I really need help with my confidence. I downright hate who i am and i hate what i have done in the past. I've been acting really autistic in some settings around a lot of people. I see myself as beta, but most people dont treat me that way.
I got a decent fashion sense, got told that im handsome by random people a couple of times. Im really skinny and tried going to the gym, but fell of pretty quickly.
Im moving to a new city in two weeks to study at uni and i want to really connect to people in the beginning. Im living at some sort of campus so i will be living really close with some people, but im scared that im not confident enough to create new bonds to people. I hate my past and i want to make up for it and now is my chance. I dont want to fuck it up