Actually cut up my wrist at work

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Now before I start, let me tell you that I do not have depression, I haven't cut myself since I was 13 (I think), I am 27 now.

I am generally a very productive person. I work hard, I love volunteering, I am an honours student, and I am generally content with myself.

At work the other day, I just felt so stressed out and tried to release that stress by pacing back and forth, drawing, writing, leaving for the bathroom just to get away and it seemed like nothing was helping. The stress and anxiety was just building so I ended up using a pen and slicing my wrist. Not sure why I chose that route but when I did, I just felt so much better at work. I calmed down. It was almost like a tranquilliser. It was just something I could control at that moment. The pain distracted me. It gave me something to focus on rather then being neurotic.

I am not sure what advise I am asking for. I am just hoping I don't get into that habit at work. It was the second worst day I had there. I didn't even hide my cuts from my coworkers when it came to cleaning at the end of the day because I honestly gave no f*cks.

Maybe I should quite that job. 95% of the time, the job is fine, but when it gets stressful, I am not sure how to handle it, which is weird because most jobs ive done have been filled with way higher stress loads then this one.

Anyways, it's my first posting on here, so don't grill me to hard guys.