Hi anons,
I am a 30 year old neet and I am looking for advice.
Here is a rundown:
>be me back in the day, a 16 year old popular dude in HS
>lots of friends
>great girlfriend
>stay together 8 years
>she cheats and we break up when I'm 24
>devestated.jpg
>fucks up my brain bad
>spend the next 8 years as a complete and total hermit
>make very small amount of money online
>living with parents
>only good thing is that I am going to the gym
>extreme depression and social anxiety
>tried prescription drugs, tried therapy, tried motivational speakers, etc...
>confidence level = zero
>have posted to reddit and 4chan hundreds of times about this same issue
I feel like I cannot be me, as if people always see me as depressed. I am somewhat socially retarded but I can talk with friends and family. My days for many years have consisted of: waking up, making coffee, eating breakfast, maybe going to the gym, sitting around at home playing games, doing a small amount of work, smoking some weed, and going to bed. I haven't have a relationship or been sexual with somebody for 7 years. I can't relate to family members because they don't undetstand depression and social anxiety.
What the fuck do I do? I want to kill myself and I think about it everyday but I am too much of a pussy. I am super fucked but I could never kill anybody else. Do I get up and leave my country (Canada)? Do I move away from everybody and cut contact? It feels like everyone I know will always see me as depressed. I feel like I am still here somewhere but I seriosuly have no clue what to do. This is not a troll post or a ruse- I am seriously looking for advice.
>>18531489
>be 30 years old
>16 year old dates girl for 8 years
>breaks up at 24
>8 years later complete hermit
>24 + 8 = 32
>30 years old
somethings not adding up here.
>>18531489
Travel and find some purpose or get some charity work.
At the moment you don't need money, you need social interaction and a reason to live. Find something you're passionate in and do something related to that.
Travel did it for me.
Conservation work has helped other people I know.
>>18531500
I am actually almost 32 but I usually just say I am 30.
I couldn't post cause 4chan on Arch was giving me some "Connection error".
>>18531515
I would travel but I think the social anxiety prevents me from doing it. It feels weird, the idea of traveling alone.
My whole life I could never find something I was passionate about.
There is no help. Time to kms.
>>18531530
Once you do it you'll be fine, try doing a couple nights in a hostel in another city nearby to see how it feels
>>18531489
>boo hoo all this shit because break up with girlfriend
She didn't do anything, you just reacted poorly. If this is the only thing stopping you from living for 8 fucking years then you deserve it.
>best years of life is in highschool meme
If the best year of your life isn't the current year get the fuck out and make it happen.