Bad sex and negative impressions

>>18532793

when i was 4 my brother made me touch him sexually.

but if you mean the consensual side of things, I once let a fat ugly old man convince me to fuck him. i was freshly 18 and he kept making it out like I owed him and had to.

probably my biggest regret.

>>18532801

>bt if you mean the consensual side of things, I once let a fat ugly old man convince me to fuck him. i was freshly 18 and he kept making it out like I owed him and had to

Really? Could you green text or explain this?

Also, how old are you?

>>18532815

about to turn 25.

>18
>fresh in la
>starting to have sex wtih other men for the first time
>some guy starts messaging me on grindr
>he has no pictures
>keeps promising it'll be 'worth it'
>this goes on for hours
>he gives me his stats, but at 18 im not sure what the height and weight look like. the weight sounds high but he promises hes good looking nad it'll be worth it
>he comes over and i try to send him away but he makes a big scene and i dont want him to wake up my landlord.
>finally I let him in and he rides my cock
>its disgusting and he smells and he keeps asking if i wanna make out
>its over fast thankfully
>finally make him leave
>he says he wnats to do it again
>im clearly not into this at all but he keeps going
>finally he leaves

never talked to him again. regretted it. entirely my fault for letting it happen. but definitely hate it. iveh ad a lot of gross disgusting sex, but thats the only time i regret it.

>>18532824

Oh you're gay. I thought you were a girl at first. Well, you said you've had "a lot of gross disgusting sex". Why did you do that?

>>18532793
Literally every sexual experience, anon. It would help if I had ever had a non-abusive relationship.

>>18532850

in those cases, because i wanted to. not because i was coerced.

>>18532861

Why did you choose to have gross disgusting sex? I just don't understand I guess.

All 3 times I've have been with a girl have been shit.

1. I was 18 to keep the story short.. one of my friends put me into a situation where I felt pressured to fool around with some Asian girl from high school. She wasn't bad looking, but I was not ready and felt totally unprepared and stressed. I had not a fucking clue what I was doing and it was awful. I really hated myself afterward.

2. First and only time having sex I was 20. Met girl from Facebook. I was not attracted to her at all. But, at the time I felt so much pressure to lose my VCard. So I did it. It was fucking awful. I felt gross and i couldn't feel anything. I felt so gross. I was so glad when it was over.

3. When I was 22 I met a girl from Tinder. I thought "my last 2 experiences were bad. But this time will be better". I was wrong. It was very awkward. Met this girl at her house. She started making out with me, after a bit she stopped me and said "are you a virgin?" I said no, and she accused me of lying. She had me go down on her which I did. She got off, then she blew me. I was upset from her accusing me of lying and felt bad that I went down on this bitch. So she blew me, but I felt nothing. I never came and after a while she got bored and stopped. She just stared at me. I left.


So, all I have is negative experiences. It's hard for me to see sex as a positive thing..

>>18532886

>why did you choose to have gross disgusting sex

im on an entirely different level anon. ive had sex more times than can be measured by mere humans. I've been to porn theaters, bath houses, and slightly private parking lots filled with other horny men looking to get off.

you get bored, so you do more deviant stuff.

>>18532896

Jesus.. that's sounds awful.. I can't imagine.

>>18532905

its pretty great. my current bitch just loves the abuse. half of our sex is just me slapping him.

>>18532911

Uh.

Well, you said that sex messed you up in the past. How did you recover and decide to try sex again?

>>18532914

i didnt say it stopped me from having sex. it messed me up cuz i still think about it and feel disgusted. i dont remember most of my sexual experiences but that one stands out way too much.

>>18532922

Alright. We do you have any advice for me?

I've had opportunities in the recent past. But I've become scared of affection and sex. I went through too much stress and pressure just to have some really uncomfortable, gross, and bad memories.

>>18532886
Try getting a gf you love, then you'll feel so good and cant stop fucking her brains out

>>18532930

realize that you gotta have bad experiences to figure out what a bad experience is. its a small event somewhere in time. it will affect you but it doesn't have to ruin you.

sometimes you gotta get back on the horse.

>>18532931

I can't..

>>18532936

But I'm worried about having another bad experience. I dwell a lot of those past memories. I don't want more to regret

>>18532940

>im worried about having a bad experience

then never do anything.

>>18532945
ok

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>>18532886
This highlights a huge issue with this age. Sex isn't for cumming - you don't want to have sex with random people on the internet, its fucking gross. Go find a girl and spend time with her. Don't fuck her for a few months, build a bond. Sex can be one of the best things in the world if you treat it as such. If you think sticking your dick in things you meet online you're going to have a bad time.

>>18532948

good. thread no longer necessary.

>>18532945

I'm just worried. Because imagine if someone told you to try a hot pepper. You ate it and it burned your mouth. Then, another time your friend tells you to try it, so you give it another go. You got burned again. A few years later, you decide to try again just to get burned yet again. Would you really keep trying?

>>18532958

well, why dont you like pepper? because it burns. pepper is always going to burn, unless you try sweet pepper of course.

why dont you like sex? well two times its because you literally were not attracted to your partner and only did it cuz someone else told you to, and the third time you dont mention attraction but basically said it was bad BEFORE the sex and pushed oyur self to do it anyway.

if you find a girl that makes you feel good, whats the harm?

>>18532951

then why is it that sex is just suppose to be so common and fun? All of my male and female friends have casual sex.

Anyways, I can't get a girlfriend. A year ago, I did just as you said, I because very close to a girl. Months as you said. I really developed feelings for her, she even told me she had feelings for me, things were going in her life so she told me she couldn't do a relationship. But she did tell me "I really care about you and I think about you every single day. I like you a lot". A month later, she told me she met a guy and they had been seeing each other for a few weeks. Tells me they are going to start dating. I was fucking crushed. That REALLY fucked me up.

Now, I can't accept anytime girls show interest in me. Just a few days ago, a girl gave me her number and has been texting sort of flirty to me. All I can do is dismiss it.

>>18532964

I don't know. I'm scared. I'm 27 and even tho I've done it before, I'm scared of sex. I'm scared of the thought of another person being naked up against me and looking at me with their face in mine. I'm scared of them touching me.

>>18532980

either commit to therapy, or move on. if you dont wnat to have sex you dont have ot. i recommend it for an optimal life but put it this way anon.

all lives, with or without sex will have some pain and usffering. thats life. but if your life, without the sex, is pretty solid, you're generally happy and not regretting the lack of sex... then whats it matter?

enjoy life as is. its okay. i do that with relationships. i just cant date. i can get laid 6 times a day, but cant hold down a relationship. but my life is otherwise pretty neato so its okay.

just do what makes you happy.

I got forcibly jacked off through my clothes for like 8 seconds by a fat bitch in my music class. I was 14. Everyone saw it. Next day, she tells my bullies she got in trouble over it and they fuck with me much more.
Music teacher was witness before and next day, she can not recall.

I don't want to fuck a woman anymore.

I dated bitches online and used them for nudes.

I jack off in frogs mouths before I killed them.
>spooge
>grip dick
>pry frog mouth open
>ungrip
>swallow

I killed a squirrel and buttfucked it with a zip tie.

Sex is overrated and that bitch damaged me and got away with it.

It did not help that my crush saw all of this (she was named Jessica and she liked me, according to her years later) and never stood up on my behalf and then asked me if I was gay. Many people called me gay. Now I like fapping to futa. Ugh.

>>18532988

>just do what makes you happy

I am. But just being a human male is stressful. There's the societal pressure that "guys who don't have sex are lame and pathetic" and also, since I'm a healthy male who works out. Natural instinct causes me to think about sex. Overall I have a decent life. It's just annoying that my body makes me think about things I don't think I should actually do

>>18532998

What...

>>18532998
I feel bad about what that bitch did to you.

But the frogs and the squirrel.. why? That's fucked up and just wrong. Those animals did nothing to you..

>>18533003

>societal pressure

no matter what you do there's always more societal pressure. remember that pain and suffering bit i talked about? thats about half ofit. if you go get laid you'll start getting people on the opposite side telling you that you need to stop being a man slut and settle down and yadda yadda. you cant win, so dont try.

the only thing oyu can do is brush people off and keep doing what you want.

you probably do want sex though. rejection is not the end of the world. a nonperfect experience is not the end of the world. put your self out there, see if a girl jives with oyu, and just duck out if she does not.

the goal is to find someone you like, not to bang. if you find someone you like, go ahead and bang. doesn't need to be 'months' like others have said. just make sure you're into them.

>>18533008
>get sexually harassed by male bully
>my teacher's son
>mrs. edwards
>named Henry
>behind him at water fountain
"Why did you touch my ass?"
>wtf is he talking about
>panic
>about to cry
>looks at me with evil grin
>if you don't say anything about this, I won't tell anyone
>get called gay
>get sexually assualted by fat girl later
>asked by crush if I am gay before that

Fast forward
>manipulated girls for nudes
>blackmailed women
>sexual sadist that killed and masturbated on animals I tortured and then killed.

>>18533017

>the goal is to find someone you like, not to bang. if you find someone you like, go ahead and bang. doesn't need to be 'months' like others have said. just make sure you're into them

The experience above where I mentioned the girl telling me she had feelings for me fucked that up. I can't handle affection. That shit was one of the most painful things that's happened to me. I really can't trust girls emotionally anymore. As I said, I have female friends. But, I can't allow myself to go through that again.

>>18533049
whipped*

I'm still a virgin and I hate sex and women but I am stil attracted to them.

I am psychologically abusive to my current gf and I think it stems from that. She never deserved that.

>>18533049

You're gross. Go away

Do not hurt any more animals

>>18533058
So is your mother.

Let's make something clear.

I did not hurt them, I killed them.

And I stopped. It was wrong.

I don't need your judgement.

Anyways, a story of how a victim of homosexual harassment and sexual assault became a literal degenerate.

>>18533049
what the fuck. End yourself m8.

>>18533073
Thanks for the laughs.

I will

>>18533066

>i masturbated on animals and tortured them
>>18533029

You said that you did right there. Leave them the fuck alone.

>>18533082
>And I stopped
A long fucking time ago.

>>18533066
You should not hurt yourself, you should kill yourself.

>get out of 5 year relationshit
>Few months, getting pretty horny
>Best friend has a good friend who she thinks I would have fun with
>Mentions he's chubby and maybe 5" in the dick, also has dental issues
>Ok whatever because he's experienced
>Travel an hour by bus to get to his place, bring a joint and some beers
>Get to his house, his dad opens the door and just stares at me
>Finally the guy comes over and says hey
>Literally he's wearing a fucking dress shirt, dress pants and a tie
>The house is borderline hoarder and dirty af
>Not attracted at all to this guy still convinced it will be ok because he is "experienced"
>Smoke a little, have some beer whatever
>Finally decided to do it
>Guy leaps on to me and starts kissing me super slobery and gross
>I'm the kind of girl that unless I'm super duper horny and into you I ALWAYS want to take it kind of slow with soft kisses so this is pretty fucking gross
>I pull out a condom (he didn't even have any!) And his dick is in chub mode because he's super nervous
>He struggles to keep it in the entire time while on top, gross sloppy kisses the entire time until he finally learns my pace
>Stop having sex after a little because its literally exhausting trying to keep his dick in me
>Get pizza show him NHK because he hadn't seen it
>After pizza he literally fucking makes an animal eating sound and lurches again and kisses me with the pizza all over his face lol
>We have sex and I'm on top which was at least OK enough to sort of enjoy
>Neither of us cum
>He walks me to my husband stop and wants so badly for me to kiss him goodbye, I give him a weak hug and get on my bus

Really the worst part of this is he then told my best friend how great in bed I was and that he wanted to date me and just got super cringy. I later hung out with him for my best friend's wedding and I was forced to sleep in the same bed as him, naturally I was polite and we made some jokes. The next day he was trying the whole time to get at me.i had rejected

>>18533036

sounds to me like you want to be defeated than mate. every single negative experience has made you decide not to try anything ever again.

we cant help you. therapy can't help you. only you can get over the defeatist attitude.

dont go outside tomorrow. you might stub your toe on something and never want to go outside again.

>Be me,
>Be 34,
>homeless woman needs a place to stay
>48 meth chick
>you can stay with me if you suck for free meth
>get succ of dicc
>tell her to get things to load in car
>drive off top speed

One time, I was forced to have sex with another female :c

I'm a girl and one time, my lesbian teacher locked her door and said she needed to speak with me in private.

She said I was failing Biology.

And she told me I will earn my extra credits by eating her pussy .-.

After seven minutes of torment, she said I could go..

My mom and dad wondered why I was late. I never told them. :'(

So one time in Calfornia there was a party
>1994
>Girl got shitfaced and blacked out
Go up to room
>Dudes in her
>Fucking her mouth and her pussy
>They see me
>You see anything?
>No, not at all
>We know
>You're next
>Better pick a hole, bro, the night is young
>Pick her ass
>Fucking devastate the ass
>She had sticky solid pebble shit
>Asshole 5x bigger and glaring red with dingleberries
> Forced to use ass goo and shit as lube for her pussy
>Switch back and forth
>Leave party

>>18533249

That's crazy

>>18533003
>"guys who don't have sex are lame and pathetic"
Fuck that dude, everyone is different. There are plenty of people who don't find sex just for the sake of sex pleasurable. And some people just aren't very sexual at all.
I've had sex with a few people that i wasn't fully attracted to because I felt weird about not having had sex for a while, it wasn't worth it. I don't do that anymore, I've gone years without sex and I don't regret it. When I do find someone I'm attracted to mentally and physically the sex is amazing.

Basically fuck everyone else. Figure out what you actually want and do that. Acting based on what you think you're supposed to do will never make you happy.

>>18533148

It's just hard to want to keep trying if all I have known from several attempts is bad things

>>18533288

Yeah perhaps you're right

>>18533291

>but its haaaaaard

this is what you sound like.

Pt 2,
>Hear about it in high school, week later
>Senior
>Blonde slut stopped going to parties
>Heard rumors of her getting a vaginal infection
>One time, she was in class and had to use the bathroom
>Teacher wouldn't let her go
>She shit herself in class
>Her asshole was so destroyed that she literally could not hold it in

She bent over one time to get in her locker and she was wearing a skirt and shit slid right out and protruded through her panties. Other girls bullied her and stuffed her locker full of diapers.

Shit was diamonds.

>>18533140
why the fuck did you keep letting him try to fuck you? That whole story made my dick go inverted.

Pt 3.

>girl flunked almost everything
>guys talk to her about how they raped her ass and now she shits herself
>later learn the two dudes devastated her asshole
>five more dudes came up and they shoved things in her asshole
>they even fisted her and shoved a bat in her ass
>teacher hears
>it comes up in class
>everyone who fucked with her is shocked
>she cries and breaks down in class
>she never got her asshole fixed and they never found who did it

>Years later
>Look at porn
>Hotkinkyjo
>HOLY SHIT, ITS HER
>Totally destroyed anal whore.

>>18533334
Wow this is depressinh as fuck.

>>18533312
Ugh I don't know, it was the second person I had ever had sex with and I just convinced myself.it may get better and it did a little but overall was fucking awful

Now I'm in a great relationship and have great sex tho so all ends well.

>>18533343
>Now I'm in a great relationship and have great sex tho so all ends well
Good Karma

>In military, live in barracks
>haven't had sex in over a year
>go out to club with a friend
>we both are after the same girl, she has a less than attractive friend with her
>figure it can't hurt to be nice to her if it gets me closer to the first girl
>drunk, don't even notice the first girl leaves
>go with friend and meh girl to the other girls place, where she is hanging out with her boyfriend...
>meh girl wants to play flip cup and we indulge
>shit is getting lame and friend wants to go home (he drove us)
>meh girl says she'll take me home later, and I figure wtf I'll get laid at least
>we fuck on the floor of an empty spare bedroom (maybe a couple times, I can't remember) and pass out for a bit
>Early morning she wants us to get a hotel room, but I don't want to pay for it and convince her if she still wants to hang out we should go to her place
>Only food she has is terrible noodles and peanut sauce, literally nothing to drink
>for some reason I keep fucking her
>feel trapped cause she drove and doesn't want me to leave
>puts on a tutu and asks me if I like it
>I don't I just want to cum and be done
>keep trying to get her to drive me home
>start getting annoyed
>she says she'll drive me if I give her 100 kisses
>"no" get her to drive me awkwardly back to the barracks
>never see her again
This was probably 8 or 9 years ago and my memory is pretty hazy from going from drunk to severely dehydrated. I guess I was trying to be nice and I didn't want to hurt her feelings, so I kept doing whatever she wanted. I ended up feeling like I had been kidnapped and I had to pay a sex toll to go home. It was pretty fucked up. Hopefully she had a good time at least...

sex is boring as a thing that stands alone, you need something to compliment it, like an interesting situation or love

>>18533386

Then why do so many people enjoy casual sex? All of my female friends have FwB and say how it's just fun to be able to have sex whenever

>>18533297

Would you continue to do something that in the past has just caused you stress?

>>18534489
Friends with benefits means they are having sex with someone they know, are attracted to, and trust enough to be intimate with regularly. It's still a relationship, just one with a clear understanding that it's not building to anything more serious.

>>18534643

But isn't that just sex tho?

>>18534662
In my experience the sex is always better when both parties are comfortable with each other. And if they are friends, they probably still maintain some level of emotional support for each other.

>>18534677


Well I guess that makes sense. But I can't really see the difference from that and a relationship

It can be awkard