sometimes text and ask how each other are doing...

I'm so lost and confused and it's eating me up, I don't know what to do. I love and miss her. I've never felt this way about anyone (And I've been with double digits).

I don't even know if anything I typed made sense... I just wanted somewhere to vent and maybe get help I guess...