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Feeling of Uselessness 2017-07-19 12:11:24 Post No. 18534302
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I feel like a nuisance to my family. When I was 14 I got a guitar for Christmas and self taught myself. My family wanted me to play at get togethers, and when I did, all I could think was "they don't want you to play, they think you're annoying." Ever since I've had this urge to prove my worth to my family. I practiced my ass off and in the end felt mediocre at everything. It came back recently when I had a dream. I was playing a song, I had never heard but was amazing and I wish I could remember it all. And my Uncle was there and he said "You're awesome man!". Then I woke up. My Uncle encouraged me to keep playing but I stopped for a while. When I would learn a song or make something of my own, I felt as if they didn't care. My dad told me that no one thinks that and you just have to stop thinking like that. I'm not trying to get showered in praise or some shit but I want more of a response than "good". Maybe i'm a insecure faggot but it still scratches at the back of my head.
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You're an insecure little faggot but this is something that literally every creative type experiences. The solution is all in learning to recognise the objective merit in the things you've done, allowing yourself to feel pride over what you're making, and then saying to yourself "you can be even better" rather than "you're total shit because you aren't the best".
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Thanks for being blunt. I try to take merit but I feel undermined in a way. Like sibling rivalry except I always lose. I dont know what makes me this insecure.
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