help (or motivate me to kill myself)

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Just received entry denial to a university.

Never worked in my life (for money) and I'm 22.

The few internships I did at places with functioning low class citizens all reflected my lack in social skills and confidence, and their reaction to them.

I am good at nothing except software stuff. I am a hobby programmer. I live with my parents and they are poor. The local unemployment office will soon know and force me to apply for apprenticeships while they put me in low paid jobs together with people whom I want no part of.

My dream was to learn more about computers in university while I work on myself (been lifting, cooking healthy, getting used to healthy sleep schedule, trying to talk to people that wont punch you in the face for looking into their eyes without permission). I wont be able to do that in an environment where social skills are the only thing that matters for success, with people that didn't score well enough high school marks because they were busy bullying those who at least tried.

tell me anything