First time posting in /adv/, because I really am in need of some

>>18552430
I'm confused. Explain why you are feeling bad again.

Are you pursuing what makes you happy? Are you projecting standards on yourself based on comparison with other, completely different people's standards? Answer these questions then re-evaluate what YOU want to achieve in life. You will feel better once you realise you are currently contributing to accomplishing those achievements.

>>18552463
>>18552468

That's literally the issue, I am grinding hard every day to become better and strive to be a better person, yet I feel that I have just been left out of the grid, and can no longer attain what people have done in the field I am interested in (programming). I am starting to think that unless I study like crazy every day, I will amount to nothing, and this thing is killing me inside

>>18552476
You didn't directly answer the question, but I can see the problem is that you're comparing yourself to others too much. Address that issue.

>>18552485
I admit that this is a flaw in my character that I have tried to work out, but I think it hasn't worked out, since this is how it ended. I just think that if some random teenager had a breakthrough with something and is now incredibly successful, or if someone is just naturally smart, I can do that as well. I have looked for information on that topic, but really, I don't think anything is helping at this point.