Depression

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How do I know if i'm depressed? From the symptoms i've heard of I very well may be, but i'm honestly not sure and I feel I aught to know whether I am or not. Not to bitch and moan about it mind you - I would never want to do such a thing, but I believe that if I knew it may become easier to solve my issue. After all you can't solve a proble if you don't know what the problem is right? Anyway.

I don't feel particularly lonely, i've always been pretty quiet and although I enjoy being around others it's not what I consider a necessity in order to feel happy or anything. Nor do I feel that i'm "alone in the world" or anything, I mean technically everyone is alone but I mean I just don't feel like noone understands me or connects with me or the like.

I DO feel as if I am becoming a rather bitter individual, I used to not get angry very often but more recently I find that I can become frustrated, annoyed or even angered by things that would not used to make me feel that way. I also always feel very hopeless and feel that i'm a failiure - that i'm not good at anything.

I've felt this way for a while so although i'm used to it, I still don't feel good about it, which I probably shouldn't. I don't really think about killing myself all the time, however I do think that i'm unimportant and that it wouldn't matter if I was dead or not. My friends and family would probably miss me yes, but I still don't believe that my own life is worth much of anything. Hell i've even though that some people's lives would improve if I was gone. No matter how much that person may miss me.

I really just don't know what to do. I certainly don't enjoy this constant feeling of hopelessness, and aside from bitterness that's primarily what I feel nowadays.